@Butterflymoonwoman CONGRATS!!! 90 days is a huge deal! Way to go, proud of you and looking forward to helping you celebrate many many more milestones!
@SadMemeQueen I hope you were able to eat some of that pizza hon, I feel like your doggo might be worried about you, they sense things we wish humans that are supposed to care about us would sense. I’m happy that you have that companionship
Congrats on the rest of the milestones achieved this weekend! This group gives me more inspiration than I could ever use words to express. I love seeing others accomplishing goals!!!
And oh MAN what a weekend! I hosted a kick off the summer party yesterday at my house. Before I got sober, I used to spend those evenings leading up to the party just drinking and thinking about all the things I need to do, maybe doing 20% of any of it, saving everything I needed to do (cleaning, shopping, organizing, cooking) for the very last minute (mostly cooking), accepting help for none of it, bc I’m superhuman right!? Then I attack it all like a wrecking ball, trying to get 5 hours of work done in an hour, and I’ve over committed myself of course bc why would I want to burden anyone with bringing a side dish… And when I do that, no one wants to be around me because I’ve stressed myself out to the point that all I want to do is get everyone out of my way, and drink, but still can’t truly attend the party for another 2 hours bc I still have so much cooking to do, I always overcommitted and saved it for last, never timing anything right. Then get drunk for the rest of the time my friends are here, leaving behind the mess and then complaining about all of it when it’s all said and done. Again, not accepting help bc I hosted, I don’t want to burden my guests with chores. The difference this time was that I attacked it all sober, I spaced out what needed to be done and managed my time like a capital G!!! I also accepted every little bit of help that was offered, and even delegated some of the other tasks. I have never been more relaxed as a host in my life. I set up, got through and cleaned up the party all in the same day, and I stayed sober, and still had a GREAT time, that I will REMEMBER!!! Most of my friends are drinkers, and that’s fine. Their choice. This party confirmed for me that being around booze isn’t the trigger for me, the routine of it all was. And I feel like I’ve broken up that routine finally. I am about to hit 30 days at midnight, tonight there is a blood moon eclipse, and I’m just sitting in my nice new backyard with my husky, a cup of coffee and a rice crispy treat, catching up with my sober peeps, and checking in. Its been a really good weekend and Im very very happy that I decided to admit my problem with drinking AND actually do something about it. Things are going very well right now, and that party was a test to see if I could be at a party and not be tempted to drink. I have my cousins wedding coming up this weekend in Northern California… Im VERY excited about that, and for the beauty of non desert landscaping lolol. Would be nice to see some real green and big trees… not off green and SOME trees haha.
Pic of my doggo enjoying the lights by the pool.