Your in that first eh month? It’s hard everything is out of whack I remember that. It takes a bit but soon things will come together
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Oh no that’s really an bad oversight!!! I wonder if there’s a way to block certain ads?
Wow, congratulations! The feeling sick when ur stomach is empty is definitely a thing. Hope the rest of the pregnancy goes smoothly 
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Thank you for responding. Im trying. So exhausted. 12 hours from now i have to be at work with things learned.
30, 60, 90 are the new horizons. Then to be 5 months sober on my birthday. Wild to think about but it could be good, at least im navigating life better now.
@roses4me @AllyP
I also found the ads triggering. Found out it was less than $10 to get rid of all ads permanently, a one time fee, not a subscription! I enjoy this app much more now.
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Now that I know that you just got me to subscribe
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@roses4me and @AllyP Here’s a post by Robin where he gives an explanation about ads. You can always send him a PM with the details of the ad and he can report it.
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Day 87.
I am here. Studying. Nothing on my mind but that. Lol. On 2nd thought, if this was Nov of last year I’d have been planning my day to get done early so I could start drinking, which would screw up my sleep, and my ability to take my test tomorrow. So, ha. I win today. Have a great night y’all. < 3
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Hey everyone. Day one. I right this with a heavy heart. I slipped up this weekend. And I did it in a way where I lied to my girlfriend and told here I was doing things, instead of telling her the truth. I feel so low right now. I feel like i lied to my girlfriend, my parents, and to myself. I look back on the weekend and I let myself feel too good. And when I drank it went from 0 to 60 in the blink of the eye. I know I can’t let meself get started and I gave in in the worst way. I need to hold myself accountable in here. I can’t lie to you guys. I wish I had come in here earlier when I started to drink. Maybe it had made a difference. I feel so defeated and low. Sorry guys for saying this. This is such a great upbeating thread, but I know I can’t hide from you guys. You keep me honest and good.
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Me too! I didn’t even know I could subscribe. One was for a stock trading app and two were games. I’ve seen them in the past but got 3 at once which was a bit much. I can see how they slip through. Thanks all!
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Day 606
Cabin weekend was weird and rough but for different reasons than I was preparing myself for. My life feels like it is trying to upend itself right now. Part of me wants to type out a big thing but trying to find the words for it might break me down further than I can handle in this moment. Maybe tomorrow.
Still sober and grateful for the perspective that has granted me through everything going on right now.
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That’s wonderful!!! Congratulations!!!
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Checking in right before bed. Going back to work tomorrow. Didn’t do anything with my weekend, and trying to convince myself it’s okay to simply relax. Keep feeling like I should’ve done something.
Had a drinking dream last night. I was walking around a city I’d never seen before in real life, and tapped a bottle on the ground with my toe to see if there was anything in it. (This was a habit of mine when I drank) It was about one-quarter full, so I went to find a place to sit down and drink when I found a half-gallon completely full! Never got the chance to actually drink (this happens in all my drinking dreams for some reason).
I don’t read too much into dreams, I know they’re part of the process, but I had a lot of urges going into the weekend.
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Day 26 of no self harm.
Sorry I haven’t checked in the last few days. I’ve been extremely lazy about taking care of myself. I haven’t taken any of my meds since Friday. That has screwed me up mentally and physically. I wasn’t planning to check in today but this community helps me a lot and I know I’m not doing myself any favors by staying away from it. This community really helps me keep everything in perspective. I’m gonna start taking my meds again starting tomorrow. I can’t afford a drop in health physically or mentally. I’m just exhausted. Nothing of note has happened over the weekend, just been feeling really low.
Saw my family on Saturday as usual. We went to a family friend’s birthday party. I haven’t been around anyone but my family in at least 3 years. There was about 120 people so it was incredibly overwhelming. I dissociated to the point I blacked out and I don’t remember much of the party. I didn’t drink or anything, I just black out sometimes when I get overwhelmed.
Most of what I remember is being surrounded by family and being completely ignored. All I could think about was how my life makes absolutely no difference to my family (other than my grandpa). Yet I keep sacrificing my health time and time again for them without a second thought.
I just feel so incredibly alone. I know I have people, but I feel alone in everything I do. I am currently not capable of getting better for myself and myself only. I hate myself far too much for that. So I settle for trying to get better for the people I care about. But that seems to be futile lately. I could have all the love in the world and I’d still feel alone. It’s just the way my brain works at the moment. But I have very little support. And only one person who supports me IRL (my grandpa). And he really doesn’t know 90% of what I have and am still currently going through.
I just want it all to be over.
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Never worry about being honest with us. The mood isn’t always going to be upbeat, and that’s okay. I am proud of you for being honest with the community. You were sober before and you can get there again.
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I know it feels really shitty. I’ve been having a tough weekend too and had to reset my clock. We have to remember how far we made it and remind ourselves we can get back there again. We know what to do. I’m sorry this happened though, I’m still feeling badly about myself too but I’m trying to move forward. We can learn from our decisions and make better ones next time♥️
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Great job!
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Coffee. In a bit of a hurry so no time to catch up with all of you right now. Busy on the thread. Good stuff. I feel the togetherness. I feel together we can beat this. ODAAT.
I’m halfway through my work week. Got a work meeting at the end of the day which is not really something to look forward too but since I’ve become sober and clean and gone into therapy I don’t abhor meetings as bad as I used to do. Another perk from being in recovery.
Have as good a week as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober as otherwise nothing will come of it. Love from Amsterdam.
@DTC52 Dan and @Miranda What happened happened and I’m glad you’re here now. Onward and upward. It’s good you’re accountable now. Please next time you feel like giving in check in first. We might be able to talk you out of it. Love to you both.
@Sanuk Some real talent there lady! Beautiful stuff!
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Sunday night check in.
2 years 12 weeks. Sober AF.
First move last week sober 
7th and 8th trips to airports and flights sober
Side note: One reason I’m sober is because I do believe in God and He gives me so much strength and peace.
Not religion. God.
I’m fascinated by the Sober Atheist Topic. I’ve never known or understood how people can become and stay sober without the help of God. I really didn’t think it was possible. I’m happy to see it is possible. Whatever it takes to become and stay sober, You Fucking Do It!
One thing I do know for sure.
I’m one drink away from never being sober again for the rest of my life.
And that’s a god damn fact right there.
Keep up the good fight everyone.
You’re all worth it.
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Congratulations on a little Pdebs, Sarah!!
And I love that 610.
Way to go Mama.
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