Day 25
Woke up and did a 20 min run
Tbh got into an argument last night
Just kind of whatever atm but still sober. I am irritated bc it was one of those moments where I was just saying something simple that got blown out of proportion.
I get tired of this dance of interpretations sometimes.
Anyways have a good day
Which one did you choose?
Checking in: day 116
Thank you! Iām very glad I found it here! 
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Working to tackle this smoking thingā¦ definitely has some challenges but made it through 2 key times so far today (ride to work and lunch) and I am excited to keep it going!
Checking in on day 114. Really tired the last few days as Iām working lots and got lots going on outside of work to, I think this is the reason Iām getting thoughts about drink. I donāt think Iāll pick the drink up but my tired mind is teasing me, itās becoming tough again after having many good weeks. Drink has always been a go to in stressful situations and my mind is telling me it wonāt be that bad having the āoneā but my god I canāt go back there!
First time Iāve ranted like that on here, sorry lol!
Back to a day at a time I think
Checking in on less than day 1 again, and lost count of my attempts . My aim is to get it right this time. So while i may not be super open about everything in this checking in thread i hope i can at least be part of the broader community.
Peace and love
Day 49
Still sober. Havenāt much time to read and write here. Hope to do it more often soon. Need it to stay on the right track.
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You allready are. Just check in on a regular base 
That"s not a requirement, though opening up usuallly helps staying clean. We are only as sick as our secrets areā¦
Hey everybody!
Just checking in on day 5 for my husband and I. Holding strong.
Evening all.
I think Iāve just passed my first week. Itās been another beautiful day.
Sadly, back to work tomorrow. If thatās not enough to make me reach for a corkscrew nothing is!
Stay safe
Well done @Wisconsin and @Alanb on your week milestones 
Sorry you are struggling @DTC52 but well done for getting straight back. Definitely worth trying to assess what went wrong. Take care of yourself though too.
Thank you very much
I couldnāt find anywhere else to post this.
This is Asparagus. I grew this myself. For a change I was sober when I picked these
Day 53.
My parents have returned home so itās just me and the kids again, back to normal. I was shocked at the strength of feeling I had when my mum became drunk. It made me realise just how traumatised I had been in the past, however I was able to recognise that as a reaction to past experience and I managed to get on with the rest of my evening and I got a fairly good sleep overnight. Of course, as is the pattern with my mum, she was very uncommunicative this morning. She had previously said to me that she wouldnāt drink in front of me but her urge to drink overcame her. Even before any drink was taken I had noticed the extremely poor communication between my parents. Nothing is ever direct, only implied. I have found myself instructing them both in how to communicate more clearly, especially with the kids. An example would be if my mum was needing into the bathroom but my son was already in there. She would say to him āare you in the bathroom?ā but she wouldnāt actually say āI need in the bathroom, could you hurry up pleaseā and so he wouldnāt realise that she needed the toilet.
I got a kindle book last night about adult children of alcoholics and Iām finding it fairly enlightening. Iām also able to see that my drinking, while certainly problematic and in need of being tackled, is not of the same calibre of my parents. Iāve worked hard on developing my parenting skills despite having had a poor example set by my own parents. I can see that although I may not always get it right, I am definitely breaking the chain when it comes to my own kids.
Iām really grateful I came on here last night when I was struggling with my emotions. It really helped me get through.
Hi, Dana. It dawned on me that topic of recent conversation might have caused you to dream about your ex. If thatās the case, I really am sorry. 
I hope your day has gotten better. Mine just started. Since I slipped over the weekend, I spent most of the day in bed. 
Itās so nice out today I really should move around a bit.
@Bluekoolaid I found a Panera gift card that had $8 left on it. You know what that gets you? Half of a grilled cheese and a small lemonade! 
I have anxiety and depression and for me the anxiety is the worst. Best of luck with your appointment.
@Dazercat Love the updated serenity prayer! Where did you find it? Or is it original?
@shilohRica Iāve had good results with Insight Timer. Itās free!
@Hashtag I also quit counting my restarts some time ago. And today is also my new day one. Weāre practically related!
Been a rough weekend. Starting over again. Donāt feel bad physically, but Iām having mental fog and lack of motivation. Happy sober Monday!
Thank you so much Jenny! I really appreciate the words. this is such a hard journey and trying to do this is hard. I really do appreciate your words though. They make me feel better and feel like i can do this. Thanks Jenny!
Checking in. Boy, I have had the urge to drink todayā¦geez.
Update: I finally received my signed severance agreement. I canāt talk about it or speak with any board members or staff. Iām keeping my lips sealed! At least I can live for a temporary being. Iām actively looking for a new position. No other news, I have a couple networking calls tomorrow and that is it. 
My sweetheart is telling me that I should use this time to care for myself (exercise, eat right, read, attend more AA meetings, etc.) She is usually right. I donāt know?
Today, all Iāve been thinking about is alcohol. Too much time on my hands! I am going to my home group meeting tonight. That should helpšš»
Last day in Texas Iām at the Dallas Airport right meow,
This has been the best getaway I had in a long time, I havenāt had this much fun in forever
I think it was the company @DeadMist we hit up a few stores I taught her kids some guitar basics, we had fun together. And I got branded.
Kinda sad to see it end, but it also we left things out, so we have to come back to do it then, I think that was planned 
