Proud of all of you for each day you have freed yourself from the clutches of your addiction, whatever it may be! If you have not yet freed yourself, then I am proud of you for being at this site and seeking help… may you succeed, the help is here for you. ODAAT.
To so many of you who have celebrated big milestones, congratulations! I have seen some two, three, four years…
Congratulations to all of you for each single day! It is all huge and significant!
@anon9289869 congrats on your two years! So nice that you have something tangible to remember it by.
Thank you❤️. It’s not too harsh at all. Too many people around me help me justify my excuses so I appreciate the honesty and I agree with you. I have reset.
Thank you Jan, I really am. You wrote that so well and it really is all true. I really don’t want to go down that dark hole again. I have reset. Day 1. I can do this though. I have to.
Day 13 and going strong. Had friends over for dinner last night and I’d normally go through an entries bottle of wine or 2! But instead I sipped on my iced water and my friends were very supportive!!! Today is a busy day of nothing!!! Ha ha
If you are overweight set a plan in motion to lose the extra weight. If you are a normal weight, set up a plan to maintain that weight. Watching your calories is what can help you with both goals.
A calorie counter can help that. There are weight loss and binge eating threads here at TS. Search in the search bar.
If a particular food is causing you a problem, like sweets, then yes, take that out of your diet.
There is a no sugar thread here.
If you are tracking your calories you can see the impact that the binge eating is making.
There is a no binge eating thread here.
Exercise is great and good, good for fitness and mental health, not always the best for losing weight.
Sex… any sexual behavior not with your husband, is risky behavior, the risk of sexually transmitted disease is always a concern and prevalent.
If you still qualify, the HPV vaccine will prevent cancers from HPV infection.
In my mind most anything you would do with your husband and your husband only would not be considered risky.
There is help here for you for both of your concerns, the eating and the sex.
Editing to add that not too long ago I posted an article about exercise and weight lifting and it’s good impact on mental health and PTSD. Search my posts for it. I am 100% for exercise and do myself. It is just not always the one and only answer to weight loss and binge eating… It could improve your mood enough that you decide not to binge eat or have risky sex.
Hey congratulations on 4 whole months!!! I’m glad ur voicing ur concerns. It’s so important to get those other thoughts. Addiction really creeps into all areas of our lives (I found for myself also that drugs were not the only issue once I cleaned up).
2 areas that have crept up which have in the past been issues and now even more so, is #1 food (and I literally have asked myself the same question… how to manage food when u have to eat? I laughed when I read that part of ur post bcuz I literally feel that way too) and then #2 is exercise. I have to be careful with that also bcuz it can become an obsession and then I go the total opposite of binge eating and emotional eating. Im very much into extremes I guess.
As was mentioned… there are good threads on here for “No binge eating” and “No sugar added”. I downloaded the Carb Manager app which tracks macros and calories. It helps me to know truly what I’m putting in my body. I haven’t experienced a whole lot of stuff when it comes to sex addiction. I did tho used to use sex for self harm so that’s a whole diff thing I think But I think ur on the right track by acknowledging it and realizing that there may be issues. If ur aware about it, u can keep an eye on it so that it doesn’t become a blown out addiction or issue.
I think with all addictions… we basically are trying to fill a “need” or fill that “void” in our lives. Or we are trying to numb or escape something painful. This may be a sign of something deeper that may need to be addressed. Idk. Just throwing stuff out there. I feel like there’s a reason it’s happening. Just like when I become obsessed about things, there’s a root cause for it somewhere. I just don’t know what it is haha lol wishing u all the best lady! Hope ur having an amazing 4 months sober!
@Butterflymoonwoman this gave me the feels, the chills, all the good energy vibes. What a very beautiful experience. I think I might need to pray on this and try it. Thanks for sharing!
Sweetheart, I read your post earlier and Derek’s reply. I didn’t say anything because 1. Derek said perfectly what I was feeling about it, 2. I didn’t want you to feel pounded on and 3. I knew with introspection you’d come to the same perspective.
I’m so happy and proud of you. A slip is a slip is a slip and it’s as much a mental thing as physical. You understand that and I’m grateful you do. Don’t beat yourself up over it, luv. It’s just another lesson learned on this beautiful journey we all walk called recovery. Much love and respect.
Evening Check in Day 165
I’m feeling alot of emotion tonight. Im currently laying next to my son and juat looking at him. I held his little hand just now and prayed for him and for his healing. Im just feeling sad about my sons situation with his brainstem tumor and just trying to stay present. Trying to remind myself of how far he has come, how brave and courageous he is, how he has such a beautiful soul and amazing personality. I feel so lucky to have him in my life. He is such an incredible human being and I constantly tell him how much I love him and how proud I am of him. I’m scared honestly for his health but even tho his tumor his stable (no growth since last November when he ended chemo), I worry for his future. I just want to make his quality of life amazing! And I feel like I’m doing my best to do that (and apart of that is me being clean and sober and well mentally). I don’t often get like this but every so often those thoughts come forward and I need to feel them. Stuffing them doesn’t help. I always question myself: Am I doing enough? Am I being the best mom I can be? What more can I do? Idk… just feeling the feelings tonight listening to the rain and thunder.
Everything you’re feeling is normal. Sending lots of love. In the quiet times it’s natural to think about what you’re blessed with, your gratitude, your love, your questions, your anxieties, insecurities and doubts.
You’re doing a wonderful job. I could tell just looking at his picture last week. It’s normal for you to want to overprotect. He needs care.
You will always know what’s best for him. Trust yourself and get help if you think or know you need it. Much admiration for you.
Put your doubts on the shelf for the evening and let your God take care of them for you for this evening. You are not alone.
Alisa thank you I really needed to hear this tonight. Ur words really touched me and it reminded me to lean on God when I’m drained and sad. Thank you so much for ur words
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A quick check in as I get ready for work. And for another sober and clean day. There’s no other way for me and all of us. Clean and sober or nothing would come of my life. Recovery is work but it’s a work of love and I’m doing it one day at a time. Have a good one all, or at least as good as you can. Love from my little square.
Thank you, I thought that might be the case. A friend of mine who has been on the same path recently gave in due to that constant voice telling him he’s missing out. It’s hard to ignore at times and it makes me upset but your right, it’s not worth it
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Have a good day at work @Mno , I’m heading on for work too within 1 houre.
It was a short night. Went to my band rehersal and there where drinks afterwards. Because I ride with someone else I have to wait untill she decides to go home.
Because of my bad hearing these days it’s difficult to be in a noisy group of people. It’s like being with my head in a box trying to hear what others are saying
The surgeon appointment went well, I do not have to come back. Bye hospital!
congratulations on 4 whole months!!! I’m glad ur voicing ur concerns. It’s so important to get those other thoughts. Addiction really creeps into all areas of our lives (I found for myself also that drugs were not the only issue once I cleaned up).
But I think ur on the right track by acknowledging it and realizing that there may be issues. If ur aware about it, u can keep an eye on it so that it doesn’t become a blown out addiction or issue.
Evening Check in 
I really needed to hear this tonight. Ur words really touched me and it reminded me to lean on God when I’m drained and sad. Thank you so much for ur words 
