My goodness! Hope u feel better soon! Drs see all kinds of people, including people in recovery. No shame needed 
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Magnificent work!
Even if u donāt see eye to eye with ur parents, u are showing up, doing the right thing, which we often donāt do when drinking. Being a different person, that is a kind of celebration, I think.
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Thatās sweet of u to say 
. My posts are usually about the minutae of daily life, hopefully they show that regular life is attainable, I struggled the first half year on here, and many years off-line before that. Every regular day is precious. Baking muffins with Led Zeppelin this morning 
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Tonight might be day 46 of no self harm. Really struggling.
I donāt know how to talk about how horrible my family makes me feel. Everything I do or say is mocked. And this is the worst Ive seen my grandpa. I donāt want to say it. But if he doesnāt get better soon he wonāt have much longer.
Iām calling my friend as soon as I get home from my grandpaās. I canāt afford to be alone right now. I just donāt know what to do anymore
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Congratulations on your first year that is a huge accomplishment even if you donāt feel like celebrating it we will celebrate it with you anyway. You donāt have to do this alone 
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Oh Nooooooooooooo Patty!!!
I am happy to hear you were treated well, take care.
Sending lots of healing vibes.,
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Ugh. Shit Patty. Sorry to see you with a busted leg. Thatās got to be brutal. I hope you have some help around the house. Shit 
Will pray for a speedy recovery for ya.
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Check In
Day 61
Work was hardā¦ but with all the work my client and I did today to regulate her emotions and to work thru what was bothering her, it was a successful day! Her day turned around and I am so very proud of her. No AWOLs, destroying her property, being violent to myself or others, nothing. Not even a slammed door! It was alot of hard work but she did it!
I got home, made tacos for supper. My hubby had a stressful day too. He hinted at using and I didnāt feed into it or anything. Just acknowledged what he said and changed the subject. We ate supper, watched a show, and we are relaxing now.
Honestlyā¦ I canāt fān believe Iām doing this. I feel like a whole new person with my HP by my side. I donāt even know what to think of it all honestly. The old me jumped on any damn opportunity to use, I NEVER EVER turned drugs down. Addiction has had such a hold on me for soooooo many years that Iām truly baffled that I have just over 2 months clean (and on my own accordā¦ no pressure from anyone and not having to do it for anyone else but for me). Iām shocked that Iām easily turning down hints of using from hubby, that my mind doesnāt even obsess over it anymore. Iām grateful and blessed to be here and clean from all mind altering substances. I have alot of flaws and character defects and traumas still but I am able to work thru it all being clean, not keep it all stuffed down inside for it to fester. The day is ending and Iām happy with how this day went overall.
Impossible things can happen!!!
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Congratulation Penguin for such a long stretch! 
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Thatās so beautiful Dana.
I love every bit of it.
Great pic to go with it.
Proud of you.
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Hello one and all,
Checking in on Day 49 to wish every one a nice Easter Sunday, if itās already there or coming!
I wish every a good time and strength to stay sober respectively clean!
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Thank you SO much my dear friend! I appreciate that. Every so often I just get in awe about where Iām at right now in my recovery. Even when I did have 3 years clean and sober (13 years ago) it never felt like this and what I have today at 2 months. I truly think I was often white knuckling it back then, trying my hardest to still control what I could and I certainly did not have the relationship with God that I have today. All I had to do was surrender everything in my life and turn it all over to my HP on a daily basis. Idkā¦ im in shock 
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How are YOU doing? Whatās new in your world Eric?
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Day 626
My brain is in a weird place today. Not much to say.
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Congratulations on a full year @Penguin!
I recall you were struggling last year when you took that trip, got injured and had to cancel the rest of your plans. That was a really tough time and you bounced back pretty quick. I admire your resilience in the face of adversity. Try to do something nice for yourself even though you donāt feel like it. It doesnāt have to be today. Have that little celebration after Easter.
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Day 5 again letās do this
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DAY 80 For me!!! I hope everyone has a safe, happy, and SOBER Easter!! 
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Day 18- checking in. Itās feeling a bit easier now Iām getting some time away from booze and the clouds are parting. Reminding myself of the things I used to enjoy. Just gotta keep it easy, not drink today. Trying hard to keep my binge eating in check but being kinder on myself while Iām drying out and staying sober.
Have a wonderful Easter everyone
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One day at a time.
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