This is when my mind tells me itās not as bad as you think that Iām overreacting I will be able to have a few drinks and stop I wonāt take cocaine I will just have 4 beers and that will be it never works out like that I need to remind myself I have never took a few drinks and stopped I drink for 4 days always need to be on my guard when these thoughts crop up
Good youāre here talking about your crazy brain Dave. We all have one and at times it will come up with crazy stuff like this. Good you recognize it for what it is. Thanks for sharing, together we will beat this lunacy one crave at a time.
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Happens with me and alcohol/dxm all the time. One second Iām 2 beers in next second Iām getting woken up at 10 am by the cops or falling asleep in a walgreens parking lot and, again, getting the cops called on me. Have come to the conclusion Iām one of those people who will never be able to moderate alcohol and a couple other drugs. (I do have one drug that I am able to moderate myself with mostly because I donāt have much/constant access to it would rather not disclose since this forum is more focused on total sobriety.)
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Thatās youāre addiction talking. My addict brain says the similar things. Talk louder. Deep down you know the truthā„ļø
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My brain does it all the time, has even tried in the past 2 weeks since Iāve been here. I try to convince myself if I drink a couple glasses of wine, I will be fine. BUT, as history has shown me, I drink the wine, drive to the store for vodka and drink for days. Hasnāt worked for me yet 
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Never listen to the lies the alcoholic voice tells you!
It will say anything to get you back to drinking, any trick!
It will put you down, build you up tell you itās deserved. Anything.
Donāt listen
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Yes itās just a lie wanting me to relapse happens now and Again I will never believe that lie again 
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I can relate. Even today I caught myself thinking about a couple drinksā¦like wtf 11 days ago when I used cocaine and meth I thought I was going to die and now today my minds saying a couple drinks wonāt hurt. Well I know what will come with it and cocaine wonāt be far behind. I might skip the cocaine one day but the next time I drink it would be involved somehow. I hate my mind.
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I feel this 100%. It usually takes about 5 days for me to basically forget about how bad it was. Itās incredible how our minds can āforgetā 
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Good job coming on here and talking aboutā¦there are many threads about people who tried and failed
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Good for you for coming here Dave! Opening up and sharing is helpful. 
Be gentle with yourself and maybe do something nice tonight instead. Cookies? Binge your fave show? Order pizza?
Take care Dave - keep it up! 
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Thanks I went for a burger then went to the gym so just relaxing now feeling better thanks for everyoneās comments always helps
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A Favorite trick my brain loves to use is āNobody will knowā.
I donāt answer to anyone but me. 
. Good game brainā¦
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I hear you. Iāve been tricked many times before. Never too long before moderation slides into a problem.
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A constant struggle. My mind has been BSing me a lot lately, making me believe Iād enjoy a drink here and there, and that I wonāt end up drunk, Iād just have āone or twoā ā¦ which might be the case initially, but I know, once I open that door again it wonāt be long before I am drunk ā¦then regretful, hungover, sick, depressed, hurting, shameful and miserable. So, Iām not listening. My life has become infinitely better because I donāt drink. I try to remember that truth. Not this BS in my head, telling me Iām āfineā and to not be so worried about shit and to just live life, easy breezy 
well, life is a whole lot more āeasy-breezyā now BECAUSE Iām not drinking alcohol. Itās hard tho. Battling yourself - the mind - like this. 
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My mind says ājust the oneā or āhave a halfā
Itās very convincingā¦ but i will talk louder than that till i find peace
Have a good day folks
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This is so true. I was listening to an interview with Joe Namath and he talked about this exact thing. His sponsor told him that intervoice deserves a name. He calls him āslick.ā
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I love this, I will be thinking of a name for mine!
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I agree with all that has been said and this crazy addiction monkey brain has been through so much loss and grief and wreckage and then the time sober again and again and the length of time has differed but itās always there and just waiting lurking for the right situation the right timing the right opportunity and those are the times that the battles are at itās fiercest and need to be won inside the self inside this monkey brain of mine and the hardest thing is unlearning retraining this lifelong series of reactions methods of dealing with etc that has been learned and trained by this alcoholic brain. I feel all your truthful words they resonate and they help. God bless you all. I am 18 days sober and I continue minute by minute
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This is exactly what I needed. I have now learned that ājust oneā can be removed from my vocabulary. Never the case, and when I slide itās a long slide. Hell, I wished there was a pause button on here, I was so sick of hitting reset this week. Been about 5 days but really excited to read this and start over with another weapon in my toolbox.
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