@Butterflymoonwoman and @Misokatsu
Thank you both for your kindness. I spent 10 minutes bawling my eyes out in the shower after I read your words. It was very cathartic and much needed.
Have a blessed day 
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Sorry to hear this Brian.
You have to remember all the good times you had together.
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Welcome to the TS community!
Hello one and all,
eventually finished my first 120 days. I’m grateful to come so far, because the last days weren’t easy. My boss told me that I probably lose my job at the beginning of next year. I totally panicked over the whole weekend and still hope, that I get rid of this anxiety.
I hope you all have a good time of the day!
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Yay! Congratulations on 25 days! And welcome!
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Daily check in, day 3 down and working on day 4. My anxiety is down today and focusing on work is easier. Hope everyone has a great day!
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Happy 1000 days! Awesome! 
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Sounds like today will be a good sober day! Way to go day 4!
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This is one of the most amazing milestones, one I’ve been through myself and one I cherish. 
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Good Morning checking in Day 15
Feeling pretty good about my choices.
My new sleep schedule and the desire to start being a morning person.
Working on that. My gym offers a class at 5:45 which I would love to be a part off.
I have been going to bed at 9-9:30 so waking up at 5-5:15 shouldn’t be so bad.
Slowly though I have always liked my sleep since I was a child LOL.
Work has been good, keeps me busy through out the day and when it doesn’t I take my break or I log on here to see what’s going on.
I thought I would see my weight drop within weeks of not drinking and that hasn’t been the case. I have been eating normal meals, staying hydrated and working out but maybe I need to add a little more time to my cardio. I have been enjoying a chocolate here and there small pieces (kisses) and starburst like 3-6 a day. I also have a calorie counter and it’s been a helpful tool but I wish I see the scale move a little faster. I know with any weight loss journey patience is also key so I’m not being hard on myself just thinking of things I can do to help me reach my goal. I have not been craving beer as much as I was so I’m happy about that. I’m also happy of the renewed strength I get daily to push forward from this group and the podcast that have been recommended here. They have been of a lot of help.
Thanks for reading and I hope everyone has a wonderful day.
ODAAT 
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Omg I laughed so hard at this, I’m sorry! I am also a sweaty beast and lived in the desert SW of the US and around people who didn’t sweat in 100 deg with humidity even. Jerks! All of them! My husband included! And he would say to me, you’re the brown one, what’s your problem LOL! I feel your pain.
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I am so sorry things are painful and hard. When I quit drinking my migraines became much more obvious and debilitating. I really struggled and still have rough days. I’ve even felt like drinking would be a solution. I’m glad you’re sticking with this.
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Your reply makes me happy. I am glad that my post radiate positivity for you. When I read you went out for a morning run I was like that sounds so good. I need to try it 
. I’m sure that starts off your day in a good light. I hope you have a wonderful time at the beer garden 0% all the way!! Enjoy.
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Me too 
Although it’s not even hot here.
I would be looking like I’d run a marathon with you @Misokatsu !
I am hoping it might be something to do with iron / b12 / vit d deficiencies and so it might improve. But if I’m a sweaty beast forever at least I’m in good company 
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181 and still fighting for my life! It’s daily a work on the mind and spirit. I give all the glory to my God. ODAT
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So I did it! I made it through 5 days in Vegas with out drinking! It was a hard test. The last day almost broke me, I was so close so many times and I had to tell people no I’m good probably 30 times after the show. Even at the airport got me, typically the airport I get there early and go straight to the bar so finding something else to do was rough but I just sat somewhere and ate slowly. I’m at day 23 and I’m proud of myself because part of this journey I’ve been in vegad and Orlando
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Way to do it @Wesdoeshair im super proud of you. Thats not an easy environment especially when you are early in your sobriety. Major kudos!!!
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Admirable
Vegas has always been the capital of drinking and for me it has been no different.
So happy you came out triumphant this trip.
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Well done! Airports were the same for me. I’ve spent more than my fair share in airports, even had my favorite bars down for each airport. So now I always have my laptop or a book. Something to keep me occupied. Couldn’t imagine being in Vegas so very admirable!
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Day 39 - I am in a real funk at the moment and I am struggling to get out of it. The conveyancing is going badly and there is a big go/ no go decision coming in the next day or so that is really screwing with my head. If it falls through I think I will have to go and rent somewhere because I am really struggling not having somewhere to call my own. I am a very introverted person and 2 months of having to compromise to other people’s way of living and work around their lives is putting me at a freyed end. I know this is incredibly selfish but I just want somewhere me and the kids can call our own. My friends have been amazing but I feel like I am wearing on their hospitality now. I should be sorted, I should be able to provide a place for myself.
It’s all that’s on my mind at the moment and I am really struggling to be present.
I would add some more but it’s just more of the same. It is a really rocky time for me, my sobriety and my mental health.
I look at @BrianP, @SassyBoomer, @Butterflymoonwoman and so many others and think, if they can get through their tough times, why am I struggling so much?
I am hard in myself and I have zero patience for things, which is not a good combination especially when I am relying on the good will of others.
I’m going to bed early tonight to read a book, chill out and see if I can recharge my batteries some more.
I hope you all fair better than me today.
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