Good morning friends, day 507! Scrambling around this morning. Carpet guys are coming today. Was supposed to be tomorrow 
. I think weāre ready.
Also the tile for the bathroom came in yesterday and was expected to be a couple more weeks. One more thing Iāll be expected to jump right on. Thereās always something. Happy to be sober through it.
Have an awesome day! I am going to do mine sober!
Checking in nearly 63 days sober / clean /obsessions, triggers, and compulsions a work in progress.
Working on Step 1 with my awesome sponsor.
Got my green keyring last night. Super happy.
ODAAT
Relapse is not an option. Addict for life.
Day 602
Took my son to meet his new homeroom teacher before the semester starts. He usually talks the hind leg off a donkey, but he hid behind me and barely talked. He had another meltdown this evening over something trivial, I am sure the core issue is stress about moving up to jhs. And my daughter got angry too, "why are you so nice to him just because he cries so much, it is so unfair, etc etc " I am grateful to be facing this sober.
Hey friends . Checking in at 2 years sober and one month and some daysā¦ so unbelievably blessed!! I know I havenāt been on here in a while but I have been so busyā¦ I got a part-time job and a boyfriend 
I am super happy at the moment with how things are going in my life. Iām working on trying to get my license reinstated but yeah my HP is working wonders in my life. I wasnāt going to meetings but I finally broke down yesterday and was like I need to get my ass to a meeting and I felt so at home when I was there like automatically all the negative thoughts I was facing and anxieties and what not just disappeared and I knew I was where I needed to be. I got my 2 year key tag in front of A LOT of people and I wasnāt even that nervous like I was able to do it!! I am so proud of myself for what I have accomplished ā¦ I used to go up there in the past and always care about what people thought of me. Not last nightā¦ so yeah but anyway WE DO RECOVER!
Coming up on 30 days and feel great. Today I start working out again to get ready for the OCR season. I have some PRās to break.
Update on my son: heās improving some but his therapist at the center is saying he needs atleast 60 more days. Our insurance changed on the 1st and the new insurance have the center as out of network so they have to work out a single case agreement. If they canāt he will be discharged and weāre back at square one.
I am a lot black and white as well. I think realising is already a great first step. Being aware, noticing. Only then we can change our behaviour and thinking. My universe is a lot more colorful now, more nuances. The impulse is there, yet but since I quit drinking it is getting better. Baby steps for me. Leaving the selfhpity, victim path and taking responsibility of my own life helped a lot with it as well.
I think you are doing great and congrats on your 50 days today.
Thank you!! I really appreciate your kind words! 
Thanks!!! Iām going to look into this!! I appreciate your help!
Day 23. That is a lot of days and I might reach 30 days.
Good day!
Kat here checking in on Day 244.
Had a good Healthcare Professionals meeting last night one of the other members gave me some hope that I might be able to get my licence back and a nursing job sooner than I thought. However all in Godās good time for now it is enough to remain sober. (The rule is here to place restrictions on your licence for 5 years of sobriety). So four plus years to go!
Thatās about it did miss the gym yesterday so definitely going today. Also business meeting at my NA homegroup tonight.
I love you all and hope you have a good sober Tuesday!
Kat
Day 662 clean and sober today. So Iāve gone from nightmares to complete insomnia last night yuck! I hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys! 
Day 13
So close to two weeks! I canāt believe that much time has passed honestly. Iām grateful to be sober and thankful for this community thread. Your stories help keep me going.
I do feel rather lonely and am grieving my last relationship. I will continue to trust God that one day, when I am ready and he has prepared me, a righteous and sober man will be placed in my path. There is a long journey before that day but I am hopeful and focused on today!emphasized text
@Miranda Thank you for mentioning that! It is true about rest days. I never used ro have any of those. And now that I think of it, that could be why I didnāt get the muscle gain that I was wanting lol I was toned but didnāt have that build that I was looking for. How are you? How was ur day yesterday?
@Rockstar24777 That really sucks Rob. Hope ur able to get some rest
@kat261 Thatās an exciting possibility! I hope that it happens for u in ur future 
@anon74766472 thank you!! Yes it is 50 whole days! Omg. I am grateful and excited. I definitly need to learn to be gentle with myself and to have balance in life. Itās always extremes with me. But ur right tho! Recovery does make it slightly easier to have some balance hope ur doing well!
@moonchild7994 Hey lady!!! Congratulations on soooo many things! Ur 2 Years!! Ur new relationship!!! Your job!!! I loved reading ur post bcu it is another example of how wonderful recovery is. So glad u came on to TS to share ur excitement!!
Day 34 and feeling good in myself. I had been feeling pressured to respond to emails from an old friend who it going to lengths to tell me he has his life in order and is in a good place despite still drinking. I was worried that I was holding a grudge against him, but then I realised that I have every right to be wary of him due to the number of times heās been abusive while drunk, and that I donāt need to respond if it makes me feel uncomfortable at the moment.
The way in which heās emphasising the positive is reminding me of my parents attitude as I was growing up. Sadness was frowned upon and the emphasis was always on striving for happiness. There was a lot of denial of negative feelings, and everything was dealt with by having a drink and getting drunk.
Iām in the position now where Iām responsible for helping my two kids deal with their emotions in response to their dad passing away three years ago. Feeling sad is exactly the right thing sometimes, and rather than striving for happiness, I prefer to aim for contentment.
Checking in
Day50!
Morning TS fam! Day 50 is finally here! Wow!!! Kind of in shock honestly. 10 days until 2 months! Trying to not get ahead of myselfā¦ but ya know 
Anyway, woke up at 515am. Went to the gym at 530-7am. Got my butt out of bed to hit the weights and do some cardio. Feeling good! Sore and abit tired but good. For the next 24 hours ahead, I will be cleaning, running a small errand, going to an afternoon appt, working on a dreamcatcher, and of course staying clean. Hope everyone has an addiction free day! Hugs!!!
@Butterflymoonwoman congrats on Day 50 and getting up early to hit the gym! You are doing so well, I hope you are finding sobriety easier as time goes on.
There she is!
Good morning Dana, and congratulations on your 50 days.
It is! Some days are really hard but they are getting fewer and far between. Itās really good motivation for me to keep staying clean bcuz I donāt want to have to go thru the physical withdrawls again and the strong urge of addiction pulling me back. I hate the early days of recovery 
cuz itās hard! It is easier now but I keep on my toes due to how sneaky addiction is. Iām really impressed with u also! Just how determined u are and how dedicated u are to ur recovery! Itās inspiring Kat hugs
Iām back on the band wagon. Itās been a couple years. Had a baby. Had no issues through pregnancy and then bam. Right back into it. Heaviest weight Iāve ever been in. Tired of feeling this way and killing myself with booze. Going to just do my best to keep my focus on my kiddo and getting healthy again. Day 1.
I hear you 100% this is also me and of course it has a lot to do with my eating disorder and earning my calories.
I have done these two things that did help me years agoā¦
And now I have been very aware of my mindset while I have restarted yoga. Meditating before hand and setting an intention " I am excersising to strengthen my body, mind and spirit not abuse it." And really visualizing my breath as it courses through my body while I do whatever activity, has been a game changer.
I canāt find the grey, I need to create it, my own version of middle ground.
OMG 50 FOOOOOKING DAYS CLEAN
