Checking in daily to maintain focus #44

[TwoWolves967]

Hell of a job man, great work!

[maxwell]

I’m shouting out anyway! 2 years is amazing! It’s all of you that have 1 year plus, that helps everyone like me, that is just starting out or starting again. Congratulations and thank you!!

[GOKU2019]

That’s what’s up, bro. Congrats!

[Dazercat]

That’s awesome Chris!

Way to rock 2 years of freedom.
I’m so happy for you.

[DryIn785]

Can’t help feeling like this day should’ve been more productive. Left early this morning to get my phone replaced. Got home and took a nap. Awakened by my case mgr. We went to look at cats. She feels a pet might help keep me sober. Took another nap when I got home. It’s been stifling hot the last few days (108 today)… But I was sober, so it’s a win.

@Fury 2 years is awesome Chris, keep it up!
@Butterflymoonwoman I don’t like medical appointments. I don’t want to know what’s wrong. Thankfully I’m okay except for possible COPD. Remember, you can’t fix a problem if you don’t know it’s there. Take care of yourself!

[RosaCanDo]

Nice! Big congrats to you!

[Misokatsu]

Fantastic work!

[HappyDays]

Day 7 starting to get my energy back.Taking vitamin B12 seems to be helping.Just finished a late supper and now off to my hotel room to relax maybe watch a little bit of TV and off to bed I go…was really long day in the hot sun working…Managed to have lots of water so that helped…Anyways I WILL NOT DRINK TODAY OR TOMORROW!

[SadMemeQueen]

112 Days of no self harm.

From today on out I’m going to start checking in every day again.

Today I turned 20. I typically hate my birthday because all it reminds me of is the abuse my uncle would put me through as his “gift” every year for 5 years. And it’s just a reminder that I’m getting older and I still don’t have my life together.

I have tried to make my birthday a little better today. I cut and dyed my hair, and I went to see top gun 2. Tomorrow I’m going bowling with some friends I haven’t seen irl in 2 years. And then I’m going to watch a musical online with my gf. (I believe I’ve mentioned her before. She blocked me and I wasn’t talking to her, but we’ve been working things out) Thursday I am going to an escape room with my parents.

I really didn’t want to just have my parents at the escape room but the only people in town then are my cousins and all 3 of them straight up told me they just didn’t want to hang out with me. Which sucked.

I feel ungrateful for hating my birthday so much. I got some gifts today, and then Saturday I will get gifts from my family. It’s so complicated. They’re so manipulative and evil at points but they can still put on the caring act when it’s necessary. It’s the worst feeling to realize all these people doing this nice thing for you are doing it just to keep up an appearance of caring.

Something positive: I’m in love with my hair

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Awe hugs lady… its so true. I feel this often about your comments to me. U are always such a huge support and sometimes its just acknowledgement and asking a simple question that helps us out so much! I’m so grateful that u got thru ur trigger. That’s huge work! And u will be so grateful thst u didnt drink when u wake up without a hangover hope ur night I’d wonderful.

[Butterflymoonwoman]

Ur absolutely right… the only way to be able to fix what’s wrong is to know what’s wrong first. Thanks for ur support Mark

[GOKU2019]

[DryIn785]

@SadMemeQueen

I feel ungrateful for hating my birthday so much.

Don’t feel that way; your feelings are completely valid and you are not required to consider birthdays special. I know I don’t. I’m 52 and every birthday just reminds me how much I haven’t accomplished in life. Let me know how the escape room goes, I’ve always wanted to try one of those!

Oh, and Happy Birthday!

[SadMemeQueen]

Thank you!

[SadMemeQueen]

Thank you! I’ll let you know

[Misokatsu]

Happy birthday! The hair looks great!

[Its_me_Stella]

Congrats Chris!!!

[Its_me_Stella]

Happy 20th Birthday!

[icebear]

Checking in at the end of day 375. Roller-coaster day. I went to a social function this evening and I absolutely suuuuuuck at socializing sober. I really used alcohol as a crutch in those situations and I haven’t properly figured out how to do it without self-medicating that social anxiety. Baby steps I guess.

Congratulations @Fury Chris on completing two years!

Happy birthday @SadMemeQueen Megan, and your hair rocks!

[Dazercat]

Happy 20th birthday Megan
I’m sorry birthdays are so hard on you.
It’s very impressive how you are trying to make the best of things and do things for you in difficult circumstances. Keep doing what’s best for Megan.
I think the hair looks great