She’s so stinkin’ adorable!!! 
It’s a wonderful feeling to be present for them. I’m happy for you. 
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Checking in with 2 years and 1 day. I am grateful for my recovery and life. I kind of messed up and slipped into temptation into another area of recovery for me last night. It was something that was never really a problem per se but I wanted abstinence from it bc I didn’t like how it made me feel when I did it so yeah I feel kind of shitty. I am trying not to let the negative thoughts consume me and remember that it’s gonna be ok as long as I get back on track and try not to do it again. But I stayed clean. So yeah. Anyway, today I have to get both of my big toe toenails removed 
I’m kind of just wanting to get the process over with and be brave. My friend is coming with me to be supportive so anyone who sees this pray for me that I don’t have like an anxiety attack or a mental freak out bc I get scared w procedures… anyway after that my worker is coming over and we are celebrating my 2 years sober and doing some crafts. We are making crosses, dragon fly art and something else I can’t remember so I am excited to do that. I just wanna have a positive day today and incorporate my HP into it bc everyone is saying today is a special day bc it’s 2/22/22!! So yeah… I just wanna put some goodness out there today. Anyway, celebrated 2 years sober yesterday and I am very happy about that but nice to see you guys. Have a great day.
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Hi Kat here checking in day 202 things are good just at work. Was able to hit gym after work yesterday and will again today. Then my homegroup tonight in-person to which I will drive a fellow addict.
Busy life but I wouldn’t trade it for the years I was off work due to my addiction.
You can do it guys, one day at a time. I too started at day 1.
Love Kat
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Oh!!! Beautiful picture! She has the most beautiful big eyes 
What great motivation to continue on with ur recovery. Ur doing great Charlie!
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Today I’m feeling kinda depressed like it’s 3pm and I don’t want to move out of bed. This is the first time in my 30 days sobriety. Making me feel shit to be honest, I just feel drained like I have no energy. Thought I’d write it on here see if anyone has any self help tips because I don’t want to slip up and go back to alcohol and drugs 
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Good luck with your procedure! You will be totally okay! Close ur eyes during it and focus on ur breath! U got this!
I’m really proud of you on ur 2 years and 1 day! I’m sorry u had to experience feeling crappy tho. Funny how things just sneak up. There are quite a few things in my life that are not addiction related but still make me feel yucky when I do them. I try to avoid them at all costs, but we are human. Progress not perfection they say 
Today sound wonderful! Would love to see ur creations if ur up for taking pics!
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It’s a funky numbers kinda day. Deuces are wild today too with the 22-02-2022.
Lots of powerful shares on here this morning. Very insightful and meaningful. I hear you @anon53116147 @DryIn785 @BroccoliHighKicks My oldest sister Gayla was valedictorian of her class with a perfect 4.0 grade. Nothing I did was as good as Gayla. My older sister Lori got modeling offers. I was a short chubby ginger that had freckles and a hot temper. ~ sigh ~ Most of the time, I couldn’t get my parents attention if my hair was on fire. I was an after thought, an also ran.
I believe this ^^^ is VERY true. Even into adulthood the perception was my siblings were successful with college degrees and high paying jobs. I was a self-employed struggling artisan for many years. My struggle with alcohol surely didn’t help the way my family viewed me. ~ sigh ~
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Morning checkin
Day 8
Feels good heading into the 2nd week of recovery. I’m going to have a good day today! It’s freezing here so I will be indoors working on a new dreamcatcher project for my husband’s coworker. He is an alcoholic. They know each other from back home and my husband goes and tattoos him occasionally. So I will make a nice dreamcatcher for him
Lots of very insightful posts on here today. Thank you for opening up @anon53116147, @DryIn785, and @BroccoliHighKicks. I absolutely agree with you Rose on how adulthood is an extension of childhood. My home was very chaotic. My mom had untreated mental health concerns when my brother and I were growing up. I was often her “little counsellor”. She would tell me about the problems her and my dad had. I saw her scream and cry and walk out and throw things often. This shifted into a horrible hate for my father. Didn’t help tho that my father was unemotional available either and I couldn’t get his attention for the life of me. Comparing then and now, I am in the helping field with others who have mental health concerns (which isn’t a bad thing at all) but I feel like my relationship with my father sort of transferred to the kind of man I chose to have has my husband. My husband is not the greatest communicator either and is often very tough and not emotional what so ever. Weird. Ya… and stuff around weight. I too was bullied in school for having weird clothes and being chunky, along with my grandmother constantly making comments about my weight and how much food I ate etc. They say BPD (which is what I am diagnosed as having) actually stems from childhood stuff and me being a sensitive child didn’t help. But we can break those cycles and choose not to keep passing down those hurtful traits to future generations
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Heya, these are pretty normal symptoms in the early days so try to hold some compassion for yourself. I did a lot of reading on addiction, how it had affected my brain and what I should expect over the next year of recovery.
In the little magnifying glass have a search of the topic PAWS ( post accute withdrawl syndrome) you can also find a lot of good information online about it. PAWS maybe what you are experiencing.
Impermenance was one of my favorite things about early recovery… things are always changing. This was a good thing because I was all over the place. The best thing I did was just ride the waves.
Congrats on your days you’re doing a super job.
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Hello. Its sometimes normal to feel that way. Your brain is recalibrating that is it is starting to become normal. Depending on what drugs consumed it gives a dopamine hit to your brain and when you stop that your brain goes to its normal state. During this phase you may feel down, fatigue.
You should not give up. Do things that you love, meditate. The hard days will pass.
I am trying to quit p*rn and have learn some of these things about how addiction affect the brain.
I am also reaching 30 days and I want to keep going. Hope that helps.
There are also better people who could help you quit drinking here. Just reach out.
Have a nice day
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Checking in Day 49
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Day 620 clean and sober today. Today is Saturday for me not sure what I’m going to do yet. Definitely some chores around the house then maybe a hike? Have an amazing day everyone I love you guys!!! 
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Day 131. Thanks for the replies everyone and being able to relate… wishing us all positive healing and thoughts…. Had a good night both girls didn’t want to leave, but just autumn stayed the night we had a good time, it was good for her and good to see how much she missed her sister… Anyway much love
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Wow! I’m finding so much in common with each of you. @DryIn785 I was raised Pentecostal and I was a good kid, just never good enough for my parents, especially my mom. It was an oppressive time for me. @BroccoliHighKicks I was speaking only yesterday about how adulthood is an extension of childhood. It’s absolutely true, and we recognize that even more being sober and on a path to healing. I used to try and share my achievements with my parents, but I got nothing. It’s like they are simply unable to fully see me.
T, I was like your siblings growing up. I made straight A’s throughout my entire school career. When I was in school, report cards had to be signed by a parent. After elementary school, I never even bothered bringing them home. Neither of my parents looked at them or signed them. I was on homecoming court and my dad wouldn’t walk me. I had to ask our basketball coach one year… which everyone loved and cheered, but I wanted my daddy there. I was co-valedictorian, but they barely acknowledged it. I’m sure they must’ve been proud of me in their own ways, but at the time I needed to hear it.
Our parents were going through their own issues and problems when we were growing up. I still say that didn’t give them the right to disregard us. I believe in a lot of instances, it’s up to us to take what we got, or didn’t get, from our parents and use that to break the harmful patterns rather than carrying them with us. I’m glad to see this conversation opening up here, because it’s healing for all of us. 
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Congratulations on your 2 years of awesomeness Flannery.
Praying you procedure goes smoothly.
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I definitely have similar things on my mind. Currently on a work trip where I used to drink quite a lot with others. Some of those memories are good, but not because of the alcohol. That’s not what my lizard brain wants to tell me, though!
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Check in number 2 on 2/22/22 with a power of 2! (256). I had some chamomile tea, and now winding down. Hoping for better sleep tonight. Stay strong everyone.
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