What are you doing to support your sobriety? It does get better over time, but just white knuckling and abstaining isn’t the best way to tackle it. Congrats on your days!
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I’ve been listening to aa meetings, and a couple non aa ones. I’ve changed my routines and added exercise and better food. I’m in therapy and treatment for mental health conditions as well. Just thought something would feel better by now, but I’m more sad and hopeless than I’ve ever been.
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Checking in
Day 9
Feeling very irritable and grouchy right now. Amazing how 1 phone call can just throw things off. Hubby is pissed too from that call. I just hate the politics and crap when dealing with medical stuff. I’m constantly dealing with lack of communication and incompetent people who u would think, would have decent work ethics and stuff being in the “helping field”. I’m not saying everyone is like that in the medical field (Ive had really good experiences too) but I have some gringe worthy stories that have created the lack of trust I have in them. It’s absolutely frustrating.
Anyway, I am going to let it go now lol. Restart my day from this point. Connect to my HP and pray, turn on some tunes, clean, get creative, etc.
Hoping everyone is doing well today!
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You are doing all the right things, my friend. I am so glad you are seeing a therapist to help you through. I have anxiety and depression that I am treated for as well. Also, I don’t know where you are located, but where I am, it is dead of winter and so depressing. I can’t get outside for my normal walking regimen, no sun, etc. Just a depressing time of the year. Might want to check out some sobriety podcasts and definitely stream some uplifting and funny tv shows to lift your spirits. In early sobriety, I ate ice cream every night. I did whatever I needed to do to not drink. It got way better for me between 3-4 months. I am rooting for you!
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Checking in on day 257. It was a beautiful, sunny day here today. I am grateful for the nice weather and the sense of peace and serenity that has come with sober nights and hangover-free mornings. Hope everyone is doing well wherever you are.
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Thank you so so much, I really needed to hear that today.
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Thank you!
I’m writing this, surrounded by people drinking…. The smell of wine in the air. Trying to stay strong!
I already drank a lot of water and soda to keep te cravings down.
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Checking in, lots of days, not sure how many, 1800’s +?
Poor mental health day yesterday due to a rejection of sorts. I’m not sure why my body processes things the way that is does. It’s like a quick wound that my whole body surrounds somehow to make better. It would have been an excellent day to drink in my past life. And I thought about that. I did. But I thought how realistically it would be a complete shit show if I drank. And so I abstained. And now I’m on to day 1800 something-I-forget plus one.
Have a great day everyone.
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If you have to get out of there to keep from drinking please do! For me the heavy smell of wine is an unpleasant memory. But that took time. Protect your sobriety Jonathan.
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Day 132… so I got another weird message from that same girl this time she’s asking if I can tattoo her friend for her so she can watch me, just being very pushy and very nosey, trying to come over last night so she can see my setup and see what kind of inks and machine I use…. Like my mind was confused on what to do, part of it was wanting to be a good guy and say sure, bc I can stir up more business tattooing her friend. But part of me also says this isn’t right of her and I need to tell her no sorry, figure this out on your own. Either way it was weird… but girls are home good times with them now
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There are NO coincidences
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That IS weird!!! She just recently was rude to you right? And now she’s wanting ur help? Hmmm wonder what this is all about? Idk. Makes u think what her motive is if there is one.
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It’s good to see you Karen, and I’m glad you decided against drinking. It’s the right choice. Sorry for the shitty days. Hope things get better soon.
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Not been on here as much recently, but checking in to say I am back on day 38, which is where I got up to before Christmas period where I stupidly decided that I was probably fine and could moderate again! I did manage to moderate for a bit but the last two times got out of hand as it always does. So I’m glad to have got my 38 days back! & I no longer think that I am someone who could ever go back to trying to drink normally and moderate. I know I don’t drink in the same way that others do and I don’t think that is ever going to change. I also totally do not miss the hang overs and the wasted days in bed! Starting to make peace with a quieter life and have met a few sober friends which has been good! So roll on 40 days! 
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Thank you so much Shay. Yes I’m doing it …
So thankful. You are a great example of how it’s done
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Yes she was very rude… to me it seems weird, I could be over thinking it . But my gut doesn’t like it. I was talking to her but once she started being really nosey I started ignoring her.
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Listen to ur gut for sure! U know something not right. Very strange behaviour
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Congrats on your 38 days Kady.
A very wise man on here turned me on to Chapter 3 in the audio Big Big book. I’ve listened to it quite a few times now.
I know I’ll never be able to drink like a gentleman.
Thank you Jason Fisher 
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Looks like I missed your 90 days too Des. Never too late to celebrate another day clean and sober.
Good for you.
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This is what I was talking about the chatter of the mind. It does make us confused because it doesn’t shut the fuck up!
Trust your intuition, your gut instinct like Dana said. If it feels shady it’s probably shady.
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