Checking in again to say that my son’s guidance teacher called and we had a productive chat. I’m optimistic that she can help my son and his friends resolve their issues at school tomorrow.
I can feel a certain level of tension right now, a tightness in my shoulders, so I think I’ll listen to some music while lying on my acupressure mat before preparing dinner. Oh, the challenges of the lone parent!
Day 39
Finding myself struggling in new ways. I’m still sober, but now it’s me asking ‘What else am I doing for this?’ I’m trying to reach the point of consistency without constant flying sparks of motive bc that’s not realistic (for me at least w/the mood swings). It’s a harder road to travel down. I don’t care. I’m trying to get there and I’m taking my meditating, breathing mindfully, journaling butt down that path.
This is gonna end up being good and alright bc I say so, dang it; but the temptation to self destruct, she’s still there like a cartoon villain dressing up in different disguises. Still not using or wanting to travel back there though.
Hope everyone has a good week!
Checking in 862 days substance-free…
Love you guys
Congratulations 
Congratulations 
Hey guys. Checking in day 6. Feeling good today.
Hey @michaeljlogan74 sorry to hear you are struggling. I dont know what to say to you but I am always supporting you. You will conquer this addiction. Sending strength.
Bye and peace.
2 weeks smoke free! Woohoo!
Day 7 or 8 I didn’t check when I logged on. But just saying hi, I’m feeling pretty grateful, trying to just accept some things and be ok don’t really want to beat myself up anymore and mind is feeling ok. Went and returned the drone I baught so I can go and buy a mountain bike to cruise with my girls and just for myself, but now that I got the money im having a hard time spending it bc I’m kind of broke and would like to save it, but at the same time I think it could be good for me to get another actual riding bike. I’ve been having several ppl message me about tattoos in the last idk how many weeks since I’ve relapsed and I just haven’t even responded not really sure what I even want to do with that. Right now I just want to be sober but don’t want to give up that dream either. But also don’t want that stress it was giving me I haven’t drawn in a while either but I’m kind of also ok with it, but it kind of reminds be of just how I gave up the lifting which like man leads to terrible discipline, idk how I was do disciplined with my lifting for so long and so religious about it and then just dropped it like nothing. Addie rose my girl is feeling better today so I’m really grateful for that. Much love
Checking in:
2 years
18 weeks
And 1 day.
But who’s counting?
This fucking guy!! That’s who!!
It’s very important to me. And it’s part of what works “for me.”
Been super busy with the move. Getting old. Can’t do as much as quickly as I use too. Being sober helps me to “easy does it.” So what if I haven’t unpacked ALL the boxes yet. I’ll get to them……when I get to them.
I guess in the old days, since I drank ALL the time, I tried to make up for it by working harder or longer or more or faster so I could justify, that I can drink all day and get EVERYTHING done. How exhausting is that? I’m not exhausted. I’m not drinking. My back isn’t in pain from overdoing it. I’m certainly not hungover. I’m calm when things don’t go right. And it’s Freaking Awesome!!
I’m grateful for each ODAAT of my sobriety that I’ve counted.
Good that you are thinking about it. Very personal of course what you want to share about those steps. Are you already working on the workbook?
I am coming from a motherly point of view but your tattooing will be there when you’re healthy and ready. Do the next best thing for you and your sobriety. Sometimes one thing leads to something that you didn’t expect. Like a job offer, schooling, etc.
Look on line for a used bike for now maybe.
My son would say I’m a pia but put things in order of importance.
Checking in 2 months and 4 days sober ! 
Hugs 
Always SO proud of you Eric! It’s been wonderful to see your journey and how you work thru things sober! Grateful for you and grateful to have u here!
Checking in
Day 84
Feeling strange lol not sure how I’m feeling exactly. I know I feel a litle bit of resentment towards 1 person. I know I’m feeling overly sensitive. I feel a little unwell in my head (like my mental health isn’t quite on point). I feel uneasy. I did attend a Bible Study over zoom this morning for an hour with other women. It was nice but diff bcuz the format was not like before. I’m missing back home in a sense, just with the connection I had with people there. But I would never go back cuz it’s too damn easy for me to get back into connection with the wrong people, back into the trade, and there are just too many triggers. Plus that city is going down hill quick and not really the environment I want to be in. But I do miss the supports and family. I feel sort of lonely and unmotivated but will work on that. I continue to feel disappointed over not going to the gym. I had such good intentions to go every morning and I end up sleeping until 7am missing my opportunity to go (530-7am is my time when I can fit an actual gym workout in). But I am grateful for where I am today. I’m working on my vision board today as well as a dreamctacher for a friend back home. And I am doing some cleaning and making my grocery list for tmrw since its payday for me. Not much else.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
A bike is always an nice option. One can never have too many bikes 
What I wanted to say is that I hope you have a good start tomorrow in your thérapy and congratulations on your one week, Mike!
I trust your instincts Donna :). Yes I tried online and have found absolutely nothing they all want like 2,000 for there 4 year old bike. I called a shop in lake placid and the cheapest they had was 750 but atleast it’s brand knew. Heading over to check it out now
Thank you, I am super excited for tomorrow as well
Day 231
I hope all have been well, I have missed being here!
I am alive. I am sober. I am not horrible. I am not great.
I am just okay and with everything that has been going on in my life, I will accept that as a win.
Well said, my friend! 
Good to see you back.