Duh 
2 Likes
Feeling lonely on Father’s Day
No father
No mother
No contact for years
Yet, still no drink 
Day 9 
20 Likes
You’re definitely not alone in having to ask!!!
1 Like
Happy 8 weeks!
2 Likes
Day 37😎had an awesome weekend took my kids out went for food lots of walks and lots of chasing after them😂decided to take 3 under 5s on the bus they wer so excited was worth seeing there face safe to say Al b driving next time😂happy Father’s Day to all the dads I feel truly blessed in life just now
15 Likes
Congratulations to two weeks sober! 
2 Likes
Have to agree with the never knowing what you get, even in rural upstate NY there is fentanyl now laced in. I am prescribed marinol from my primary doctor that comes straight from the pharmacy that is strictly controlled and can only refill every 30 days. And CBD has worked wonders for a few people I know and two of my animals actually but as stated make sure your picking the correct one, just check THC content and be sure it’s from a reputable CBD company.
2 Likes
Alcohol drugs and tobacco,
Binge eating chocolate,
Online gambling.
I’ve now officially given up on life 
21 Likes
Or just making room to start living it
9 Likes
Checking in day 64. Haven’t been making my sobriety a priority and I can feel the voices trying to convince me one is ok. I can control it. I need to get back to checking in daily. Happy father’s day to all the dads out there!
17 Likes
Day 106
I havent left bed.
Tired, angry. Exhausted.
13 Likes
Day 15. Taught an early class, cleaned the house, and getting ready to have all the kids here for my husband for Father’s Day. Have a great day everyone!
15 Likes
That’s so funny. That song is exactly the feeling I have, so often. The lyrics about lifting the weight of expectations and how that would create room for joy and simple pleasure - that is exactly what my experience feels like.
It’s so interesting you shared this song specifically because that’s exactly the topic I’ve been reflecting on, all day today. I came on here just now to get it out of my head and into writing.
I’ve been spending my day doing important tasks around my house: I jogged, fed the cats, ate breakfast, set up our hose reel to store the garden hose, exchanged some texts with a friend, spent time on TS, has a healthy lunch, a nap, now doing some more tasks around the house getting ready for our tenant moving in tomorrow, then after that I’m ending my day with a BBQ at my father’s place.
All useful tasks right? Not frivolous. Not a waste of anything.
Why do I feel like I’m not doing the right things?
What expectations do I think I’m not fulfilling here?
Do I expect to have everything in order? To be ahead of the ball on everything that matters? (What matters? All the stuff I’m doing today matters, so what is it that I think I should be doing other than this? There are other things that are helpful and do matter: my basement needs organizing and my office too, both of which are places where some important items have disappeared in piles / stacks of stuff. But am I a bad person for not having done that?)
It’s weird. I feel like I’m a bad person for having a messy basement and messy files but at the same time, no one is dying, the world is not ending. It’s a monkey on my back whispering self-doubt in my ear.
5 Likes
Day 30 -
I’ve made it to 30 days. I’m very tired after a very long weekend of travel to see my parents. It was great to see them and they very kindly gave me a load of donations for my new flat.
I spent my drive back thinking about my addition and the voice in my head. It’s alway present always urging, but I feel good for getting to 30 days and not submitting to it. I do however feel that I have lost touch with how I am feeling over the last week. All the good and bad emotions have been like white noise and I think I need to take some time to take a step back, commit to less things and just take things day by day.
18 Likes
There are times for looking at the big picture and times for moving one step at a time to get through the day. Sounds like you had a productive day. Maybe today was the day for small steps of progress. The other two sound like larger blocks of chores. Just because those two are still waiting to be done doesn’t mean all the smaller things you accomplished don’t mean anything. Stop being so hard on yourself. You don’t deserve it. Enjoy your bbq tonight and remember, sometimes overthinking things falls into the negative. Let go and relax, luv, you deserve it.
2 Likes
Congrats on your 30 days!! Wooohooo!
3 Likes
@Minatasha sorry to hear that. I’ve been really low recently but today I felt tiny things started to change. I smiled at someone and they smiled back, I managed to finally sew up the pillow so the feathers stop coming out, I went for a great walk along the canal.
Hang on in there it won’t last forever. Duvet days are ok sometimes. Anger is an ok feeling to have
9 Likes
30 days is an important milestone, at least it was to me (and I had several 30 days milestones early on 
). Good for you, and good that you sound like you’re gaining some new perspective, also. Congrats on the new flat!
5 Likes
Thanks Sassy2 (I’m calling you Sassy2 to distinguish you from @SassyRocks 
, who I call “Sassy”), you’re right. Time to be gentle with myself today.
I appreciate you talking this out with me. The squirrels in my head spin themselves into knots and it helps to have someone talk through things with me
5 Likes
Great job on 5 days.
I start each day in my journal with those words. “I’m not drinking today” It’s working so far. Just keep on doing what you’re doing 
6 Likes