This is when my mind tells me it’s not as bad as you think that I’m overreacting I will be able to have a few drinks and stop I won’t take cocaine I will just have 4 beers and that will be it never works out like that I need to remind myself I have never took a few drinks and stopped I drink for 4 days always need to be on my guard when these thoughts crop up
Good you’re here talking about your crazy brain Dave. We all have one and at times it will come up with crazy stuff like this. Good you recognize it for what it is. Thanks for sharing, together we will beat this lunacy one crave at a time.
Happens with me and alcohol/dxm all the time. One second I’m 2 beers in next second I’m getting woken up at 10 am by the cops or falling asleep in a walgreens parking lot and, again, getting the cops called on me. Have come to the conclusion I’m one of those people who will never be able to moderate alcohol and a couple other drugs. (I do have one drug that I am able to moderate myself with mostly because I don’t have much/constant access to it would rather not disclose since this forum is more focused on total sobriety.)
That’s you’re addiction talking. My addict brain says the similar things. Talk louder. Deep down you know the truth♥️
My brain does it all the time, has even tried in the past 2 weeks since I’ve been here. I try to convince myself if I drink a couple glasses of wine, I will be fine. BUT, as history has shown me, I drink the wine, drive to the store for vodka and drink for days. Hasn’t worked for me yet
Never listen to the lies the alcoholic voice tells you!
It will say anything to get you back to drinking, any trick!
It will put you down, build you up tell you it’s deserved. Anything.
Yes it’s just a lie wanting me to relapse happens now and Again I will never believe that lie again
I can relate. Even today I caught myself thinking about a couple drinks…like wtf 11 days ago when I used cocaine and meth I thought I was going to die and now today my minds saying a couple drinks won’t hurt. Well I know what will come with it and cocaine won’t be far behind. I might skip the cocaine one day but the next time I drink it would be involved somehow. I hate my mind.
I feel this 100%. It usually takes about 5 days for me to basically forget about how bad it was. It’s incredible how our minds can “forget”
Good job coming on here and talking about…there are many threads about people who tried and failed
When your mind tells you these things, know that it is lies. Nothings changed. Yes, you may have some sober time, you may feel things have changed, feel healthy, in control: thats only because you are sober.
The first drink and you soon realise nothing has changed, yes you’re still an alcoholic, one drink wont even remotely hit the spot and soon its back to square one.
So tell that lying voice where it can go, and stay strong in your sobriety. Make yourself proud.
Good for you for coming here Dave! Opening up and sharing is helpful.
Be gentle with yourself and maybe do something nice tonight instead. Cookies? Binge your fave show? Order pizza?
Take care Dave - keep it up!
Thanks I went for a burger then went to the gym so just relaxing now feeling better thanks for everyone’s comments always helps
A Favorite trick my brain loves to use is “Nobody will know”.
I don’t answer to anyone but me. . Good game brain…
I hear you. I’ve been tricked many times before. Never too long before moderation slides into a problem.
A constant struggle. My mind has been BSing me a lot lately, making me believe I’d enjoy a drink here and there, and that I won’t end up drunk, I’d just have “one or two” … which might be the case initially, but I know, once I open that door again it won’t be long before I am drunk …then regretful, hungover, sick, depressed, hurting, shameful and miserable. So, I’m not listening. My life has become infinitely better because I don’t drink. I try to remember that truth. Not this BS in my head, telling me I’m “fine” and to not be so worried about shit and to just live life, easy breezy well, life is a whole lot more ‘easy-breezy’ now BECAUSE I’m not drinking alcohol. It’s hard tho. Battling yourself - the mind - like this.
My mind says ‘just the one’ or ‘have a half’
It’s very convincing… but i will talk louder than that till i find peace
Have a good day folks
This is so true. I was listening to an interview with Joe Namath and he talked about this exact thing. His sponsor told him that intervoice deserves a name. He calls him “slick.”
I love this, I will be thinking of a name for mine!
I agree with all that has been said and this crazy addiction monkey brain has been through so much loss and grief and wreckage and then the time sober again and again and the length of time has differed but it’s always there and just waiting lurking for the right situation the right timing the right opportunity and those are the times that the battles are at it’s fiercest and need to be won inside the self inside this monkey brain of mine and the hardest thing is unlearning retraining this lifelong series of reactions methods of dealing with etc that has been learned and trained by this alcoholic brain. I feel all your truthful words they resonate and they help. God bless you all. I am 18 days sober and I continue minute by minute