oh really? Well you can’t see that. Good quality plastic haha but hey it looks great
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Looks beautiful @Fargesia I would spend a lot of time just looking at that wall. I have recently got a lot of new plants, just love having them around me. Unfortunately not the most talented at keeping them alive 
Day 5 and still feeling rubbish, not well enough to work. Still fancy a drink though, very annoying. Luckily I can’t leave the house 
Thank you @LaDyLooNtje It certainly isn’t “just a cold” as I was hoping it would be. I am taking it very easy.
Hope your morning goes well @Mno Sounds really positive.
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Try silk ones 
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Good morning, 22 months clean and sober today!!! Up early for no reason and that’s ok lmao. Have a kick ass day today everyone, love you guys!!! 
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Checking in day 101. Im miss cranky pants today. Im agitated, sad and have no motivation to do anything today. Got a phone call that my grandma was in the hospital and got confirmation that she does indeed have dementia. This year so far has not been kind. I lost my husband jan 8th as well. We have 2 children in whom are both autistic. We were seperated for 6 years but still the best of friends. My boyfriend and i split up 3 days before my husbands funeral. So its been a lot. Keeping my chin up. Im a fighter and will stay sober. I need my kids just as they need me. Keep up the great work everyone. And never give up!
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Hey all, checking in on day 668. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 610
Productive day off. Did bits of housework, some personal stuff for me, and work prep. Trying to swallow some irritations and resentments at the husband. After months of effort, I feel like mindful eating is becoming a habit.
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That is absolutely gorgeous!! Very ispirational for sure! I could really use a spot in my home like that! Ty for sharing that:blush:
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Hi Dana,
I know you have gotten no shortage of responses to this post, we all feel this way sometimes.
Some things that have worked for me is taking out “moral” markings for food. Food is food it can’t be good or bad. Some is more nutritionally dense then others but no food is bad. I make sure all of my meals and snacks have protein, fat, and fiber, to stay full. If I want pizza, I have pizza. I try to always have a salad with it. If I want dessert, I have it. Restriction usually leads to obsession and binges, especially of the specific food you are restricting. Instead I tune into my body during a meal. Am I full? Am I still hungry? Does this still taste good? I even tune in with myself after a meal. How did eating that make me feel? It’s all data. We all over eat sometimes and that’s okay too. Chances are you will just be fuller for longer but if you are tuned in to how it made you feel, you’ll remember it for next time. If you don’t label foods as bad and restrict them- there’s no scarcity mindset. Less guilt and more listening to what actually makes your body feel it’s best. All of our bodies and days look different and have different needs. If we focus on what makes our body feel best and enjoy our food we can usually find a happy point 
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Wow!!! I am overwhelmed with the amount of support and tips and advice that I recieved. Really good suggestions!
@liv_m Mel this energy cleansing and protection meditation sounds incredible! I am going to try to see if I can find out this morning bcuz I have ALOT to do out there today lol I’m grateful for u mentioning this bcu I actually never thot this. Also I absolutly can agree to that I create my own overwhelm. I actuallt find myself rushing around when I do tasks. Once I notice this I actually physically slow down my walking speed and relax my shoulders. I try mindful walking. Some days are worse than others for picking up vibes. Some days even I get auras from the weather like something isn’t right outside. Idk why. This never really used to effect me. But since being clean it’s an over load for sure. I’m gonna meditate soon. See if I can found. Do u use any in particular that u like?
@ladyloontje I absolutely agree on the focus being switched from drugs to food. U said something that rang out to me about using things to avoid looking at ourselves. This… I always wonder WHY I am over eating?? Yesterday for example was an awful day for eating, and I wasn’t even stressed to an extreme or anything. So like what about me am I trying to avoid??? 
Good idea though on the nutritionist! I may have to look into that! Thank u for sharing.
@Seb I have heard of Noom but didn’t really know much about it! Thank you for sharing!!! And way to go on ur weight loss also! Wow that’s a huge accomplishment! But I do absolutely need the help more so on the behavior of eating and WHY I eat. And by doing so, the weight will come off. Thank u for sharing 
@dazercat Eric u definitly hit the nail on the head for a few things! 1st off, u could be absolutely right about my addiction trying to put me in a mood and trying to sneak it’s ugly way back in. Bcuz by me putting myself down and being judgemental and taking the focus off of my recovery, addictive thinking has the potential to get stronger. So yes u are right on that!! I actuallt really love counting calories and logging them into my phone, and writing out my exercise routine and working out! I love it and like u mentioned it is a distraction and keeps me busy. I have to remember what my priorities are bcuz like u said I am early on. I haven’t been almost at 2 months in, well I can’t even remember honestly, so it’s important that I stay focused. But I think ur post is reminding me to be gentle with myself. To remember that by staying clean I can accomplish my weight issue slow and steady and just work at it. There is no rush in a sense to HAVE to lose all this weight right now. I think I’m putting too much pressure on myself. Thanks Eric!!! I really appreciate you and your insight!
@its_me_stella I love ur idea about the big water bottle! Thank u and yes I am also a hand to mouth type of person. I was thinking of getting celery sticks or carrots for the times when I want to eat and am not hungry. I thot that would maybe help and keep me busy but not add on the extra weight. Thank u for relating to me altho I’m sorry u also had to go thru these scary feelings of weight gain 
thanks for ur constant support girl!
@alisa Thank you for ur awesome tips and advice!!! I love ur idea about bring held accountable on the weight loss thread with my calories. I will start doing that I set my caloric intake for 1900/day. Yesterday I ate 2500+1900 calories which is probably the highest amount I’ve eaten. In reality tho, ur right I won’t get 100lbs overnight and if I keep plugging away at this, I can get my weight in check. Thank u for sharing ur wisdom and insight on this also! Very much appreciated
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Checking in on sobriety day 340 free of the insanity and death sentence of active alcoholism. I know this isn’t the transformations, weight loss, or gym/workout topic but I felt the need to share this with the group.
In April of 2019 I was 34 years old. I was approaching the end of my bachelor’s degree, working full-time in the active duty American Army, struggling to maintain some semblance of a relationship with my wife and kids, and not least of all getting drunk every single night.
I was on a downhill ride and accelerating to the bottom.
I found myself in the hospital with chest and arm pain, extremely high blood pressure, and an out of control heart rate north of 180 beats per minute at rest…at 34 years old.
The docs attributed it to a stress induced isolated event. It couldn’t possibly be the alcohol I was lying about not drowning in nightly after all. Or the dietary choices I made when drinking every night. Or the exercise I wasn’t doing because I was hungover and lethargic all day from drinking every night. Nope…couldn’t have been from that. It was the college/work balance stress and it would level out when I graduated.
I graduated, with a 3.9 I might add, and finished my work in Washington DC with high marks from my boss (a 2-star general) talk about high functioning.
The consumption cycle would continue for TWO MORE YEARS on and off, more on than off.
Self loathing and relationship problems intensify.
May 2021, I get what amounts to an ultimatum from my wife. Get your shit together or else…
I went to my first AA meeting the next day.
I’m approaching a year of 24-hour periods next month. ODAAT.
I am healthier than I have ever been. All blood and body labs are the same or better than when I was 20 at 37 years old. The body is an amazing machine.
Recovery is possible. Do the work. You’re worth it. Your future will thank you.
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If I could love/heart ur post a million times I honestly would lol 
thank u bcuz I need that gentleness and ur approach of how u go about eating and hiw u think of food is EXACTLY what I want for myself. I truly don’t want to restrict myself. I want to have the moderation and be able to enjoy food and life. It’s just HOW I eat that is bothering me and using food for not the right reasons. Labeling food as good or bad… this is interesting for me bcuz I definitly do that. I will try to look more at the nutritional value of foods than labeling them and yes asking myself questions… maybe do some mindful eating. I tried it once before but it felt weird lol ill try again. Thank u so much 
appreciate ur suggestions!!!
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Hey miranda. Hope you are doing well. Thanks for the support. Even though you relapsed on day 24, you decided to get back on track. You are very courageous to do that. Just keep going and keep up the good work. You are doing great.
Have a great day!!
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Hey Fae.
It sounds like you got some good reasons to be agitated, cranky, and sad. Wow. Your going through a lot. I’m sad to read about all this. But happy you shared on here. It always has helped me to share on here and let those feelings out somewhere. And you still got your 101 days sober. You’re a trooper. Keep checking in. Keep up todays fight. We are stronger together. Here’s a little hug from a stranger who thinks your amazing.
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Hey guys. Checking in day 31. Had a great day.
@Dazercat Hey thank you for your support. I will do my best to stay here and sober
@Butterflymoonwoman Hey dana. Thanks and have a great day
@michaeljlogan74 Hey. Congrats for 30 days man. Sober twins🤣
@Mno Hello. Thanks for your support. Means a lot.
Very happy to be here.
Bbye and good night or day.
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Day 147
Just checking in. Have a great day!!!
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I don’t label food as good or bad because when I eat the food I’m calling “bad” I feel like I’ve done something bad if I eat it. That I am bad. This just isn’t true. All foods have a place in our lives. If we focus on what foods feel best for our unique selves and lives there is no more circular behavior of guilt restrict, binge. Sometimes what my body wants to feel satisfied is not what clever marketing and diet culture deems as “good” or “clean”. Eating it doesn’t make me bad. I enjoy it fully, I don’t allow myself to feel guilt over it- and I move on with my day.
I think mindful or intuitive eating is such a powerful tool. Like anything new it can feel uncomfortable at first. I definitely felt that way too. But I have found that it really helped me get away from my circular habits around guilt and restriction around food and my body. All of this has taken time from me and being gentle with myself usually helps me make long term changes
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Hello everyone,
I’m sober for 44 days already, but I’ve just found this app and community. Sorry for my bad English in beforehand, because I’m not a native speaker.
I wish everyone a fine day or whatever time it is in your place!
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