Checking in on Day 69.
I feel good overall, but my mental health has still been a challenge. I really want to start working out. I’m pretty active but I need to make a change in my routine and I think daily home workouts is a start. My social anxiety is not quite stable enough for the gym in person yet.
Wishing everyone a happy sober day 
Checking in on day 32 
1 month down, many more to come.
Have a beautiful sober day team
Ah, you have the same thoughts as me today 
You punch mine, I punch yours?
Ahh!! I love this!!! thank u for ur help and suggestions. I will definitly think of “rules” around my workouts. And I will need to make sure that I listen to my body well and not over do.
Thank u for the congratulations also! 
I am so so happy for you. You and your posts are a breath of fresh air. Congratulations on 50days, your hard work and determination has not gone unnoticed. Day 51 just around the corner 
I wanted to say thank you to everyone. This hasn’t been easy and I have gone through some shit, but you guys had let me feel the hope. The hope I know exists. I wanted to thanks to each and everyone of you. You all mean the world to me!
Day 30
Work work work
Hope everyone is doing ok!
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Awe this is such a nice post!!! Thank u so much 
I literally could not have done it without TS. I honestly dont think so
How are you doing?
Day 173. Just in this last day im pretty sure I am noticing some positive results from my medicine and my mood. Despite feeling sick from a cold that keeps coming and going I really feel less worried. Yesterday when I did my sister’s tattoo there was no nerves or scared or anything at all. Even with family I usually get pretty scared and nervous but yesterday went smooth… Going to go fly my drone try to get some cool pics and video much love
Day 5 and I’m alive. Found myself repeating familiar habits. I’m very recurrently angry/ aggressive in the morning. So often, I feel but don’t think. I need to hold myself accountable. I have BPD1 and probably adhd (waiting for the referral) but there’s enough I can still do while I’m unmedicated.
Separately my med management guy is not my favorite person, and I always feel like he undermines and doesn’t take me seriously and low balls where I’m coming from mental illness wise. I don’t really like him very much just to be honest. I’m going to see him on the 28th this month and I have to keep pressing forward and advocating for myself and be serious about where I’m trying to get myself here.
I’m sure he has my best interest in heart but I haven’t had a great relationship working with him and I’m here to help myself.
I have to wait to be assessed by him to see if I can get the referral for the ADHD assessment I need and I’m not going to let him push me around, but I also NEED to be respectful enough to get the thing I want. These are the irritating things I pretty much haven’t dealt with appropriately and I’m really looking forward to not having weed-based anxiety on top of my regular anxiety anymore so I can talk to him clearly and represent myself better.
I get extremely nervous about not being taken seriously and it irritates me when I feel like people are treating me like a child. Does anyone else go through this? I’m sure I’m not alone, but it’s so frustrating.
I’m very much now planning on talking about this actual issue with my therapist today in a few hours and creating some sort of emotional protection plan. I’m going to make a real list to bring so I don’t get off track and ramble when I go see him. I have wicked imposter syndrome alllll the tiiiime 
Wish me luck or send vibes or something; I just repeatedly freak myself out with this part of things.
I’ll be here though, doing the things in the meantime.
Have a great day everyone.
Day 6! 
Good morning world, Wednesday morning. Slept in so no morning workout but feeling good.
I’m actually more excited the more I think about getting to day 6.
Have a great day!
One thing I am absolutely totally sure about is that drinking in this situation will not help you in any way whatsoever. You need your sober wits about you to deal with this. However painful this might be. This is life.
I’m sorry for the hard times and the tough choices you are facing Seb. But I’m glad you’re sober so you can actually deal with this. Drinking isn’t dealing. Drinking is fleeing. Drinking is the worst possible thing you can do under any circumstances but especially now. Congrats on 90 days and KEEP GOING. We’re here. You’re not alone. Thanks for sharing.
Grandpa update. He’s really weak and unsteady. He peed once on his own overnight but now he can’t pee. But everytime you use a catheter it weakens your bladder so they’re trying to avoid it. His blood sugar is super high cause he’s on a lot of steroids, but they haven’t given him any meds to help the blood sugar. He doesn’t feel good because of the high blood sugar so he doesn’t want to eat.
Also, the nurse said he needs a walker full time now. When he got his cane his physical therapy nurse said to use it sparingly because then he’ll have to rely on it so he’s not happy
I know he’s going to be okay, it’s just making me incredibly anxious seeing how weak he is. I’ve been working on school about 4 hours a day minimum now so I’m exhausted. Been trying to nap but I just lay awake thinking
I am doing good, thx for asking. Everyday is a day of waking and applying all the tools I have. Days it is enough and there is definitely days were I feel I need to add more to my toolbox. Checking in & reading everyone’s share, is huge for my own journey.
Thanks Menno. 100% correct. As I posted yesterday I was surprised that with the way I was feeling I would have normally instinctively gone and drowned my sorrows but I barely thought of that at all.
Congrats Dana. Proud of you 
Brother-total support for you. You are one strong individual. You are empowered, empathetic and engaged in your life. No need to drink. Carry forward!
Day 815!
I just want to remind you all, that you are much greater than you believe and give yourself credit for. Sure we’ve made some bad choices in life and may have not become the individuals we sought to be, but underneath it all, we are good people. Good people worthy of happiness, equality, care, and compassion.
I hope you all have a wonderful week and as a friendly reminder, it’s Taco Tuesday!
