I have a had few here n there that pop up and once I realize that the conversation is not recovery related I just shut it down. But it can be very intimidating and could potentially drive people away. I know of 1 lady who I used to chat with that told me she left bcuz of that reason 
Thatās quite sad bcuz she loved it here.
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Mhm, putting my profile on private took care of that if you want help to do that shoot me a DM
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Checking in, day 161.
Nightmares, nightmares everywhere!
I try my hardest not to let them effect my day but sometimes itās just too much.
My occasional nightmares of my old life are a constant(where the real nightmare seems to be waking up)
But Iāve had alot of nightmares of relapsing and none of them are pretty. I donāt want to even attempt to dwell what an actual relapse would look like, I know that I am no longer drowning in thoughts of suicide but whos to say those thoughts wonāt come rushing back the moment i start feeling sauced up? Its terrifying and has quickly become my biggest and only fear in my new life of living fearless after having dealt with the biggest fear in my entire life.
Some days are easier than others. Today is just okay and im fine with that.
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Checking in day 62ā¦ I was well aware of my 60 day milestone just passing but been busy keeping the rain out of the house with this flood happening. Also internet is down and mobile data is slow atm so took me awhile to catch up on this thread which I like to do before I post. Nice to read about some of you all doing well
Iām the aftermath of the Brisbane floodsā¦ seeing the devastation here and elsewhere (Lismore!) has given me something to be grateful for amid pretty severe depression.
Gonna have to do something about that! At least Iām not drinking.
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You are welcome and thank you, @ShesGotMoxie , we are comrades, we are sisters, and as it is said, āwe are all in this together!ā
Hugs, to you, and to all the others out there, too!
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Yay, 5 months, congrats 
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Day 161 checking in 
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Good luck at the doctors appointment tomorrow! 
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#Day 1259 
Mentally unstable because of the war and my failed new tattoo. So using my toolbox to keep myself sober and as stable as possible.
So Iām downsizing the amound of news Iām reading about the Ukrain war. I may only check in on the news 3 times a day. I try to avoid seeing the tattoo. I have to take care for it because itās fresh but I do it without looking.
And like I said earlier: I use the serenity prayer and focus on today.
I manage, I know Iām an very emotional person and tend to exaggerate. The argue with the special person about the wedding isnāt helping as well. We talked about it, but it takes time to heal.
Heās sad and angry about our desision to get married without inviting guests.
Life is difficult sometimes. It makes me crave the wine thing again But I know that wonāt help either. So letās focus on what I know that helps: a walk in nature. Have to work, but time enough for a walk!
Picture frome our love lock we put on the love lock bridge in the town Iām living in after our wedding.
The lock with the red heart is ours
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- Coffee. My day off. Gym time, general me time. Iām OK but damned do I feel the feelings these days. Tears keep coming. Canāt play some music I like or there I go. Some tough decisions to make at work, there I go. Watching the news. Thinking about myself, my past, my upcoming milestone. Itās good Iām feeling 'm though. Great even. Itās part of recovery. At least I feel.
Had a crave for a drink last night coming home from a long late shift. Made me remember the bit of red wine I have in my kitchen cupboard I have there for cooking. I took it out. The view of the fluid made me sick. Literally. Crave gone. Not advising this route for anyone, I know many folks donāt want any alcohol in the house or cook with it. I didnāt for about two years. But for me it worked out like this, this time.
Have as good a day as you can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from Amsterdam. Itās still winter. Butā¦
@HoofHearted Youād know. Your body your mind your soul would know. Have a good sober trip Dan.
@SadMemeQueen Hope youāre OK Megan. Hugs.
@Tragicfarinelli Morning Emma. x
@SoberWalker Unstable here too. Weāll make it through. Together.
@Callie99 5 Months lady! Awesome stuff. Big congrats.
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Morning Menno 
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Sending hugs to you Menno! On Sunday my emotions totally let go, like you I cried over everything and anything. By night time I felt utterly exhausted and heavy but lighter at the same timeā¦ I think being emotional, allowing ourselves to feel the feels and shed those tears can be very therapeutic, still something Iām getting used to doing now in sobriety.
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Beautiful image, my colleague did a lot of research on love locks, fascinating.
Sorry to hear you are struggling, I hope you have a good day
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Beautiful picture, full of hope.
I am struggling too, so hard to see the news, and people seem to need to talk about it. I donāt blame them, it is a way of processing it. Colleagues are affected by having family in neighbouring countries, hearing the bombings, taking refugees. They are remembering visits they made and worrying about the people they met. It is so hard and how can you help them? I feel like there is nothing I can say as it is all so incomprehensible in modern Europe.
Take care of yourself, cuddle cats and get into nature.
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Yes we do, thanks Menno 
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Morning all, checking in on Day (actually not sure) 23? It is the first day of Spring and Pancake day. I am trying to hold onto that and it will give me hope.
My daughter woke up with spots all over her back so not sure what to do with that, and now feel a bit powerless as at work. It is also raining and the traffic was awful, so the hope I mentioned is dwindling 
Life feels a bit relentless atm, and that is without the heavy weight of war. I figure at least I am tackling it sober.
Congratulations on all the milestones 
I am sorry to those who are struggling, wishing everyone a good day.
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Good morning folks, checking in Day 209
Just about to start my 6am-2pm shift after 5 days off due to illness. All recovered now thank Goodness.
Chose to sleep and miss my meeting last night, I think I missed out on a good discussion I got the minutes though.
Going to make it to the gym after work !
Have a great Sober day everyone
Kat
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Good day Talking Sober Friends
Elated Iāve made it this far. Very thankful.
3rd step N/A prayer helped a lot
God take my will and my life and show me how to liveā¦
My favourite the serenity prayer
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.
Good day all love and hugs to all.
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Reaching triple digits is a HUGE milestone Des. Enormous congrats. Big hugs. Much love.
And even though I donāt pray, or do the 12 steps, I love the serenity prayer
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