I can remember after my 20 weeks of CBT stopped I felt a bit weird, like what next… So I can only imagine how it feels after so long! That’s good that you’ve addressed those next steps with the therapist. And got a book that you can relate to.
For now enjoyingI don’t know if it’s comparable but I found the lessons from CBT kept popping up months after finishing. So no rush 
the time you get back sounds like a good plan. Hope the sun is shining for you 
@siand I love your attitude about appearance. I’m going to try and focus on your idea that this shouldn’t really be all we aspire to today instead of what I normally do whichbis panic about my weight. I always put on weight when I manage to stop drinking. But I guess if I stick at it long enough it will regulate in time. It scares me though that the scales can actually induce a craving in me to drink if I feel being sober is leading me to gain weight. I know it’s ridiculous but I can’t help it. Silly.
Day 9 for me. Happy to wake up sober today. Have a good day everyone
Wow, how exciting! Congratulations 
You are having a brilliant week! Will you go to the final?
Massive congratulations! I know it hasn’t been easy but you have persevered and worked really hard. Hope you have a lovely sober weekend to celebrate 
60 days, great job! 
Love this, absolutely spot on
Check in before bed on day 3. I feel like I really need to make big changes in my life career-wise within the next year but the thought of change and the unkown equally terrifies me. Still trying to cope with my Mom’s dementia and being on intermittent leave to help with care. One thing I know for sure is alcohol is straight up poison and a lie. I wrote a goodbye letter to booze today and that felt damn good. ODAAT 
My weight has fluctuated loads over the years (drinking and not drinking) so I guess I have got used to that. My skin is pretty bad (drinking and not drinking) and I used to be so self conscious about it. Spent so much money trying different things and also time worrying. What a waste! If someone is going to judge me and dismiss me purely based on the way I look then fuck them 
Unless you are already very very overweight I would think that putting on a few lbs in the short term is much less of an issue than drinking over the long term. Focusing on health in the broadest sense is important I think. That’s so much more than a number on the scales or a clothes size. And for me at least that starts with understanding myself… What am I really worried about or afraid of?
I used to really struggle with the idea of acceptance vs complacency. Like if I accept myself as I am, what’s the incentive to change? But now that I feel more acceptance for myself, I also realise that change is always happening, so it’s up to me to work out which changes are in my control (i.e. my own thoughts and actions) and then choose what to do with that information. Finding self acceptance is the first step to making changes that give me a decent chance of going in the direction I want to, rather than in a direction set by my neuroses and emotional responses which inevitably ends up being more chaotic and difficult.
I read this article yesterday, I thought it was a good piece generally on the nature of change but it is literally about changing jobs, ha, so sharing it here in case it’s helpful to you
Day 632
Went to a fun ramen restaurant in a double decker bus. The dishes were half price, so MASSIVE queue, we waited an hour and a half, but the kids were chuffed in the end. Lots of UK memorabilia, etc, and we managed to sit on the top deck. My daughter plans to work there in the future .
I don’t know if stress or the cat waking me, but I have a coldsore. I haven’t had one since I quit drinking, I used to get one every few months, I wondered if sober I would avoid them altogether. Luckily, Japan is still 100% masked up, so no-one is any the wiser.
Hey everyone! Checking in day 4. Didn’t get much sleep. Was up late doing a bunch of stuff and had to get up early to do more. I still have so much to do for work before I end up leaving for vacation. It is really stressing me out right now. Not in a way I want to drink, just feeling like I am going to end up missing something before I leave. I just need to remind myself to take a few small breaks every now and then to calm myself down. Then I can let myself relax a bit when I make it on that plane.
Have a great day everyone!
Hey all, checking in on day 690. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 169
Just checking in. Hope everyone is having a wonderful day!
Just checking in Day 9 sober feeling constant despair depression guilt over so much pain n harm I’ve caused my family over the years have had law problems due to drinking and recently caused another one and with all pending etc lawyers etc just overwhelms me at times in between praying and crying and praying and crying I have a few close friends I call in AA and attending zoom online meetings and I’m doing the right thing now finally accepting and surrendering but it all really gets me down I’m living minute by minute and I’ll be alcohol free the rest of my life I have to it’s caused so many character defects in me and now I need God to fix me.
Hang in there Hutch. You are 100% in the right place. I’m thankful you have friends and a forum you can express yourself. Keep fighting bro!
Thank you so much I love this app and I journal here too each and everyone in here is an inspiration to me
Day 692 clean and sober today. Hope everyone has a beautiful day, love you guys!!! 
Bro we’re inching towards that 700 mark boiii heck yeah!!!
@Minatasha A huge congratulations on 60 days!!! And whole 2 months!! Great work! 
@Shna Sounds like you had such a good, productive day! Glad ur day was better!
@Mno I agree with this 100% about you Mike @anon53116147. Keep at it Mike! Definitely sounds like there is alot going on right now but all you need to worry about this moment and for the next 24 hours I have complete faith in you Mike! You will get this
Hey Kat here checking in on Day 272 clean from meth pills.
Life is good… I got off work yesterday and God gave me the energy and focus to clean. Well maybe it was the new energy drink I tried from Amazon. Holy crap. I cleaned the kitchen, living room and bathroom and folded a months worth of laundry that had been weighing on my mental health. Only problem was it got me a bit over-stimulated and it was hard to come down, reminded me of meth. I’m going to be careful before taking it again or take less.
Boyfriend coming over tonight I hope.
Love from Kat