Life.is.good!!
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Four years!!! Huge congratulation.
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Congrats man, huge milestone! You’re an inspiration to us all. Have a great day!
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Indeed, just for today. OYAAT. One year at a time 
My fear of men is not really to be attributed to any man in specific though I have to agree with you, men are less lazy than women when it comes to taking efforts to make your life miserable 
But for me, it’s mainly due to growing up with the masculine norms and expectations surrounding “being a man”. I think I’m not the only one who developped a strong sense of inferiority, being led to believe that all aother men don’t cry, are strong, are masculine hunters that can go on all night, 10 times in a row and preferably, with different women.
And being the stupid and naive little kid I was, it never occured to me that maybe the other guys exaggeratted their “manhood” a bit. That they didn’t match that description either and probably like me, didn’t even want to do so. Instead, I concluded long ago that apparently I was less of a man than most others.
Which is mostly nonsense of course, but unfortunately our emancipation focussed on women’s roles, not on ours - which need to change big time.
And being mentally able to understand this is nothing to be ashamed of when you’re an adult by now, having to start sharing this with a group of men or even more detailed with one male sponsor, still feels like putting your balls on the chopping block on the VI table
In a way I knew that as well, but doing without for almost a 1000 days had a reason as well.
Guess I first needed to slowly figure out what parts of the mess I started with had to be attributed to my addictions (the parts i cán change) and which were my autistic traits (which i can’t change).
And of course, grow enough confidence to start sharing about my life and mind…
By now I figured that out far enough I think, to start digging deeper into the steps with the guiding hand of a sponsor.
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Just a reminder that tomorrow we will start a new little workout challenge. No pressure, no need to share, if you miss days - it’s not a competition.
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Hello one and all,
Just checking in on the 62nd day.
I wish everybody a nice time!
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Definitely going to try and get back to working out again lol it seems to be an on and off thing lol thanks for the post!
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Thank you 
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Day 4 for me. Craving wine and going to a restaurant with friends tonight. They don’t drink alcohol and I’ve already said I’m not drinking tonight but I’m scared. I’ve prepared my line to order a tomato juice. But feel a bit shaky. Not going isn’t an option as there is only one restaurant in the village (am away from home) and I’m hungry!
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Nice work!! I agree, this community is everything in a lot of ways towards having solidarity that can’t always be found irl. It’s a nice place to be; glad you’re here as well!
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You can totally get through it!! I remember my first dinner out being sober and everyone I was with was drinking. It was hard for a moment…I ordered a virgin Ceasar. I made it though with no alcohol and I had a way better time not drinking. I was sooooo proud of myself. That Good feeling is wayyyy better than that fleeting (false) happiness from alcohol that leaves you feeling angry with yourself. You got this💪
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Yess! You got this! It’s so much more attainable with a solid community like TS and there’s always so many different walks of life and points of view that make it a little easier to keep a good perspective
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Let me share with you the first Real Madrid’s Championship I have lived…, sober!!!.
New sensation, new freshness. Life starts in a different way.
Regards.
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Congratulations!! This is amazing:tada:
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I went to a meeting yesterday & saw some friends there. I gotta get my shit together.
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Oh wow, that’s awesome! Congratulations 
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I’m really sorry to hear you are going through these feelings. It’s hard to feel this way. I hope you can acknowledge the guilt and then let it go. Depression, sadness and anxiety are all such difficult feelings to sit with. Sometimes we just need to let ourselves cry and feel this way. Sometimes we need more support. I hope you reach out further if you do. I know we are all here for you. You will get through this even though right now it might not feel like it. It reminds me of a quote I read…“you’re going to be happy, said life, but first I’m going to make you strong”
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Going to stay busy and grateful today. Make sure I take breaks to eat and hydrate. Pray. Exercise and try to be outside at least four or five hours.
Continuing to stick to my routines on a daily basis. Trying to spend more time outside. Trying to eat more Whole Foods.
Everyday- Reading, praying , Journaling , Guitar , Communication
My lease is up on May 6. I am scheduled to go to sober living on Wednesday. I’m nervous because I’ve never gone to one of these so far from home. I’ve also flirted with the idea of going back to Saint Augustine. I miss the rain and the beach, and things being familiar. But I think the right decision is to go to the Sober living to continue my journey here in Tucson Or at least give myself more time to make a Decision. Since I came out here to Tucson to focus on recovery I broke even with making money. But I’m trying to remain grateful. I’m taking care of needs. I am sober. I will figure out the career and adult things little by little.
I know these are hard times and strange times for everyone. I know that I’m not the only one struggling. I appreciate this community so much. I’m trying to be more involved even though I overthink and second-guess everything. And even though I’m not always directly reaching out on here I am reading through just about everything… I hope everyone has a good day. Stay strong and thank you !! 
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