Evening check in Day 56
First off, a huge 10 month congratulations to you Drew @icebear. Sooo proud of you! Amazing to see!
I havenāt been on here too often today, so I may have missed alot of checking. Still have to do a few things and then Iāll spend some time reading and getting caught up.
Today was sooo good!!! Mondays are my fav day of the week Workout, prayer, stayed on track with my eating plan, errands and cleaning done, ate delicious homemade supper, good communication with hubby, and working on my dreamcatcher hobby, is what was accomplished today. I always think back to when I would use, how nothing rarely ever got doneā¦ then days of using would go by and Iād physically be feeling like crap and still wouldnāt have the energy to do anything. Wasting my life, and wasting my days away. The things I can do today just by being clean and sober is absolutely remarkable. I havenāt been āsickā for work, I actually have some material things todayā¦ and we arenāt struggling anymore for basic needs. I used to literally have to search for what we could eat and make something out of nothing. Jusf surviving became almost a āhighā for me. I hate drugs!!! HATE THEM! I just canāt believe I didnāt see this 22 years ago!!! Iām not going to go into morbid reflection of what my life couldāve been like without drugs in themā¦ but it certainly makes me sooo grateful for what I have today. Even something as simple as being able to paint my nails (which I barely had any of while using out of nervousness and anxiety). Iām grateful I can do that even! Anyway, today I will seriously bottle this amazing feeling up and remember what I did to feel this good! Hoping u all truly had a good Monday! Iām thinking of u all, especially certain people who have mentioned theor struggles lately. I keep u all in my thots and prayers! Hugs TS fam!
Manā¦ My plate has been full. 2 full-time jobs 3 kids play softball. And they all got a musical instrument for their birthday. So lessons soon to follow Iām sure.
I donāt feel like drinking-but Iām struggling a bit to keep my emotions in check. My daughterās having a bit of a tough night and Iām handling it fine but my husband decides to offer his opinion(when no one asked for it) after heās already had a few beer. This is NOT helpful. Yikes. Iām trying to stay groundedā¦
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Coffee. My holidays started! I needed 'm. Will be flying to Prague Friday for my first little trip in 2.5 years, but first I have this job interview coming up later today. My first one in 6 years, for a job in addiction care. Which was the reason I went to nursing school 15 years ago. Ended up in old folks mental health care instead. Which has been nice enough, but itās time to move on.
Iāve been moaning and bitching about my current work for a couple of years. But until now didnāt have the heart and guts to really go and do something about it. While still drinking I sort of resigned myself to staying in my current job till my pension. My life moving in ever decreasing circles. Becoming sober and clean has gotten my life moving again.
Even if I donāt get this job it will be good practise. Havenāt done an interview in 6 years. Iām making progress in life. Iām doing this myself, and for myself in the first place. But I would never been where I am now without all of you, without this place, without having this platform, this home base, this sense of being together with you all, form wherever in the world, from whatever walk of life. Together. So much love for you all. Forever in your debt.
Have a good day my friends, or at least as good as you all can. Please make it sober and clean or nothing will come of it. I know I will. Love from Amsterdam.
@FAE1 Big congrats on 100 days Fae! @icebear The big Ten Drew! Yay you! @Miranda Being here helps with staying grounded Miranda. Good work. @adeygaga49 Great to see you Adrienne! And thanks for the reminder. 100% Truth. @Minatasha Youāre working on fixing it. One day at a time. Keep going. Hugs. @SadMemeQueen Good for your grandpa Megan. Thanks for checking in. As often and as long as you want to. You do this for you. @JennyH Iām glad youāre back with us Jenny. Onwards and upwards.
Love that mate, thatās class!!
I went to see England play Italy in Juve, a brilliant stadium full with passionate fans! I was also at the game v Italy in the final of the euros last year, heartbreaking for us but amazing for the Italians. This was me on the right cheering on the boys
Congratulations @Mno
Ever increasing circles instead of ever decreasing ā¦ happy for you on that! Best wishes for your interview! Look forward to hearing how it goes! I know you will be awesome in addiction care! Have a nice day/ nice vacation and be safe.
Taught a new class in a new room. There was a bit of a kerfuffle with the av equipment, but I was familiar with the content and had prepared more than enough activities, so that was good. I have to remember I am handling a much bigger workload than a few years ago when I reduced it thinking the stress of it was making me drink. No, the drinking was making me stressed and unable to cope.
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Hello strong people!
Today I have my appointment at the lasercentre for an intake. It will be strange to show my ugly tattoo to someone, I even have hide it for myself. Hope they can start quickly to remove it, but first the tattoo shop has to aproove the costs this centre suggest it takes.
Nice to āseeā you @Singtone and glad youāre reaching out for support by writing when you see that you need it. I always think of you as strong in your sobriety or at least as very committed to it. I canāt imagine you drinking. Hope youāre still as active as you were and enjoying those benefits. Always loved hearing you talk about how you felt better physically than ever and gained so much fitness.
Iām curious if you and your wife are still doing the planks. The medical literature used to Say that a drink a day was OK for health For those people who can drink in a healthy way. Lately Iāve been seeing more and more of them talk about how really alcohol is not a benefit to health at all.They are veering away from where they used to be. Take care. Cherish your sobriety and all youāve gained. I always love hearing you talk about the magic. Hugs
I had two resets after I set my sober date too. They didnāt feel good at the time but I think I needed them to cement the idea that I am powerless to control my alcohol intake. I hope your resets end up teaching you too. Keep going, you are doing great friend.
Great such a clean/sober time! That makes me feel like I can do it too. Veel succes met je tattoo, ik ben met 1 van mijn tattooās ook niet zo blij maar hij is echt groot dus ben bang ook echt duur om hem weg te laten laseren.
Workout, prayer, stayed on track with my eating plan, errands and cleaning done, ate delicious homemade supper, good communication with hubby, and working on my dreamcatcher hobby, is what was accomplished today. I always think back to when I would use, how nothing rarely ever got doneā¦ then days of using would go by and Iād physically be feeling like crap and still wouldnāt have the energy to do anything. Wasting my life, and wasting my days away. The things I can do today just by being clean and sober is absolutely remarkable. I havenāt been āsickā for work, I actually have some material things todayā¦ and we arenāt struggling anymore for basic needs. I used to literally have to search for what we could eat and make something out of nothing. Jusf surviving became almost a āhighā for me. I hate drugs!!! HATE THEM! I just canāt believe I didnāt see this 22 years ago!!! Iām not going to go into morbid reflection of what my life couldāve been like without drugs in themā¦ but it certainly makes me sooo grateful for what I have today. Even something as simple as being able to paint my nails (which I barely had any of while using out of nervousness and anxiety). Iām grateful I can do that even! Anyway, today I will seriously bottle this amazing feeling up and remember what I did to feel this good! Hoping u all truly had a good Monday! Iām thinking of u all, especially certain people who have mentioned theor struggles lately. I keep u all in my thots and prayers! Hugs TS fam!
