Hey Drew. Congrats on the 381
After I got some time under my belt, which was a couple of notches bigger 
I had to cut back on the sweets too.
I use the no added sugar thread and the weight loss check in thread regularly along with a few others.
I also find brisk 30 minute walks do wonders for my mind and body.
Come check us out if your interested.
Thanks, Eric! Iāll check it out.
I had some beers yesterday and they gave me extreme anxiety today. I know I can stay clean as I did so for the entirety of 2021 for my New Yearās resolution and it was one of the best decisions Iāve ever made. I need to get a good nights sleep tonight, wake up and go for my morning run, and know that tomorrowās a beginning of a new day.
Day 118 of no self harm
I started my new job today. Remote customer service. Today was just setting up our equipment. It was extremely infuriating. Thereās 50+ people in one training class. It seems at least half of them have little to no idea on how to use a computer. Iām trying to appreciate the fact that Iām getting paid for waiting around, but I just want to be actually doing something, otherwise Iām just sitting there with my thoughts.
Not feeling too great today. A lot anxiety for no reason. Really wanting to self destruct right now.
Aww @Mindymoo im sorry you arent getting the support from your partner. That sucks. Can you try talking to him when hes not drinking? Will your ask be considered then? Would he read a note if you write your sincere thoughts to him?
Evening check in. Almost complete with day 3. Work wasnāt too bad today. My anxiety slowed down after being at my desk for a couple hours and talking to my coworker. Sheās an awesome and supportive person. Iām glad to be with my family, having a cup of tea and winding down for the evening.
Near the end of day 2. Unsure of how to feel honestly. I know this is whatās best for me. Being high is fun, but spending the next several days recovering while trying to focus on work and keeping the home life together, sucked. Normally I be cruising for the next one nighter right about now, instead I cooked for the first time in over two weeks. Walked the pup and now gonna clean up a bit and pack tomorrowās lunch.
As great as it feels, I have to be honest, itās also lonely. As quickly as I think it, I dismiss it, the little voice inside my head saying, āit wasnāt that bad, you just have to control and moderate its use better.ā
Is this normal?
Yep, totally normal. The obsession to drink or use like a gentleman, or lady, or respectable person is maddening. Only when you truly realise you canāt moderate any more than you can fly in the sky, will you be free.
And for me, if I think logically, I was more lonely drinking. I spent so much time alone drinking āproperlyā (to blackout) hungover, etc. I have more time and energy for socialising now.v
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Quick check in before I have to go and do a day of business emergency training or how you call it in English. In Dutch we simply say bedrijfshulpverleningtraining. Whatever the name Iām glad Iām sober and clean. One day at a time.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from Luna and me.
Happy 9 weeks sober Brian! 
Thinking about you @BrianP ā¦ so hard what you are going through. Proud of you for staying sober. Take care and cry your tears and grieve your grief. Hugs
Checking in. Keeping at it. Lately I have again started to feel this heavily tiredness with no energy. Its hard to keep up a normal Day with work, Kids and everything, when I wake up feeling more dead then when I got to bed.
Maxine I can really relate, especially to thisā¦
I felt the exact same way.
It actually scared me a lot when I realized how much pain I was looking at facing on the daily and that now I was going to attempt it sober. I have no magic answer for you, I only have proof that it can be done, we can get through our bad days. Somedays I still go hour by hour, somedays I hop on here while I am in tears in a parking lot because I am in so much pain and am too exhausted to unpack my cart, and somedays all I can do is read because typing takes too much energy. All of that is ok, as long as I get my butt to bed sober those nights too. It has started to get easier, my days have started to become better, I am becoming used to my body without substances.
I am glad that you are letting your feelings out here. I have been a part of quite a few chronic pain support groups that I found helpful, maybe thatās an option for you too?
I am here to vent to or chat with anytime.
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Three years sober today, anything is possible if you want it 
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Went up to 37C today 
. Other commuters are delicately dabbing their temples and I have sweat stains like I just ran a marathon. Seriously, why donāt most Japanese people sweat? I feel so disgusting.
Anyway, donāt feel like drinking anything other than gallons of iced water.
I am so sorry, that is so hard. I donāt have much pain, but do understand masking a chronic condition with alcohol. I have chronic fatigue syndrome and giving up alcohol hasnāt improved it which is disappointing. I struggle a lot with seeing people getting sober and taking up exercise, turning their life around. I wish so much that could be me. My husband recently had covid and for the first time really understood just how debilitating the exhaustion is. But then he got better (obviously great, but wish I could too).
Sorry, made that all about me. I really hope today is a better day for you. I canāt imagine how tough it is to be in pain all the time. It must be so frustrating.
