Good to see you back fighting for your self!! 
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Hi Emma! It’s good to have u back here! I’m sorry things have been rough for u tho the past while 
but this is a new start with new opportunities to gain that sobriety that u want 
I’m so glad ur back
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I relate to ur post so much! I too have been struggling with my diet. I was doing keto and and lost around 20lbs! My body couldn’t handle it anymore so I was forced to stop and now my snacking and diet have been horrendous 
energy levels are low foe the gym also. I’m currently trying to workout lol but my body just doesn’t want to cooperate. But u mentioned a good point tho.
I think we as alcoholics and addicts go to extremes (at least I do). It’s very much all or nothing thinking and I struggle with finding that balance and being gentle with myself if I fall with my eating or exercise. I’m also a perfectionist to an extent and have high expectations of myself. Don’t know if u can relate to that too. We are human beings and not robots lol. Some days will be great and others not so much. But as long as we are patient with try to be consistent, I think that is what matters. U seem to be doing very well tho and congratulations on 13 days!!! Great work!!
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Checking in day 8 141 days clean of cutting
10 hours clean of the other 
Something i finally admitted to myself that im addicted too 
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I do agree Dana, I shouldn’t even be future tripping. I’ve only been away for two months. This is better then then losing their father forever
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Ur absolutely right. Ur a very insightful and self aware person also I feel. As hard as it may be not to have ur girls around all the time, I just think that it’s important to focus on u so that u have ur recovery and ultimately (like u said), ur girls have their dad and a healthy dad at that! Are there better supports out where u are also?
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Hello friends. Checking in on day 406. A bit sore from a bike ride yesterday, but feeling good today. I really enjoy quiet coffee on summer mornings. Without the spectre of alcohol haunting me. I hope everyone is ok today. @Alycia I am so sorry for your loss. What a terrible tragedy.
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Congrats on day 13! And your are 100 Percent correct when you say…
I eat crazy healthy 90 percent of the time, but the first time I made it on my long stretch of no alcohol I just had to let go. I snacked when I wanted and I ate when I wanted and honestly I might have gained a few pounds but I lost it all and it balanced out because of the calories I was saving on alcohol anyway. I mean I still try to make slightly healthier versions of the food I was craving but the effort I put in was in not drinking and not worrying about food for that time. My sleep also balanced out, although I truly felt exhausted for a while. It takes time to adjust but keep doing what you’re doing. Keep doing that self talk.
Be kind to yourself and know that you are on the right path. 
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Good morning everyone,
I don’t remember when or how I began to slip. After my last long last sober stretch, it’s seems it was a slow and gradual process until I completely wear off the deep end. My weekend away I drank A LOT and then came home and couldn’t stop. That seemed to happen so fast and after feeling anxious and sick at night and hungover in the morning I would swear I wouldn’t drink the next night. Coffee and water helped me feel better, but then afternoon would come and I would get a splitting headache and feel nauseous and all I could think about was having a drink to make me feel better. This is a twisted merry go round. Thank you @Its_me_Stella for being there for me and helping me get off this ride. I know there’s more work to come but after making it through last night when I was so close to having a drink I know I can do this again. One craving at a time. This is what I want. I know I’m better sober. I’m going to have to start joining meetings. You guys are all helped so much but summer is one of the hardest times and I’m going to have to work harder at this. I have a rehearsal dinner and a wedding coming up the first week of August and I am absolutely 100% excited to be taking part sober.
Thank you all for listening.
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Day 770 clean and sober. Hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys! 
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Oh Emma 
Welcome back.
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Good morning guys,
Things on my end are going good. Taking it one day at a time with my journey and with life currently. My son started 15cenera practice. I felt so much joy. Seeing him dance his little butt off. In my eyes he is till that little 3 year old that was so full of energy. He still has that energy even at 15 
. 3 more years and he will be considered legally an adult. IMO they need to move that age up. I am enjoying every moment I get to spend with him. Sometimes he already acts as if he were a mini adult 
. Good kid thus far though so I’m happy about that. Can’t wait for the 15cenera too. Now for recovery related I don’t think about alcohol as much as I use to. I’ll be teaching 40 days tomorrow and I am so thrilled. Looking back when I started I didn’t think I could do so many days but I also new I was committed. Commitment is a powerful conviction to have. I have been hitting the gym a lot lire than I use to. Been consistent with my walks during lunch. Sticking to a sleep schedule. Having more energy to do my house chores. I have a lot of clothes as I am sure my counter females on here might too. I need to do a closet clean up . (Possible trigger warning) I have a shopping addiction so I fill up my closet with way too much clothes. This doesn’t hurt anyone though except my SO when his clothes doesn’t fit in the closet 
. Overall I been feeling good and just taking life slowly. I like that being sober is been a key factor to taking my grandmas situation a lot better.
Thanks for reading guys.
ODAAT 
@Wakikki Glad you are feeling better. As you said you are better prepare for next time and will look closely at the label.
@Beth2 on a sobriety podcast I heard they did talk about taking too many things on at a time. They discussed how sobriety becomes a full time job and that’s ok this is what we want. Be gracious to yourself. Not everything needs to be perfect right now. You got 13 days and that’s amazing. In the beginning I was craving sweets a lot and I am. I am not one for sweets. I bought a bag of kisses chocolates and starburst. I knew sugar wasn’t good for me but if it was helping me cope for that time being I had them. After 2 maybe 3 weeks I was able to not crave alcohol as much and now I don’t have sweets. The motivation will also come do not worry.
@BrianP Im sorry for your loss. Just like you things like what have happened to us lately would’ve made us drink but here we are still sober. Hands 
for us.
@GOKU2019 happy birthday to the wife! Aren’t quincenera so much fun. I love them.
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**Day 3 **
We’ll day 3 no urges just overwhelming feeling of guilt and frustration. Good news is that S/O and I our committed to each other again and that’s a big boost of motivation and support. Going to enjoy the water park with friends this weekend!
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Happy to hear about the renewed commitment btwn u and ur s/o this is always wonderful news and great motivation also!
I appreciate your words of motivation ! Hopefully everything is well on your end! We got this !
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It is overall! Thank u for asking just walking with purpose in recovery 
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Thanks! Hope ur day has been amazing also!
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You’re sweet Dana thank you so much!
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Checking in, day 103 sober. Such a stressful evening as the parakeets keep flying into our building. Three tonight… Only 33% survived the event. The cats downstairs then go mental and start running around to grab the birds while my neighbors are running after the cats and the birds trying to release them. They are stunning birds, and fly past in their hundreds which is simply magical around sunset. However, night after night, they fly into the building and you just hear the noise and see the Benny hill sketch ensue. My two cats are on the balcony chattering away trying to get involved. 
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