Day 742 clean and sober today. Up early to be at work at 6 after working the late shift last night 
The good thing is that Iād never be able to be responsible like this if I wasnāt sober, shit I wouldnāt be working at all and thatās the reality of it. I hope everyone has an amazing day, love you guys!!! 
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Thats so true Rob!! Have a great day! Sobriety rocks!!
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Good morning All, halfway thru Day 14. Havenāt completed it yet, so I guess Iām still on 13? Not sure.
Anyway, I pride myself on staying positive, but today Iām mad. I havenāt been drinking and my inflammation is getting worse, not better. I drink a lot of iced tea, no longer add sugar. I wake up this morning and Iām in so much pain, both my hands are Fād up, usually itās just the right. I canāt explain how hard it is do function with normal activities when you canāt even pick up your coffee without pain. And trying to connect Maxās leash with fingers that are swollen, and donāt get me started about the pain in walking. I lived with this disease a very long time, and my pain tolerance is extremely high. I never want people to feel sorry for me. But why is God making me feel worse when Iām working so hard to make myself better.
I donāt remember a day without pain, when it gets worse, I just get used to it. But today, Iām frustrated. Sorry for my rant. This is not giving me an excuse to drink, I donāt want to. I would like my pain to be manageable. Hugs to all, thanks for reading. This too shall pass, I hope & pray.
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Ugh. Maxie. Thatās horrible. Thatās got to be extremely frustrating. And itās exhausting too, being in all that pain. Youāre in my prayers beautiful lady. Iām praying this flare up passes quickly. I remember drinking because of pain. Just gave me a headache. And it really never did help. Keep venting. You know we are here for ya. #fuckchronicpain
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I like the term, emotional blackmail. Iāve never heard that, but seems appropriate. I think too many people try to use guilt to get attention, Iām sure Iāve been guilty of it in the past. But Iām past that, relationships should be about love and respect. If you respect your partner, you donāt need all the drama.
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Day four out and about! Still feeling the weird anxiety that comes with this sort of thing, but making it through. Iām vowing to myself to not drink today. Thanks guys!
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I always like to see this closer of yours 
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Iām so happy for you!! Rescues are the best I lost my love in 2020 at age 14.5, Lab, Newfie mix (rescued as a puppy). I thought I couldnāt do it again, yet in May 2021, here is Max. A senior, now blind pup. I adore him. Keep us posted!
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Iām so sorry to hear about Penny, that breaks my heart. Thereās nothing to say but Iām thinking of you and her.
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That does sound very passive aggressive and manipulativeā¦I learned my lesson to never go back once you decided to break up but thatās just me. One thing I am learning especially being sober is to focus on myself to heal and grow.
If being in this relationship makes you drink then?!? We should be with people that bring out the BEST in us and want to be a better person on our own. 
not drag us down.
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Checking in on sobriety day 412. Itās the last day of my first week in the new job. Love the group of folks Iām working with. I havenāt seen a single miserable looking person in the building yet so Iām taking that as a good sign. Iām slowly settling into the new routine of 5 am wakeup so I can workout before work rather than my previous 10 am lifting schedule. Got a great shoulder and core workout this morning and after work my wife and I will spend the evening our daughterās softball game. Have a great day everyone. Itās a great day to be above ground and sober.
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Sorry to hear about that. My wife and I just went through this exact situation last month. Iām quite sure I would be behind bars if I had been drinking or turned to drinking. I came here and got a lot of support and stayed sober. I know I experienced a lot of anger but we are all here for you both.
Good afternoon all. Checking in on day 308. Last night was my last night of training so on my own from tonight on out. Exhausted today, got home at midnight. Asleep by 3am but was up at 530am and canāt get back to sleep before work tonight. But it happens! Hope everyone has a great day and stay safe.
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Day 476! In the mountains. No connectivity so Iām in town for a quick sober hello!
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Amazing!! Clear and rested mornings are great. They only continue to get better. Happy you feel so good.
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Checking in. Not in a good mood to be honest. Not even happy that itās the weekend. Idk. Cannot focus, not even reading on here.
I hope everyone has a good and sober weekendā¦
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Checking in 11 days 11 hrs.
Yesterday afternoon I did not have the mental energy to make it to the gym. I was craving beer and just wanted to go home, eat some comfort food and chips and binge watch tv. So I did just that with a couple of NA beers. I got tired by 8:30pm so I went to bed earlier than usual. Today I am feeling slight anxiety and I think its because I am so used to Fridayās being the start of my weekend and mentally I have a beer in my hand already. I have no plans for the weekend so I think I am a afraid of being alone with my mind and cravings. I wont be alone Iāll be with my kids and partner but in this journey the battle is always in your head. Can I have one or two and stop there. Maybe I can actually control it this time. then the flip side I have been feeling so good, why would I want that old feeling back. I didnāt feel that great. I was tired and not as present with my family. Working on today and the rest of the weekend will be the same.
ODAAT 
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Hi, I just posted my update hope its a good read. I have had NA beers. Heineken came up with one that taste just like it but has no alcohol. It sure helped me yesterday but my hope is not to have to drink those either. I am looking at them as last resort for overwhelming cravings.
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Good morning (or afternoon, or evening) sober fam! I was awake most of the night and just woke up about 20 minutes ago. I was kinda mad at myself but I had no real plans anyway. A friend of mine called, wanting to hang out. I didnāt hear the phone ring because I was sleeping on my right side and Iām deaf in my left ear.
Could be a positive though; he no doubt has vodka and I donāt know if Iām ready for the temptation in my house.
@Mindymoo Iāve tried NA beer and personally doesnāt work for me; after 5 or 6, my brain gets frustrated because the flavor triggers the expectation of a buzz. So I end up getting real beer. Your results may differ, but why gamble?
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Concentrating on myself ?!?!?! Thanks for suggesting it, but I canāt imagine doing anything of the sort.
If Iām going to concentrate on anything, it will be work.
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