Checking in on day 396 sober. Really glad to be sober right now, because there is a lot going on. I’ve been paying closer attention to my thoughts these days and notice how they quickly get carried off meandering down some garden path of hypothetical situations. I have been trying to let that go. Hope you all are doing well.
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Wow you are making hella progress! Lookin good 
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Hey @maxwell , yes the melatonin plus does not seem to affect my dreams or make me feel off in any way but I did feel like the reason I didn’t like the tranquil sleep is because it did make me have weird dreams and I felt a little groggy in the morning. I think that the melatonin plus is only available in Canada so I’m not sure where you are.
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I’m sorry that you’re having such a hard time with this. I’m hoping that it is going to be short-lived. This is Wednesday. I’m hoping that you’ll feel better by Friday. I’m going to think positive and success for you. Keep checking in and let us know how you’re feeling. I’m sorry that it’s so rough for you. It just sounds like the pits and hopefully it will soon be over and you will be on to a good path.
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@cjp thank you so much for your well wishes
@Mindymoo thanks lovely!! Rooting for you too let’s go 
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Yaaaaaay!!! 
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Thank you 
. I appreciates everyone’s support and encouragement here. Has been amazing to have this community.
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I’m in the US. I bought Olly brand Melatonin. Now that I look at it it has that and L-Theanine & Botanicals, which is chamomile, passionflower & lemon balm.
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I’m so sorry what you’re going through! Cymbalta sounded familiar so I checked my meds and I take the generic of it. Why did they take you off? I’m sorry, you may have said previously. They can’t give you something else?
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Yeah cymbalta is what I’m coming off of, I was put on venlafaxine
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I take Duloxetine which is the generic of Cymbalta. Does the new one take awhile to start working, why did they switch? I read they are similar but different. And you shouldn’t be on cymbalta if you drink or have HBP (high blood pressure) I had both when it was prescribed. Again, sorry if you talked about this already, I hate to hear you’re going through withdrawals without your doctors help.
Congratulations on your 60 days Colin.
Better late than never.
Great job man!!! 
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Hey I hope those thoughts of buying have subsidized by now. Stay strong friend.
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What worked for me was sheer determination and the thought of losing my family for good made me realise alot! av gained so much recently and still building bridges
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Hey hope you’re doing ok thoughts are with u
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Day 9 after bad times of binging and really stuck
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There is no need to apologise, that sounds rough and 5.30 is rough too. I was up at a similar time and I am just not here yet!
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Day 53 / 54 - my counter says 53.98 so by the time I get this down it’s probably day 54!
I’m so tired. I moved into my new room last night which felt really good. I now know I have a place to stay until the flat purchase completes and it doesn’t matter how long that takes as I am a paying lodger and not just relying on the goodwill of others.
For some reason that was super important to me. I’ve spent 9 weeks at my friend’s house and I was incredibly anxious about the amount I was imposing on them. They gave me a place to steady the ship, but in the end I asked too much of them and it was time to go. I spent the next two nights on my old neighbours floor in a spare room and during that time I found the place I am in now. It’s unfurnished but that allows me to buy stuff for the new flat now and spread the cost.
It also feels like I now have a corner to fight back from. I’m not sure fight back is the right term but I am a big introvert. I need somewhere to call my own in order to recharge. Between the heat and the moving it’s been physically and mentally tiring. I’m hoping that I can use the next 3 months to get myself settled, save some more money and get my life back together again.
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