Checking in. Keeping at it. Lately I have again started to feel this heavily tiredness with no energy. Its hard to keep up a normal Day with work, Kids and everything, when I wake up feeling more dead then when I got to bed.
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Maxine I can really relate, especially to thisā¦
I felt the exact same way.
It actually scared me a lot when I realized how much pain I was looking at facing on the daily and that now I was going to attempt it sober. I have no magic answer for you, I only have proof that it can be done, we can get through our bad days. Somedays I still go hour by hour, somedays I hop on here while I am in tears in a parking lot because I am in so much pain and am too exhausted to unpack my cart, and somedays all I can do is read because typing takes too much energy. All of that is ok, as long as I get my butt to bed sober those nights too. It has started to get easier, my days have started to become better, I am becoming used to my body without substances.
I am glad that you are letting your feelings out here. I have been a part of quite a few chronic pain support groups that I found helpful, maybe thatās an option for you too?
I am here to vent to or chat with anytime.
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simply.
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Three years sober today, anything is possible if you want it 
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Say 686
Went up to 37C today 
. Other commuters are delicately dabbing their temples and I have sweat stains like I just ran a marathon. Seriously, why donāt most Japanese people sweat? I feel so disgusting.
Anyway, donāt feel like drinking anything other than gallons of iced water.
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I am so sorry, that is so hard. I donāt have much pain, but do understand masking a chronic condition with alcohol. I have chronic fatigue syndrome and giving up alcohol hasnāt improved it which is disappointing. I struggle a lot with seeing people getting sober and taking up exercise, turning their life around. I wish so much that could be me. My husband recently had covid and for the first time really understood just how debilitating the exhaustion is. But then he got better (obviously great, but wish I could too).
Sorry, made that all about me. I really hope today is a better day for you. I canāt imagine how tough it is to be in pain all the time. It must be so frustrating.
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Today is another opportunity to be better than yesterday. Shouldnāt be hard as I let myself down on more than one occasion, Too much ego and not enough let go.
Itās hard being a perfectionist whoās never perfect
NOTE TO SELFā¦
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Day 280 checking in been on holiday the last week not been on here much hope everyone is well 
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Day 18. Iāve had some challenges over the weekend. A friend came round and was drinking bottles of beer, talking about cocaine, was going to a gig afterā¦I explained that I wanted a different life. They said that I could only be me. I couldnāt change who I am. I was pissed off about this but kept quiet. I can change who I am. And I will. I stayed sober and stayed at home. Yay!
Iāve not been sleeping well at all. Maybe 4-5 hrs each night. Desperate for a good sleep. Hopefully, I will get better sleep as time goes on.
Iām constantly telling myself that I canāt drink sensibly and am accepting that in order to be happy I have to remain sober.
Feeling strong, but tired.
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Day 480! Sober Tuesdayā¦.all day!!
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Vent away! Iām sorry that every day is a physical struggle. But alcohol will continue to deteriorate your body. But, you know that. I understand why you want to escape the pain, though. I hope today is a better day for you.
I also weighed myself this morning. Have put on a bit more than I expected from the post-quitting smoking sugar fest and also I think from my energy levels going up a bit now Iām taking more iron and my food intake going up disproportionately more 
Itās really annoying because I have SO MUCH CAKE left over from the weekend. One part of me feels like I should just eat it all over the next couple of days so it is out of the way. However I also know that will not help sugar cravings. So am planning on seeing how many neighbours I can palm it off onto!
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Checking in on day 416 alcohol free. New job keeps me pretty busy. Love the new role and people I get to work with so far. New job doesnāt stop the family flow of sports and summer activities or my resolve to continue my fitness journey though so Iām alot busier than I was before. Generally nonstop from my 5:15 AM alarm to my head hitting the pillow at 10:30 PM. Beats being plastered every night by a long shot. Have a great day everyone. Itās a great day to be above ground and sober.
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Good morning all. Quick check in on day 312. Losing track of the days if the week. Been on three different shifts within the last 8 days worked. Sleep is almost non existent at this point and donāt even see a day off in sight unfortunately. But it happens! Hope every stays safe and take care! Add my morning view before leaving work this morning.
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To be honest your friend is quite right. You can only be you. What they have got wrong is the idea that taking intoxicants is an essential part of what and who you are. When you are sober you are most āyourselfā!
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Well, itās another day! I hope everyone has a great day!
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Oof, I feel this so much. Wife and I had a ten year anniversary party last week and the fridge is absolutely loaded with cake and cupcakes. If I listen closely, I can hear them calling to meā¦ 
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Day 746 clean and sober today. Up early to cover a shift over in detox. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys!!! 
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Hey guys-
90 DAYS! I made it! We are in our new house, everything is a bit of a tornado right now. At times Iāve felt the āneed to celebrate and reward myself with a drinkā pang.
But ultimately I wouldnāt be here, in this new house, if I wasnāt sober.
Iām so happy to be here, to have broken away from my cycle of day in day out drinking, hung over constantly, working around alcohol, living across the road from alcohol.
Iāve broken out of the trap, and I can start a new chapter.
Iām so happy.
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Day 10034
After I checked in here yesterday my day began to have a lot of frustration in it. I walked into the laundry room and found a HUGE pile of soaking wet, dripping towels and rugs just thrown on the floor. Every single towel in the house was there. Remember, I just washed them the other day when my washer went on the fritz. I heaved a big sigh and started a load.
I was starting to feel like this.
When folk got up I asked about the towels. Turns out my 17 year old grandson used dawn dish soap in the dishwasher. I donāt know how I slept through the discovery and the clean up because Iām told it was massive. Granddaughter said my grandson literally sat like this for awhile 
So I did the right thing. I talked to him about never doing that again and about personal responsibility of not leaving a pile of wet things for someone else to have to deal with. And being I am a role model for the kids I made sure to laugh hysterically about the situation and images in my head with him. I almost wish they had woken me up up to see it
Try to find the humor in everything. If not, try to find the small good thing. My floor is clean. My grandson learned a lesson before he strikes out on his own. Iām still clean and sober after an exhausting day. The dishwasher still works. Not a bad day in retrospect.
Three days to the convention. I havenāt checked the laundry room but I suspect today I will be able to do my laundry. 
Have a blessed and sober 24! I know I will.
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