@Jonachav123 congrats on 3 weeks @Bran522 congrats on 60 days @anon42928441 congrats on 2 weeks @liv_m congrats on getting back out there @Deep congrats on 40 days @PaigeTurner I hope the long walk helps sending strength @anon86198612 so pleased to read this congrats on the benefits
572 days no alcohol.
37 days no cocaine.
14 days no binge-eating.
Just caught up after missing a check-in yesterday. I still haven’t fully adjusted to the later nights from doing meetings, was determined not to miss another day though!
I’m doing okay, meetings are really helping. Not feeling quite as energized and hopeful as I was at the beginning of the week, after completing steps 1-3 last weekend, but I think that’s because I’m feeling like step 4 is going to be really heavy, I’m starting it tomorrow afternoon with my sponsor and then I’ll have a week to do some worksheets on my own.
I’m doing okay with cutting down to 3mg vape liquid from 6mg, I’ve got a few days worth left before I start on 0mg for a week or so before attempting to stop vaping completely again.
I got a new phone last night, and despite transferring everything from my previous phone to this one, I’ve lost all of my addictions and journal history
Yes… You are correct with everything you say here.
And yes… There ARE a helluva lot of good, sound, lovely , sober, recovery minded people.
Today I’ve been loosing (yes, loose -ing) people whom I gave and still give my efforts, time and energy toward and yet they still wanna use and give excuses that they are different and it’s ok.
Ive been doing some hard 365 mirror looks at my self and whomever else is in my tight circle and it’s gotta be only me for a bit.
I’ll jam Kingdom Muzic, Tori Kelly, Young Bro and then I’ll throw a curve ball of Lady XO. Lol… All Christian except lady xo. Well … she is too but her music is not.
Checking in Day19
Went to the art exhibit with hubby. It was quite nice over all, but abit crowded. Got some good pictures Straightened my hair and actually put some makeup on. Felt nice to get dressed up abit and go out. Once home we settled in and then as I kind of suspected… he hinted at using in a very subtle way. I caught onto it but I acted like I didn’t and kept talking about other things lol. Then again, he hints at it but was much more direct this time. And this time I just scrunched my face and said no. It IS getting easier to turn it down. I don’t have to turn it down often but at the same time, I am learning to stay on my toes and have my “armor” on fir particulsr days that I know are more susceptible to me being asked. So… I was expecting it and thats why it didn’t catch me off guard. Briefly that little thought goes thru my mind. But I am not going thru that shit any more. I am happy where I am being clean and sober. I love who I’m becoming
Anyway, here is my current mood haha
I found this this in one of my boxes from way back when. It’s called the Daily Mood. It had a variety of moods to choose from lol This should help hubby with how I’m feeling lol jk
So glad you had an amazing day! I had a great day too but now I’m craving. Poured myself a nice non alcoholic beverage and thought to myself " this would taste better with a shot of gin… Maybe just a 1/2 a shot???"" NOOOOOOOO… Not just one. Not just one. One will be ten. I would be sooo disappointed if I gave up now. 1 week here I come!!! (Any comments are greatly appreciated as I’m still really trying to convince myself not to drink!!! It’s right there in the cupboard… But I’m not going to open it!)
Cheers buddy You’ll be seeing me around as I like browsing and posting on this app for my own growth! Same as it’s nice to have you around here! Posting about my close-call and state of mind the other day for example genuinely helped somehow. Whether for big or small, this community is quite something…!
Maybe it’s time to get rid of those triggers (like that cupboard drink) @Miranda…? If possible. You’ve got this my friend believe in yourself, one way and day or another…!
Howdy out there, wherever you are. Just a quick check-in to say all is well with me. My Saturday has been nice. Went to the climbing gym and had a good time with my friends there. Then home to do some housework and just be lazy after that. So lazy in fact that dinner was a peanut butter sandwich. I’m totally fine with that!
It is supposed to start snowing tonite and continue tomorrow, so when I wake up I expect to be back in winter mode after such nice weather last week. The plan for tomorrow is pretty much the same as today.
For sure my well wishes and hopes for peace are going out to the world these days.
The only time I don’t really like the snow is when I have to drive to work in it. Other than that I do love the snow! If I didn’t already have plans to be at the gym in the morning I’d be planning on putting on my winter hiking gear and hitting some trail. Being out in it like that can make you feel so alive! Or cold. OK both.
It does make you feel both! mostly cold but I agree though, I love when it snows but not so fun to drive in. Whatever you do tomorrow stay warm and safe!
Normally would’ve seen my whole family today but I decided to stay home and rest after my relapse. Played a little bit of a game with s friend, and then spent the rest of the day just playing games on my own and coloring.
I’m doing ok I guess. Still having a hard time getting past the self destructive feelings after my relapse. I feel like if I already did it once and undid so much progress, why am I still fighting it. I’m just really tired of my life always being miserable
Checking in Day19
Today was really good! Even after my hubby tried suggesting to me that he wanted to get drugs for us, and after turning it down, the evening was so nice! After I turned the idea down, I took care of me 1st. When this happens I know I need to remove myself from him briefly (cuz if i stay around him the urge is there to give in. Plus this gives him time to unwind and deal with his own urges to use), and ground myself and connect to my HP so that I keep strong in my thoughts of not using. So I took a warm shower. I got out and then I kept myself busy with this dreamctacher that needed to be done for tomorrow for my hubbys co-worker (picture below). It’s such a unique one… a Leo Constellation. There’s 3 charms on it (a key, a small feather, and a turquoise feather). And then there’s a turquoise colored rock hanging right below hoop in the middle Going to relax the rest of this evening and hit 20 days as of 11pm tonight! Luv u guys!
Checking in, day 484 without alcohol. I’m staying in Hungary for a little while. I’ve been having some intense days and it’s hard to keep everything in mind and focus on my tasks. Lots of social interactions, but luckily I’m less anxious about that than I used to be, it’s easier to represent myself. I’m really grateful for my treatment that allows me to do so.
Hey, idk I don’t want to be negative and complaining on the forum anymore. It wast terrible, time was good with my girls they stayed the night but we didn’t do anything crazy fun either. They played autumn did some drawing, I treated them to some subs for dinner. I’m on day 1 no pre-work out I’ve been getting worse and worse with that. I just bought my can of c4 like 3 days ago which has 30 scoops and Im already out,taking like idk well over 10 scoops a day it’s killing my insides, my teeth are rotting from it bc it’s so sugary. I’m sick of being in my self pitty and at the same time doing nothing about it, I kind of don’t want to post anymore till I can get it under control it’s not good always posting negativity nobody wants to see that
sending strength 
congrats on the benefits 
thank you.
Straightened my hair and actually put some makeup on. Felt nice to get dressed up abit and go out. Once home we settled in and then as I kind of suspected… he hinted at using in a very subtle way. I caught onto it but I acted like I didn’t and kept talking about other things lol. Then again, he hints at it but was much more direct this time. And this time I just scrunched my face and said no. It IS getting easier to turn it down. I don’t have to turn it down often but at the same time, I am learning to stay on my toes and have my “armor” on fir particulsr days that I know are more susceptible to me being asked. So… I was expecting it and thats why it didn’t catch me off guard. Briefly that little thought goes thru my mind. But I am not going thru that shit any more. I am happy where I am being clean and sober. I love who I’m becoming 
You’ll be seeing me around as I like browsing and posting on this app for my own growth! Same as it’s nice to have you around here! Posting about my close-call and state of mind the other day for example genuinely helped somehow. Whether for big or small, this community is quite something…! 
You’ve got this my friend 
believe in yourself, one way and day or another…! 
mostly cold but 
I agree though, I love when it snows but not so fun to drive in. Whatever you do tomorrow stay warm and safe! 
