Filling out some papers for my divorce. And I don’t feel that bad. The last time I had to do that, I was soooo sad. Anyway life goes on, the past is dead, the future don’t exist, I got to live now.
Take care, enjoy what you got✌🏻
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Alrighty folks, been a wee while since I’ve been grateful to be alive, so…
I am incredibly lucky, privileged and grateful just to be alive…! 
The infinite universe doesn’t ‘expect’ anything - nor make sense despite the infinite answers it possesses… It’s not food, music or fashion which are good or bad, it’s my judgements forced upon them with my instinctive familiarity biases. We could be anything, anywhere… Why be so time-wasting on trivial nothingness when we already live in a question mark? We may as well ask why sand is here and not there on a beach? The answer of life is most often right infront of us, or even within us somewhere… And I’m neither right nor wrong, but open-mindedness to understand how and why I think or feel, and zooming out of my problems like one could of the earth into the universe to remember the big picture, will get me a long way if I want to free myself from mental self-sabotage… So I am grateful both to be alive and conscious enough of that fact to influence how positive it and my perception of it can be… 
Be strong whoever and wherever in this world you currently find yourself being! Chin up, smile, breathe, stretch out your arms, let go, shout a good old ‘yehoo!’ because u can… As long as you try your best whatever you do, it’ll be worth it! 
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Hello all, checking in Day 13.
Just spent half of my lunch break sitting on the front step soaking up the sun, perfect spot for it (stole it from the cat!)
My Dad is still in hospital, but making massive improvements. His BP and oxygen levels are back up and the antibiotics are doing their job. They hope he can come home tomorrow 
My day today is a massive improvement on yesterday, when the universe just seemed to pile it on, one thing after another. Really pleased to face the day without the hangover I would have had if I had given in.
Still got loads going on but it is more manageable today.
Have a really good day all.
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Day 678 clean and sober today. Proud of everyone here, everyday. What a bad ass group of warriors we all are, love you guys!!! 
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Hi Kat here checking in Day 260
Hit a Zoom meeting last night and shared felt good, talked about feeling my feelings and not using drugs or alcohol to mask them. Tough day at work yesterday have a toxic coworker who went and reported me for something unwarranted. Feeling angry and hurt. But trying to help those feelings with prayer and music and sharing. I will survive! I have already been through hell and back, I can survive.
Well today is a new day hoping to see my boyfriend later.
Love Kat
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Going in the right direction I hear. Enjoy the weather on the weekend. A walk is always nice with good weather. Keep it up!
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Glad your dad is doing better and that he’s probably going home tomorrow. Super nice.
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@ShesGotMoxie I totally understand the phases, I suffer severe anxiety, panic disorder and depression. It is hard, hang in there. Day 234! Wow, very impressive!
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7 months and a day.
Life is the hardest that it’s ever been… yet, I am still here.
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Morning check in
Day 66
Had such a long sleep. Didn’t wake up until after 7am. Missed my planned workout for the gym. But I guess my body needed the rest. Feeling pretty good today tho. It’s beautiful outside! I might try to do a workout at home instead later. But 1st I have another work related zoom mtg for 2.5 hours. Feeling good about addressing this other issue of BED that came up. We are works in progress! 
Glad to have another day of recovery under my belt! Feeling blessed and grateful!
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
I’ll come back to catch up on everyone’s checking once my zoom is over!
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Oh super yummy! I used 2lbs of lean ground turkey and 1lb of the Jennie o Italian turkey sausage. Added some gluten free Italian breadcrumbs, an egg, some fresh Italian herbs, minced shallot, minced garlic, S&P. Makes 18 good sized meatballs! Bake at 400 for 20 mins. Cover with tomato sauce of choice, then mozzarella, bake another 20 mins or so. I served as meatball subs, with pasta or as is! They were a hit!
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I often don’t try things because I’m scared of rejection, but I try to remind myself that the only regret I will really ever have is if I don’t try. You tried and you should be proud of yourself. It’s absolutely true, it takes a lot of tries sometimes but it’s better than not trying at all 
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Daily Check Ins: Day 3
Today I am working from home and to be honest I don’t really care for this job. I wish we all could just live a carefree life. Free of bills, free of drama, free of everything and anything that holds us down. A lot of things cause us to want to depend on our addictions but I am standing and strong on being sober and learning to see clearly through with that alcoholic crutch.
I am feeling lethargic, tired, and a little bit regretful for a possible loss of friendship but I am also holding out hope that people can be just as forgiving and non-judgemental as I can be.
Quieter if the day: “We are not perfect, forgive others as you would like to be forgiven.”
Enjoy your day everyone and be happy 
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Day 1264.
I just got a call. I got it.
Just needed to think about the salary offer but I think I will take it. I am so relieved that they got back to me before the weekend.
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Jawohl!!! Gratuliere Freundin!
PS. Shouldn’t you ask for just a little bit more as they offer?
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Day 212 checking in
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Life is still life - full of surprises and coïncidences coming together in mysterious ways.
Recently I learned a guy from my home group lived in the same place as I do. So we were texting a bit, he was a long weekend away to his lady for the easter days. Though they apparently had a great weekend, they ended with breaking up.
The interactions between them were found triggering by her.
When asked he said he hadn’t relapsed yet but the thoughts were there. Nobody with him, so I decided to jump in my car. That didn’t start for a mystery reason while I also had to collect some flower boxes for my terrace.
So went walking for the flower boxes, fortunately enough the guy selling them offered to deliver them at my pace so that went quickly.
Then of to the guy. Talked for a while, time actually went pretty fast. Eventually offered to stay with him if he was afraid to relapse, instead of going to my weekly meditation evening
Turned out the guy had been looking for a free vipassana practice centre for a while allready, so he decided to go with me. Funny coïncidence or HP, call it what you want to…
By the way, when did I learn to talk with people that easy ? Never been good at that…
So we drove of to my place, trying to bump my ride. Checked battery, fuses, oil, everything. All seemed fine, nut not starting. Not even the starting engine running, nothing.
We managed to get her running again though, so we went on our way and of course I got annoyed all the way by the burning engine alarm light.
Had in mind to bring her to the garage the next day, no big deal but as always, when things may cost me a lot of money, it causes stress.
Of course during the meditation as well, my mind wondered of to my car evey now and then, questioning what could be the problem. Managed every time to let it go, nothing I could do about it, next day to the garage and just wait and see…
Untill halfway the walking meditation I suddenly realised what hád to be the problem, making it hard not to laugh out loud.
Afterward, when going home, I checked - I had lowered the backseats for those flower boxes, and had shoved the headrests under my seat. And of course, two of them under one seat had blocked the seat switch, causing the starting engine to be blocked… 
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When I look at the package, less hours, no core working hours and I’d get already a bit more relatively to what I had before my decent here, I think I will take it. And in times like these, well, I think it’s a good deal.
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