Thanks man! I will 
hope youāre doing okay as well.
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Morning check in, day 256. I slept horribly and when I did, I had bizarre drinking dreams. Happy to be checking in sober. Thanks for being out there, friends. 
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Morning all, checking in here at (actually not sureā¦) Day 16 or 17. Quite pleased that I am no longer obsessing, and canāt be bothered to look 
Well the world is a very scary place right now, having to stay away from the news mostly. We start to get over a global pandemic and head into a major war 
I feel like my sobriety is making me want to reach out and connect with the world, but the world is terrifying so I am scuttling back inside my little world.
I am so sorry to read about your past experiences @ShesGotMoxie @CATMANCAM and @paper_boats No child should have to go through anything like that, and those experiences absolutely impact you. I have something called Functional neurological disorder. It is a real physical condition, and treated as such, and one of the first questions the neurologist asked when talking about it was did I experience childhood trauma as the two were connected. Sorry, not making it about me but trying to demonstrate that even the medical community recognise the impact of these things. Those feelings have to manifest somehow.
I didnāt check in yesterday but did read here lots. It was all a bit crazy yesterday, children hurting themselves, busy at work, not feeling well. I didnāt post but did prioritise reading as I know how important it is to keep on top of it. Today is another day, and hopefully calmer.
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I had lots of drinking dreams last night, actually felt drunk and it was horrible. I think I am worrying about my husbandās birthday coming up and the test. Last year I bought him (among other things) the ingredients for the cocktails we both had on our honeymoon and we had a lovely date night. He was so touched at the thought too. I am a little sad that I am not capable of doing that this year. Need to think of other fun gifts!
Do you think you have similar on your mind?
Or it could be like the dreams I have when going through a hard time. I always end up back in school 
Not the happiest of memories and my brain seems to be processing new things through old patterns.
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Day 154 checking in we keep moving forward 
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20 days.
Yesterday was tough. Felt down, frustrated lethargic, etc. Got good bike ride in the arvo.
Today was better. Achieved nearly all I set out to do. Felt better and more able to cope with life.
Until tomorrow, good night.
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Day 560
Went for jog and did cleaning this morning. Afternoon covered a friendās kindergarten class. I am not used to them, and also it was noisy, obviously, so have a headache. Going to take a rain-check on my Japanese book club and go to sleep.
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Checking in on Tuesday morning. Sober and grateful.
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1 year 5 months 1 day. Thank god for the 1 day 
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Hey all, checking in on day 618. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Feeling good. Great day yesterday spent with my children. My youngest is getting very good at playing chess. Beat me twice. 
Spring is on the airā¦soonā¦
Strong and serene 24 all!
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Mornin everyone. Day 186. Two more weeks of school, few days off, then start two more classes. Nicotine patches should be here by the end of the week to so I can attempt to quit chewing. Take care everyone!
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Good morning! Its going to be a wet one here today. At least I donāt have to shovel rain haha. Congratulations everyone on another 24 hours sober. Make it a awesome day!
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52 days. According to my wife my journey in sobriety is beginning to motivate others at work. A friend of mine there is 3 days sober and he told my wife that im his inspiration to continue. Never saw that coming but it does feel good.
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Day 1206.
My boss came in the office today and caught me off guard. I never see him or have any contact to him. Maybe once a month max. He asked me how I was doing. - Fine. Perfect. Then: how I liked it here. I thought he was kidding me and I asked him if he meant my actual cluster/office. - itās okay. Then: and are you content with the company. - no. Then: ah, I see . I am really looking forward to our (annual) meeting.
I will need some tranqualizer, Baldrian or something.
I am sober. This is good. Have no intention to change that today. My muscles are sore from too many pistol squats. That is also good. Hello body, still there.
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Day 97
Just checking in. Hope everyone has a great day!
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Day 1 after terrible days of binging. I feel really down
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I think itās no coincidence your post was the first thing I saw when I checked my feed; a lot really resonates with me. Shortest possible version:
Parents always have a favorite whether they admit it or not. Not mine. They had no shame reminding me my older brother Matt was the āgoodā son. You know why? They never had to talk to him. Like most overweight nerds, I didnāt have a good time in high school. Ignored by girls, bullied by guys, performing beneath my intelligence because because I let the emotions distract me. And of course I played D&D (mind you, this was during the āSatanic Panicā part of the 80ās, and my parents were Pentecostal Christians! 
)
Matt on the other hand was ālow maintenanceā. Heād come home from school, go straight to his room, come down for dinner, go back. He obviously had some kind of MH problems himself (likely high function autistic), but he was the āgoodā kid.
Took me forever to accept the fact that I was an ordinary teenager, having ordinary teenager problems. But I never got any kind of encouragement or a pat on the back or any kind of recognition; Iāve wondered a lot lately if my upbringing is the reason I seemed determined to fail. 
Nowhere to go but up, right?
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Childhood abuse is definitely a root cause of many mental health problems. The first doctor who asked me got a surprise. I was in my mid-30s and having pre-cancer issues, and she just happened to be the first person who has ever asked me. I busted out bawling like a baby and just unloaded. I was probably the highlight of her day. 
Thanks so much for your kindness, Jenny. 
@Hopeful777 Marie, I so appreciate your sweet self. Iāll take that hug. Trust issues are big for me, and I understand that they would be for you, too. P.S. Iām weird in addition to the deep thinking. 
But thank you anywaysā¦ Iāll take it!
I also want to apologize for not adding a trigger warning to my share. Iāve spoken about it here before, but not in a while and definitely not on such a public thread. My thoughts were just flowing through my fingertips. 
Iām going now to add that TW.
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