Well, fill in the blank, lol. I forgot who I was speaking to!
Or I could just go back to what I knew before (minus the alcohol)ā¦ namely working 10-12 hours a day, seven days a week, all year.
Thatās probably best.
Iām not sure that I like the idea of āLow alcoholā as written on the canā¦ I would prefer NO alcoholā¦ but thatās just me.
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That does look quite tasty, even though I never liked Gin & Tonic. Seriously, people think if youāre alcoholic youāll drink anything but I just canāt stomach Gin.
I used to get in these friendly arguments with a friend of mine who hated vodka as much as I hate Gin.
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3m 5d
Feeling so grateful. Weather is finally starting to get nice here. Oh the joys of living in the PNW. Lol
Prayers to all of you and have a great weekend!
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Evening all, checking in. Been a hard day as various things are not right. I feel like I sort one area and another goes wrong. Part of being a grown up I suppose. I am sure half of my drinking was me resisting that for so long.
Oh well, better to face the upcoming challenges sober. It isnāt just the sobriety itself though, but I have a calmness to me now. I am still getting anxious but am able to put it in perspective. I have very little control over the issues we are facing so just going to have to control my reaction to them.
Busy weekend with a football tournament tomorrow so going to get an early night. I hope everyone has a lovely Friday evening (or sleep for those ahead!)
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I am/was the same. Gin makes me cry! We still have it in the house and even at my most intense cravings I wouldnāt touch it.
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Good afternoon, Maxās vet appt went okay. He was a champ. Doc said he has a heart murmur, and will treat if he starts coughing regularly, TG heās not. My biggest bummer was when I told him I made him 11 in May, his 1 year anniversary with me. He said heās probably older. 
So Max & I decided on the drive home, heās now 17, so every new birthday will be a miracle! 
We should get blood test results tomorrow or Monday
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He is sooo cute! He kind of reminds me of my pet poodle named Tippy when I was growing up 
Iām glad his appt went well
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Thank you! 
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Way to go Max and Maxie.
Minnie had a heart murmur diagnosis about 3 years ago 
They didnāt detect anything last check up in spring. But ya, no coughing!
And kudos to you showing us all how to work TS on a rough day. Being here frequently if you can pays off. Keep up the great work Maxi. I hope Max gets an extra treat today.
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Yes he got treats, probably why heās almost 23lbs 
. I told the vet he doesnāt like to walk, he called him lazy, lol. He agreed, probably a puppy mill pup, most of his life breeding. He also said heās happy because heās having the best time of his life. I sure hope so!
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Checking in
Day 130
Well things have truly been better today! Hubby and I are okay and he seems to be more open to my suggestions about meal prepping for his suppers and me being able to continue on with my keto eating (that way we are both happy). Iām glad that I didnāt allow my hubbys comments distract me from my healthy eating thatās working for me. I have lost 8lbs so far, havent had issues with my BED in 5 days and I do feel better overall! I exercised this morning and had a zoom mtg for work as well (more enhanced training for a certain client). Then paid some bills, chatted with my mom, went grocery shopping, and now am home to tidy up before hubby gets home. Overall itās been a good day! I have some odd slight cravings for my DOC, but just trying to stay present and distracted lol
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Iām so happy to hear that your husband is communicating and listening to your feelings. We all have bad days and you handled it well yesterday. Congratulations on the 8lbs! Thatās a definite win! 
I hope the rest of your evening goes as well as today.
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Day 35 - A super quick check in from me. A very late evening and an early start to come tomorrow. Feeling tired and vulnerable so Iām going to get as much sleep as I can. Hopefully I will be able to do a better update tomorrow.
Have a great sober day everyone.
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Day 53 checking in, so i have this new job (started in may). im loving it! I have a great rapport with my boss and coworker. All next week i have meetings with the heads of 12 programs i do analysis for. Im prepared and just working on building confidence and rapport with them. My coworker warned me about this one program director (PD) i picked upā¦my coworker wont even talk to this PD without her supervisor because of past experiences. Shes well known as a problem with her boss and HR but i hear its impossible from getting fired from this place. Oh well, Ive been warned.
Well i had my first one on one with this PD today solo and was prepared. I had confidence in my numbers and what i wanted to discuss. This PD lived up to the warning: she talked down to me, told me my numbers were wrong ā they werent, told me i wasnt prepared-- i was, she was expecting a different discussion, she was just nasty but im proud of how i handled it! I was on my game. She didnt ruin my mood.
BUT i did say to my coworker after that she makes me want to have a few drinksā¦old thinkingā¦i didnt even like hearing that thought pattern. I dont want to drink, in the near past i would have used it as an excuse to over indulge in booze. BUT NOT TODAY SATAN lol @SassyBoomer love that saying 
im not going to let a person change my path or break my confidence
Living soberly, with better perspective and pause. Let go and let god
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Love ya, girl! I remember clearly the first time we spoke back and forth and Iām grateful our friendship continues to grow. Lol Iām glad one of my tools works for you and gives you joy to use btw, Iāve noticed your growth. Iām glad you recognize it too
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So glad the job is going well!!! There seems to be at least 1 higher up person in every job that is miserable haha (at least that is also from my experience). Anyway, it sounds like a great job for u and itās nice to see u excited about it!
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Thank you 
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Evening Check in
Day 130
Felt like using tonight but I worked thru it. Ill be honestā¦ its not only the drug that I crave sometimes (the effects), its also the act of doing it. And normally I only really connect with God in the mornings, but just a little while ago I prayed and connected to God to ask for help. I really have to get back into meditation tho. I am feeling that pull. It helped me tremendously in the beginning (deep breathing and body scans especially) and just bcuz life gets busy, itās never TOO busy to stay connected and to work on my recovery daily. Itās truly a daily reprieve for me. Honestly what really triggered my using thoughts was eating supper and being disappointed with myself over my BED and feeling like I overate (and itās not like o operate on anything unhealthy either, but still) But then I prayed and I realized this:
And then I had to Google stuff related to this overeating lol and then I did some deep breathing and reminded myself of my reasons why I quit. Used lavender essential oil (another recovery go to for me), and then will do some self care and get a good rest. Tmrw is a new day!
Thanks for reading TS fam!
Hope everyone has had an addiction free day!
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