Day 9. Strange dreams involving buying clothes i didn’t need and getting drunk… woke up relieved i hadn’t drank
I feel really sad about my kids not wanting to come to Cornwall. It’s my home now , my ex was awful after we separated (i wasn’t drinking then, i had been sober for two years and she had an affair with our builder, asked for a divorce and then asked for me back, then went bat sh@t towards me when i said no)
But I am sober, have a good day folks
Day 14
Man I feel soo tired. I’m exercising more, eating better, starting to sleep better… but the fatigue is something else 
Maybe it’s your body just readjusting ? I feel v tired so i have tried to slow things down as best i can till i can feel my energy picking up… 14 days is great!
1075
Coffee. Found the solution to being wide awake before dawn: do a crazy long bike ride the day before. Too bad I don’t feel up to it today. Will do some house chores instead. Clean and sober. One day at a time.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean or nothing will come of it. Love from my ride in the Wieringermeer yesterday, maybe the most boring polder in the country.
@GVLNative Great to see you, just as great to see your milestone Kyle! Congrats!
@Its_me_Stella Procrastinator has been my middle name for god knows how long. Still have to fight the urge.
@Matt Big changes and taking big chances friend. Exciting times but unnerving too right. Keep going.
@Misokatsu Sorry for the drama, thank you for rescuing the kitty Flo.
@SoberWalker Take it easy Claudia. And have some treats while you’re recouping.
Checking in at day 260.
After many early shifts I have a late shift today so I’ve had been trying to get a long sleep. In the end I slept well but I did wake up automatically at 5. Doing some small things in the house today now that I have the energy for it and a long walk with the dog. My shift starts this afternoon at 3:00.
@Rockstar24777 I’m so sorry to hear about the overdose. I wanted to wish you allot of strength. I’m glad I also read that you took good care of yourself that day 
@GVLNative Congratulations on your 2 years. Great milestone 
@SoberWalker Glad the surgery went well. I wish you a speedy recovery 
@Mno Nice big piece of cycling you did there. Happy Holidays 
I was thinking about my relapse after two years of sobriety…what i stopped doing was attending here, and really paying attention and respect to my need to not drink at all costs. At all costs. Drinking for me is progressive. I stopped for over two years and up until i stopped 9 days ago i had become chaotic again.
All i or any of us need to do is say no to the first drink. Whatever the temptation
Thank you Menno! I will tread myself but with healthy stuff this time. On day 4 of my sugar challenge. Thought my operation was a good start to try again 
I’m too much in love with chocolat.
Thank you Ilona, I hope so too 
Day 239 checking in 
Hello amigos! Have been mostly sleepless and contemplating my state of mind. What I realized about the romanticizing of drinking I mentioned yesterday is that I’m actually romanticizing numbing the emotions I’ve been experiencing. What helps is my healthy fear of falling into a deeper depression because I know that drinking will be a zip line down into the pit and would keep me there for some time. I have too many good things going on for me right now to risk it, and so I continue using tools and looking for more skills to regulate my emotions.
I got an email last week, a mass send out to people on insurance through my husband’s employer with the title, “How’s it going? No really.” They were promoting the host of mental health and substance use services available and what is covered. I’ve been considering in-person counseling for ages. No time like the present - going to start that ball rolling. Go well today, amigos. 
Good on you amiga! A big step and a good one. Wishing you all success with that as with all. Hugs.
Thank you! Now to follow through and do the thing! Hugs back.
Following up to yesterday’s persistent thoughts of using: I started today with a run, and I feel much better now. I thinks that’s what was out of balance. I haven’t been getting enough exercise (specifically, cardio, the magic endorphin generator - at least for me).
Today’s task: sit down and plan a simple, doable cardio plan. Something that will let me get the exercise in, without pulling any muscles. Here’s how novice I am: can you run every day and not pull something? Or do you have to take rest days? I do not know. @Runningfree, care to guide me to the light?
Hey all, checking in on day 703. I hope everybody has a good one!
Checking in on day 19.
My daughter picked up the head cold I was struggling with last week, and she has stayed home from school all week so far. She made up her own recipe for chicken soup with orzo a few weeks back. I had assumed she’d found a recipe online but she’s been watching me cook and helping me from time to time in the kitchen. She’s only ten so chopping vegetables is a bit challenging but she’s very willing. We had the soup for lunch and it was very nice.
My son has had a much better week at school so far. He wasn’t feeling up to it much on Monday but he stayed with it and he’s much happier lately.
As for myself, I’m quite well. I prefer a bit of time alone each day but that’s not really happening lately, but I have been meditating, listening to podcasts and I used my rowing machine this morning. I’m also enjoying doing word puzzles at the moment and I always do a unit or two on Duolingo each day. I think it’s good for my mental health to keep these practices up.
Hope everyone has a good and sober day!
I’m really sorry about your kids too. It is sad that they won’t visit.
I’m glad you’re sober.
Yes I think you are right, will take it steady and do what I can when I can and try to remember that staying sober is the most important thing in these early weeks
I can’t believe how much I need my alone time everyday day too!! Just to sit and be with myself. I used to use alcohol because I thought it was helping me to decompress. Nope. I just need that quiet time. I can watch a show, or read a book, or even read and post here but I just don’t want to talk to anybody or have anybody talk to me. It hurts my brain how much my daughter talks sometimes 
… )But I am so thankful she likes to talk to me:heart:)
