Way to go STELLA!!!
Happy Injury Free Birthday.
I’m so happy for you!!
TS is a much better place because of you, and the examples you set for all of us. And the fight that you never give up on yourself. Fucking NEVER!
Good for you my dear friend.
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What an accomplishment! 1000 days is remarkable! Congrats:trophy:
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I am the same way. I’ve been porn free for 155 days but I am struggling with too much gaming. And yet we do not give up! Congrats on 1 year!
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Those feelings and thoughts suddenly arise in me too. It’s kind of different from cravings because I haven’t had any cravings since this time I’ve been clean. But those flashes of thoughts arise in the same way as cravings do and also go away after a short time. Sometimes distraction helps, and for someone else, another activity helps. In the time when I still had cravings (the last time I was clean) I just had to sit it out. I really couldn’t do anything but I knew it would pass. So hold on to that. Those thoughts or cravings will pass. Try not to let your thoughts run wild. Instead, put positive thoughts/moments against it❤
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Afternoon all. Checking on day 246. Pain is unbearable today. 33 and I needed help from my wife to sit up in bed just to get clothes on. TENS units and muscle relaxers are doing nothing and won’t take painkillers so hopefully try and get back to sleep. Hope everyone has a safe weekend. Take care.
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That’s really kind of you. It is quite nice to be able to speak freely on here and not worry about my life being impacted by people’s opinions. Sending much love 
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Hi everyone! Checking in here on day 3 for my husband and I. Doing pretty good so far.
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Inspiring update and congratulations on your continued perseverance and endurance~You are a great example for others. I know there is hope for me and my sobriety. Thank you for sharing.
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@Miranda and @LaDyLooNtje thanks for your thoughts.
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Maybe you are right and are these just memories. Usually my memories aren’t that intense though, only in dreams do I really “feel” them. So far, never in real life.
And usually they don’t last long. This took me 20-30 minutes before they disappeared pretty suddenly.
Though I’ve never been the happiest kid around, the darkest episodes lasted from childhood up to around 30 I think, after that it slowly faded. This feeling was similar to that period and accordingly, thoughts linked to all the drugs I used back then (but stopped using after a suicide attemp at age 28).
Thinking about that, it may just be silly and naive to expect the impact of that period of my life just to be gone. Maybe it was just suppressed like most feelings and emotions seemed to be. And now that I’m learning to be more in contact with them, I should have known they are not all bright and shining…
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Shay!!!
Congrats on quads you beautiful being you. So grateful you are here.
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Don’t be too hard on yourself. This is how we continue to learn during recovery. Your feelings and thoughts that you have been given about traumas or other difficult situations that you have experienced are not always just gone. It really is a process. Your brain tries to give a place to what you have experienced. Sometimes professional help is needed. But that is different for everyone of course.
Maybe today was a one time thing. If not, do your own research like what you need because such things can be difficult. But you can always ask for help or tell your story. Sometimes that also helps to clear your head. And you’re doing really, really well. Proud of you!
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You GO STELLA!! 
I am so so proud of you!! 
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Congratulations on your 40 days,
The sun is a trigger for me too, also where i live is full of pubs on every corner and clubs, tourists come here so its always there temptaion, but i have to remind myself even when i was drinking i wasnt out in the pubs or clubs i was sitting at home in my room on my own drowning out hard emotions of my loss.
I know if i was to pick up a drink it wont be as great and exciting as i imagine it to be, it will be a mess.
40 days is brilliant, im glad your here with us, i like reading your posts and being a part of this community.
Thank you for your support too. 
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Huge congratulations
You and others made me feel so welcome when i arrived here.
Im gratefull your here, and gratefull that i can share this celebration with you.
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Congratulations!!! I want to send you GIF but I don’t know how!!! Super happy to hear about how far you have come♥️
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This is HUGE!! Congratulations my friend fuck yeah!!! 
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Hey guys. Its day 41 for me.
Just finished watching uncharted with my bro. Really liked it. Going to bed now.
Have a nice day.
Peace.
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