I feel the same way as in past experiences. I shut myself off, disconnect from things. I don’t have friends to talk with which is probably good because when I am like this I want to be alone. Bringing up alot of negativity from the past and feel worried about my future. I will look into contacting my counsellor in the next few days maybe. Thanks for your concern.
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Well the first person I actually first told a therapist who was at the inpatient hospital I went to at about 13. she was decent about it, but even though she was a mandated reporter she never reported it.
My current therapist I’ve been seeing since I was 15 or so and she knows, she’s very easy to talk to luckily
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I did eat some pizza! She probably was worried. She always picks up on when I’m not doing great and she sits at my feet to “guard” me when she senses it
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Awe I love all of that 
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Tonight will be day 76 of no self harm
I’m doing ok today. I ate some pizza so I’m feeling a bit better physically. My criminal investigation class is covering sexual assault so I’m having a hard time with this lesson but I’m managing. It’s necessary for the class. Hanging out with my VR friend at the moment so he’s helping me not fixate too much on the chapter’s topic. I tend to get really into my own head when this chapter comes up. But I have to deal with it if I’m going to work in the field.
Feeling ok for now. I’m hoping to finish up that chapter tomorrow and get it over with.
Something positive: this chapter is easier than it has been in previous classes
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Tonight’s meeting was great, it was like the universe answered. Had a new person, and talked about step one and heard my story and everything I am to a t in everyone of those old timers. Opened my eyes up tonight, calling my sponsor tonight just to say hi because it was and is something I neglect. I don’t want that mental obsession anymore, I don’t want to drink or drug to obvlion anymore. Thank you @DLS and @Lorelai I am going down in the morning to see my gramp. Love you all have a great night
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102 is fantastic. You get to have a day that’s less than your best now and then. Like you said, still sober. New day tomorrow, keep it up.
I’m checking in day 3. Thought about the drink quite a few times but never close to making a move. Helps me to see you all doing so well. Great numbers popping up here. 
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Mike it’s so awesome to see you going to meetings and getting the help you’ve always talked about getting for yourself. So proud of you man. Your last few posts especially have made me truly happy after seeing you struggle 
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Day 58 for me. Things are still tough at home but I’m strong in my sobriety. 
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Wishing you all the best with your surgery
We are all in this together. Definitely not alone. It is refreshing isn’t it. I felt alone for so long. Congratulations on 10 days!!!
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Day 656
Finished work week. Off to bed now and therapy in the morning. I’m very behind on this thread but just wanted to stop by and send you all love! 
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Hi fam. Checking in@day #17
Met my gf for dinner tonight. So nice to be able to drive than spend $45 rt on an Uber 
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Hey 
Chris. Nice to see you checking in.
And you didn’t have to wonder about how many sinks you had.
ODAAT.
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I’m praying for a successful surgery and quick recovery Claudia. It’s all going to be so good when it’s over.
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Checking in, finishing up day 30. Getting ready to leave town Thursday for the weekend. Im very excited about this trip!
I’ve noticed since being sober, that one of my best friends is a lot more mentally unfit than I originally believed her to be, and also is just the worst pet parent with her dog. So I’m thinking about having a chat with her about self love and care, and about her aggressive, bitey, neglected rescue… and I’m a little nervous about the conversation because she is also highly sensitive, and a bit of a spoiled brat (only child, in her 30’s, in a highly co-depedant relationship with her mother). And I’m not sure if I feel like I need to talk to her because I need the distraction from the addiction or if being sober has opened my eyes to some behavior patterns that are self destructive and I feel the need to help her see that she needs to save herself. I’m going to sit on this for a week or so and see what I feel.
Happy sober days everyone! Goodnight all
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Coffee. Planned a long bike ride today but there’s some rain in the air. Got me doubting my plans a bit. Well. Breakfast first. Another look at the weather radar after. Plans can change.
One thing that’s 100% sure is that I’ll remain sober and clean today. Will see about tomorrow when it comes. It’s the only way to have a better life for us all. Have as good a day as you can all. Clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam.
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Off to bed. 47 days. I’m exhausted tonight. Difficult night with my husband and daughter but soooo glad to be sober and more in control of my responses. Although not as perfect as id like them to have been, I think did a pretty good job keeping as calm as I could. If id been drinking things would have been worse. Plus I would have woken up with severe anxiety. Thanks for listening. I did the best I could when the world around me felt like it was caving in.
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Progress not perfection Miranda. You made it through a hard day sober so you’re going to bed a winner. Good night. Hugs.
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There she is!!!
DOUGH-2-DA-NUTS
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