Thanks for the reminder! And good luck with your case. I was just starting to get into worry mode about the big picture. Typical worry for me these days is that I won’t make enough running my own small business to support my family and have some of the things that are important for us (cats, a vacation, a housecleaner once in a while…). My next indicated step is to do work on my current project and be productive today.
Picked up my keytag last night at my homegroup and had a great meeting, for perhaps the first time I had a sense of being part of a group of people who are all working every day to be clean…it’s hard to describe I guess I just had a problem feeling a ‘part of’ before.
Work going well though it’s hard to get out of bed at 5:00 a.m. I have to remind myself that having steady employment is a privilege and not the 5 years I spent off work and off and on active addiction.
Hey guys. Checking in day 1. My mind wanted to go back to p*rn today. But I said no because PMO does not make my life better.
@SadMemeQueen Hey megan, hope you are doing well. Thanks for your word of encouragment and support. Indeed being aware is what helps me control and accept my urges. Its a bit tough but I know its the better way. Have a great day.
Hey @michaeljlogan74 I knew about your relapse and also replied to it. Maybe you did not saw it😜, but for me to its a bit disappointing. Its good that you are learning from you mistake and trying new things to improve. I have learnt a lot about my urges during this streak and I will try putting them into use.We will suceed together.
Thank you all so much for your congratulations. I am often bad at them. I lack words or is it insecurity.
I am happy now that I passed my online coaching and can proceed with the next module of my yoga teacher training: water. Acceptance it is. That will be my element
And another nice thing: I am back to sars-cov2 negative
I read ur post last night and I really thought about what you said. And I appreciate the advice. You are right though… I am going to try and fully communicate my needs. I need help with the apartment? I will ask instead of grumbling under my breath and building up resentments that he rarely helps. He has alot on his mind and I can’t expect him to know what I’m thinking. I also have to watch those “absolute” words such as never or always or you, you, you. Instead of me saying “you always do this”… (which isn’t true)… I can use “I” statements and express how I feel which doesn’t (hopefully) get him into defense mode. I could say “I feel hurt and unsupported when my recovery milestones are not acknowledged. I would love to be able to share these days with you”… or something along those lines lol I need to learn to ask for help (which is hard), and I need to learn to also open up. How can I judge him for not opening up to me, when I don’t do the same back
A big focus of this leg of recovery is being intentional about my health. Today I was able to make it to the gym for the first time in three weeks (damn I got out of shape fast) and ate a healthy meal for breakfast and lunch. No microwave meals if it can be avoided.
Appreciate everyone for all you do. I hope your day clean is truly exceptional and enjoyable.
Wow!!! Huge number there my friend!! So proud of you At 1000 days… how has your life changed? Is there any really big things that have happened that you can think of when you think back to when u 1st started this journey?
Beautiful…Congrats! I’ll get that key ring in 25 days too. I also had that feeling during meetings in the beginning that maybe I wasn’t part of the group. But because I kept coming, that feeling has disappeared and I feel at home. Also logical, it always takes time getting used to be part at a new group.
I’ve been working since April 1st and my alarm goes off at 5 too if I have an early shift. I still find that very difficult, but going to bed early helps.
Discipline therefore seems to be the key word😬