Checking in daily to maintain focus #42

Thanks @PinkyP

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Well hello :wave: šŸ«‚ :wave: šŸ«‚ how are you?? :sun_with_face::purple_heart::blue_heart::green_heart:

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Hi! Im sober, recovering from recent surgery :blush: you good, all clear?

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On day 47
Right now im laying down next to my girlfriend and listening to music on my day off from work.
Put the air conditioner in today :slight_smile:

Have a good day everyone

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Surgery sounds heavy :hugs::hugs: yes lovely cancer free for over a year now :dizzy:

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Day 113AF

Another sunday night where Iā€™m telling myself Iā€™ll be better next week. Starting my POM count over. Tomorrow will be easy at work but after tomorrow Iā€™ve aftercare which I skipped twice in a row last week. Iā€™m not looking forward to explaining why I didnā€™t go, I already feel so bad about myself because of it. Iā€™m not even sure why I didnā€™t go myself.

Today I met up with a friend from highschool, sheā€™s known me throughout all of my years in addiction and saw me at those houseparties we both used to go to. She explained how she experienced my last party at my house where I blacked out, became stubborn and a little ā€˜agressiveā€™, even though thatā€™s so unlike me. She told me how when I blacked out my friends panicked and called my sister and parents and even considered calling an ambulance. Itā€™s very strange to hear this side, in a way I still think it wasnā€™t that bad. I never did. I didnā€™t even think I was addicted at that point, even though I woke up 3 hours later after my friends left and just continued drinking for 3 days straight. Donā€™t remember much to anything from these days other than spending alot of money on twitch and playing games while drunk. <ā€” my rock bottem.
2 months later I was in a clinic. Iā€™m grateful I now know Iā€™m addicted and thereā€™s another way. Sorry for this long post, actually wanted to keep it shortā€¦
Good night beautiful people :crescent_moon:

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Thatā€™s true it is an option, but you have to pay for that extra seat I donā€™t make as much as Jim Adkins,

The rules otherwise are kinda vague, like if it can fit in an overhead itā€™s a carry on or under the seat of you a personal item, and Iā€™m kinda hesitant about checking a guitar I see how careless baggage handlers are

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Time for numerology!

Next up: 456.78

Also 0.01 of a day is 14.4 minutes, just a PSA

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@Cjp my new favorite sparkling water

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Beautiful!

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What language ?
Iā€™m working on Japanese, but I speak several others (Russian, German, etc.).
Japanese is toughā€¦ !
:grin:

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I canā€™t wait to get back to nine monthsā€¦ Congratulations !!!

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@icebear thank you for the PSA. I always wondered about that. Learned somethink new today

@ArtMama whereā€™d you pick that one out at? Are you in the US?

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Iā€™m off to bed, everyone, I hope that you have all had a good day.
In my own case, Iā€™m about 35 minutes away from my first dry week in donks, so Iā€™m pretty happy about that.
I truly think that one of the reasons why I fell off of the wagon (and forgot to get out of the way while it rolled back and forth over me a couple of times, horse included :horse:) is that I stopped checking in here.
Goodnight all.

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@cjp Iā€™m in the US and I got it at a local grocery chain of natural foods (New Leaf Market). Itā€™s SO good! Nixie is the brand of this sparkling water. It has a nice bite to it.

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Dutch :slightly_smiling_face:
Japanese, ohh wow! So cool! Can imagine its hard.
Really envy you for speaking so many languages. I wish I did :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

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En lukt dat een beetje om de Nederlandse taal te leren ? :wink:

Ending day 4. Numb and not living my best moments. Patience

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Sorry to hear you are having a rough time @Bomdhil get some sleep and remember that tomorrow is a new day. Take it a moment at a time

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Day 41 :muscle: in so much pain but still sober

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