Congratulations, Des!!! 
100 days is awesome. Keep on keeping on. 
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Second check in of the day
Sitting here on tears.
My childrenās father has been here the past few days. Yup I let him back in again.
So excited in in great energy to celebrate my 100 today. Praying yoga etcā¦
Before my son goes to school we were discussing how I missed the email regarding his pizza dayā¦forgiveme I have 3 children as a single mom and work full time
He is unemployed and barely helps with anything.
So he starts questioning what kind of mother forgetsā¦then the verbal abuse starts in front of my youngestā¦Iām a bitch psychoā¦nsrasstic etcā¦I called a friend and had her on speaker phone because I was afraid and as a witness as he always says it me Iām crazy.
Meanwhile heās still in active addiction used the night before.
Anyway he leaves and then as per my friends suggestion I disconnect his cell phone thatās under my name. Y friends have been telling me to do it for monthsā¦but I was afraid. I feel afarid now butā¦sticking with it
Had to take day off of work asIm emotionally tanked. Going to need a lot of self care. Caching atg at 10. Prayers please.
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Thank you.
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Day 9 AF 
feeling really happy with my progress 
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Thank you Carolyn. Means alot. Love that movie too Mermaids.
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Congratulations on 100 whole days! This is amazing and Iām very proud of you 
I Just saw ur 2nd post. Relationship stuff is soo tough (whether they are an ex or not). I struggled it with it too with my abusive ex. Let him into my life numerous, numerous timesā¦ even after charging him and he got released. But the best thing honestly is to keep setting those boundaries like u are with cutting off the phone. U and ur kiddos donāt need to see that or have to be subjected to that. Iām sorry u are going thru this right now. Iām praying for u and ur situation 
Enjoy ur day the best u can. Ur in triple digits girl!!! Something to be sooo proud of! 
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Iām so sorry this happened. 
My ex was a scary guy, so I understand being afraid. Please take care of yourself.
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Iām really happy for you, too. 
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Sending prayers and hope that you are able to feel the huge accomplishment of your 100 days. Turning off the phone seems to be a good step in that direction.
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Thank you!!
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Morning check in
Day15
Woke up feeling pretty good this morning. I took my new med last night and I didnāt experience any severe side effects last night or this morning (like my previous med), so this is promising! Just have to eat breakfast and do my morning routine. Then thereās an appointment I have to go to and then I will work on that dreamcatcher later today. Itās honestly a pretty relaxed day today so going to try and honestly RELAX lol. Relaxing is hard for me to do. I think I will meditate today and get some exercise in also.
Have a wonderful Tuesday everyone!
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Hi Des, I find that if you do some seriously reading on gaslighting: the techniques used etc you will get peace with your innocence in this. They are abusive. Itās on them. Do not represent, be strong.
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Iām sorry Des. Please make sure youāre safe.In know you do. In my thoughts. Hugs.
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Hey Dana
Thank you for your share. Iām sorry you had the same experience yet glad to hear you were able to seperate from your abusive ex.
Thank you for finding about boundariesā¦Iām in my head and feel badā¦
Yes I will take it easyā¦thank you for your support and prayers Hun.
You are doing great yourself.
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Thank you Carolyn 
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Thank you so very much. Nice to not feel alone.
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Ahhhh that photo makes me feel alive, thank you for sharing. Isnāt it interesting when we ātry onā our old ways and they donāt fit anymore. The new way is amazing Menno, I am so happy for you, you can feel!
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Woooohoooo
Triple digits Congrats!
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Really, really proud of you for not following thru on that craving. That mustve been hard. But what a HUGE change in thinking! I mean when I read that u felt disgusted looking at itā¦ it blew me away! Even after having a craving. Thatās incredible!
Your picture is so beautiful. I have such a connection with certain trees.
I hope ur day is better today!
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Day 627 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a fantastic day today, love you guys!!! 
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