Welcome!!!
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Oh soooooo much better Claudia. I never ever want to go back there 
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Congrats on your 500 Days!!! Welcome to the club
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Hey Everyone 
Day 48, feeling a bit flat. My son has Covid so heās isolating all week. Heās not super unwell but Iām sad he has to miss out on all of his sport training, school and socialising.
My sleep has become a lot more solid, so Iām feeling a lot different, almost like Iām catching up on all the lost sleep. Itās a nice feeling to wake up and feel like Iāve actually had solid rest not just broken half sleep.
Anyway, have a great day everyone. Great to see everyone here checking in x
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Day 106AF
Think I listened to my sick head too much. Just accepted the thought of reaching for any replacements: shit food, Energy drinks, cigarettesā¦ now even 0.0% beer. My sister got home from holiday and told me how she felt.
Now I just feel like a failure, I know Iām still sober but I want to do it all right. Now I know it wasnāt āokayā but it SUCKS. No caffeine, PMO, alcohol, cigarettes, 0.0%, screen use, junk food. Donāt want to act like a little baby whining but I am miserable and unsure on how to proceed without all this. I can work all day, but when Iām going home all my mind thinks about is winding down behind my screen or drinking energy/coffee to get back some life. Also need to adjust to full time work now, never been out the house this much ever before.
Guess Iāll need ājust for todayā.
Time for bed, good night everyone 
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Good job! Hope to see your check in again tomorrow
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Thank you, it was definitely a very proud moment. I plan to make it happen.
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Day 131 AF
RUMINATION
Feel Iām slipping once again into a depressive stateā¦
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My grandfatherās really not doing good. I was going to go see him today but itās so hard, I havenāt gone and visited him in over a year, this man has been in my life for so long and yet It feels like Iāve never been there or had a connection, I lived with him and my gram and dad for a long time as a kid, always remember him yelling shut the damn fridge doorš¤£ him and my gram were the definitely the old school way. He was a good man, and I was a c.n.a for sever years and use to watch families drop loved ones off and never come back or see them untill death was near. I said Iād never do that, and yet I did. My dad called me again and said if I want to go see him I better do it now. WTF why am I so scared
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This is one of those times where you have to do it. Heād appreciate it too.
Im making plans to go see my mom cuz sheās not doing great.
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Day 72
Got another day off, but the 4 day work week starts tomorrow. Have to get gas.
Scared to exercise for only dumb reasons
Heaps of unfinished drafts.
Important days to come
Good cats.
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Day 654.
So after reading through a fair few peopleās epic milestones I have the europic feeling once again of look how far weāve come!
Iām back to studying and Iāve smashed through 6 modules todayā¦ Test at the end of each module 90% - 100% correct! For once Iām fucking thankful for my hyperfocusness that my ADHD brain hasā¦ There was one time where I truely believed I wasnāt smart the drugs did all the work for me, oh how wrong I am!
Once again thankful for this place!
I remembered to take time out got in the car and drove to a devine little place that had puffins and other birds to admire on a gawjus scenic walk with Luna. Those little moments of taking time to reflect whilst sweating from the heat ha!
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Day 212 AF
Good afternoon,
My friendās sonās bday party was pretty chill yesterday. Caught up with some old friends. There were a few people drinking, but it didnāt even bother me at all. No peer pressure from anyone, surprisingly.
Everything is going good. I got this!
Take care everyone and stay strong!
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Old character defects started popping up recently. Prayer stopped and priorities changed. Didnt relapse but holy shit was I knocking on the Devilās door. Im getting my ass to a meeting in 20 minutes. Getting back on track and working the program by the book, God willing. Just needed to vent on here and to spill that even after three years this shit stays around and waits for one single moment of weakness to creep back in. Cunning, baffling, powerful. Looking forward to sitting at the tables tonight. Thanks for reading.
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Why do you think you are? I hope you feel better soon. 
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Day 10 but its just the beginning of a new life for me!! These groups do actually help and make you feel not so alone on your journey!! Stay positive folks
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Nice to see you. Congratulations on ur study achievements! Smarty pants 
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Mid day checkin
Day 15.75 clean from alcohol and weed. Im full of hope and joy. If this is the pink cloud i dont want to get off. So far i feel my willpower getting stronger and im proud. I think the hubby is only going to do 30days alcohol free. Me on the otherhand, i want to explore my sobriety. Afterall i start a new job monday and want to be the best version of myself with a clear mind and positive attitude. So very greatful for this forum and everyones contributions!
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Yeah my therapist is aware, told police q long time ago but wasnāt believed
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Day 62!
Feeling good! Iāve been going to bed around like 6am though. Oops haha. But I have no desire to drink despite being up all night - my old drinking hours. Yay! 
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