Glad you found us Shanyce.
Congrats on day 2.
ODAAT.
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Guess what: it was early when I went there on Sunday. I have absolutely to note that somewhere 
That is definitely a memorable day.
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Ahhhhhh, I missed your two months!!!
CONGRATS!!!
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Congratulations on your 10 days MCSM.
Welcome to double digits.
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Iām glad that your back posting and thanks for taking the time to personalized all of your messages. Iām sorry to hear about your friend. It sounds like youāre going through a lot and I hope that you can continue to post. We are all here for you. I canāt imagine what youāre going through but I can understand how you might feel like you want to isolate yourself. This is probably the time when you need the most support and Iām glad that youāre feeling so motivated. Please keep sharing and know that I am sending you positive thoughts
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Just waking up on my day 2
The struggle to sleep last night was a bit frustrating, Iāve gotten myself ise to going to bed again with a belly fully of beer and basically just passing out. But at least this time around I was expecting it and I know in a few days it will pass. To prepare for it last night I did all the stuff Iād normally do when i wake up so i could set my alarm a bit later, which seemed to help. Absolute worst case scenario and Iāll just go pick up some light sleeping meds like i did last time until Iām over the initial bump of sleeplessness.
The not smoking is what really got me. I had to keep myself busy last night so I would t think about going outside.
Upon opening my eyes today my first thought was going for a smoke (as it is with a lot of people that smoke), so I made the mad dash to my cabinet and got a patch onto my shoulder right away then took a few nicotine sprays (Iāll include a picture of the stuff, itās a real game changer for people trying to quit). The cravings for the nicotine and what not are gone, but the habit craving is still holding on strong and itās a bit frustrating. But Iām way to focused to turn back now.
One day, one hour, one minute, one moment at a time, we can all reach our goals.
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Oh that must have been freaky to wake up after that dream. I had a super realistic dream last night too but not about usingā¦ It was about losing my dog. I woke up in a panic and then felt him beside me and felt so relieved. I wish you a great day and congratulations on your sobriety, youāre strength, your acceptance and your motivation to stay positiveā:heart: youāre doing so amazing!!!
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Day 3.
Wish it was day 300 but you have to start somewhere! Best wishes to you all!
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Oh Iām glad it helped a little. Thereās so many different guided meditations and some work for me and some donāt. The one I sent you is one that I always go back to. I used it last night too and it definitely helped me. I hope you have a more peaceful day today.
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Thanks so much for your reply! I know itās important for our kids to understand that we also deal with difficult emotions and I think talking about it is definitely good. I just felt so short tempered yesterday and didnāt respond very well but my daughter has such good communication skills sheās often letting me know that she understands but that I could probably say that in a different way. It kind of pisses me off sometimes(LoL) because sheās right- and wise Beyond her years I think. I also think itās a lot easier for her to move past things than it is for me too which Iām happy about because I hate how I canāt seem to let go of experiences that upset me. Itās definitely something I am working on. I re-live and replay negative experiences in my head so much especially when itās something I have said or done that I regret. All we can do is move forward reminding myself that. Anyways I canāt tell you how much it meant to me to read your response thank you so much for caring
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Uh oh. Texted my case mgr. cuz sheās 15 minutes late, asked her if she was still coming by. Said that she heard a rumor. Iām pretty sure she already knew I relapsed so I canāt figure out what this rumor could be. My day was going so well, too. 
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Thank you
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Thank you!! 
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Day 36. Still sober. I had a minor craving two days ago, but I managed.
Nice week!
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She sounds amazing, you must be so proud of her. I do know what you mean and get stuck on things as well. I am having to sit with those feelings now I am not drinking through them and that is so hard at times. I hope today is a better day 
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thank you, how sweet of you to say that. It took some courage to do it, but I did it. Thnx for your messageš·
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Day 108. Visited my grandmother today. Today is a good day for her. It was nice to see her up and getting around. Also nice to not see her screaming and yelling. Have a blessed day everyone!
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