Hope everyone is doing good I’m living life and feeling awesome trying to build a network and get a sponsor clean since March 9th and I feel amazing the sky is the limit one day at a time on to the top of the mountain 
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Thank you!
Being there and being present is the best thing we can give our children. They will never forget it!
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I read that the more we say no to an urge, that they lessen over time. We have to re teach our brain not to get rewarded when we act on an urge. That we need to sit with the urge and be present. Figure out what thoughts, circumstances or feelings that are triggering the urge. Learn new coping mechanisms to deal with the trigger and change our thoughts about the circumstance. This is what I have been trying to practice.
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This is it!! This is exactly what I did too. Very much on retraining the brain 
u know what’s interesting… and ur post just made me think of it… is when u said:
I actually found that overtime, my brain gets rewarded the satisfaction of not using. There was such excitement and pride for me in being able to not use. Theres almost a natural high to staying clean and sober. At 1st it was tough to really retrain the brain to not getting what it wants (alcohol/drugs). But then at some point I got a natural rush over not using and experiencing life for what it is. I absolutely think ur on the right track
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Hi Everyone, I’m checking in on day 42. Works been super busy and my down time I’m glueing tiny rocks to a sticky board, can’t stop 
. I’m on my 2nd one.
I’m so behind here, but I haven’t even seriously thought of drinking. I’m over 200 behind on meme wars and on the check in site, I can’t keep up. I got overwhelmed trying.
Going to try to get a couple things done today, but honestly, if I take a shower, I will be calling it a win 
. I’m thinking of all of you and hope you have an amazing day/evening/night! 
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Had to start my pmo clock over 
so…. Day 0
Day 142 clean of self harm! Still going strong on that route!
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This is for all my friends in the community that helped me get to 42, wouldn’t have happened without you! And for everyone that had I milestone that I missed.
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Try not to beat urself up girl… today is a new day! Keep working at it! Hugs!
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You are too cute Maxine! Happy to see those days increase for u!
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Don’t get discouraged it happens focus on the good and move past it you got this!!!
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If you don’t mind me asking, do you have a partner? I’m wondering on the dynamic of that you see. I had a mild PMO addiction when early teens that lasted a long time even when I was having sex with people. But it changed over time for me. I didn’t even see it as a PMO until now tbh… Just assumed I was really exploring everything there was on offer. Hope you don’t think I’m being nosy, just tell me to piss off if so 
Checking in
Day 159
Today has been abit triggering at work. My client that I am with today has addiction issues and she awoled and came back not in a good state. Once again taking everything out of the fridge to try and sit herself inside of it. This in itself isn’t really the trigger. But she engages in prostitution which is a very triggering area for me (as I haven’t dealt with my own stuff in my past life of prostitution). She is talking alot about it and about very abusive stuff that has happened to her. I tried to help in general terms but then had to kindly and gently suggest chatting with my coworker. No one here knows about my history of drug use or prostitution so I don’t want to be open about that with my coworker. Everything ended up fine and my client got the support she needed. But I felt crappy bcuz it made me realize that I havent truly dealt with the things that happened from all those years of the sex trade. Something that I may need to look into I guess. This day will get better. Just need to stay present
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Sounds like the perfect day friend.
Checking in on day 104
So I got a package through a parcel service today of all my grandparents and great grandparents stuff that my nan had left me in a box that said my name on. It has lots of precious documents that are over a hundred years old, hundreds of really beautiful photos and old war stuff from Korea and the Vietnam war. It’s everything I ever wanted from the only nurturing true relationship I ever had during childhood.
No note, no nothing. Just stuffed in a plastic bag to me.
My estranged family sent it and now I’m so fucked up mentally. Happy to have it, it’s literally priceless to me, but it also feels really weird and final and uncaring and cold.
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Good morning,
I am sitting in my living room. Kids still asleep. Had some decaf coffee (can’t do the real thing I detoxed from it prior to quitting alcohol). I assumed coffee was triggering my anxiety. Something I well knew was being caused by alcohol but was not ready to give it up although in a way I was. Getting my mind ready to take a run. I’ll be running to the gym. Getting in an arm workout, sauna, massage and running back home. I assume I will be out of the house all morning doing self care 
. Hope everyone has a good one as we all Strive to stay sober 
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@GOKU2019 same for me. At the age of 15 I was already drinking. Thursday I realize how my baby is handling life better than I did at his age. He is a clean little dude so far. He loves sports and understands that drugs and alcohol are damaging to an athlete. He’s about to be a freshman and I’m happy he’s in a good path at the moment. Hoping that having parents who are clean and sober help him make good decisions about alcohol mainly. He is predisposed to addiction having two parents whom have had alcohol and drug addiction. I can only pray and be an example. My kids are a big part of my decision to quite. Hope you and the wife have an amazing time.
@Alicat22 hope your husband feels better soon. Congrats on your milestone and anniversary.
@Beth2 little by little. As you said in your other post it’s all about retraining the mind. This is very true. We are rewiring our brains and we ridding of the damage alcohol did to it. You are doing amazing. Keep sharing with us.
@BrianP congrats on 90 days!!! Way to go!! I agree having mental milestones helps greatly. Keep up the good fight.
@Hayleylujah so glad you are doing better.
@maxwell giod to hear from you. See you seeing here when life calms down a little on your side. We miss ya.
@802 wow!!! Big congrats on one year!! That’s amazing.
@Butterflymoonwoman glad you were able to work through that. Hope that you can heal that part of your life. When you are ready I am sure you will be able to heal that part of you too. Keep going in your journey. I alway love how honest your shares are.
@Mindymoo I hope you enjoy your time. Don’t forget about us. Let us know how you fill your time. I too have lost 6lbs. So we are weight loss twins at the moment. I want to up my cardio but I love my bed. Can’t seem to get myself out of it early enough in the morning for some movement 
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Thank you all who’ve shared so far. Thank you for reading my share. Let’s make it a good one guys.
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I have a ldr…
I didn’t see it as a problem either honestly. I dont want to get into too much detail publicly. But its a problem
Awe thank u for the compliment. Its funny bcuz recovery has such an interesting way of showing me what I need to work on lol its like peeling layers of a onion lol. Anyway ur post is sooo making me want to exercise lol yesterdays workout was rough. I went but it wasn’t an intense as I like. I’m also a morning exerciser lol hope u have a lovely day!
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Thanks, it’s from my mom I believe. She’s the one who’s the alcoholic.
Totally get what you are saying though, that’s my experience of male family too… Head in hand emoji.
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Ok no worries. Wishing you all the best of luck!
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