Congratulations on your 4 years Eke
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Thank you Eric!
You know Iām a health nut and wouldnāt get anywhere near a cake. 
I substituted with a mango smoothie.
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Clever girl.
I forgot. Weāll save that one for me come January. Deal?
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You got it! Enjoy for me too!
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Day 179 AF
I need to be honest with myself, Iām free of alcohol but still deal with many faults/flaws/ other addictions. I work too hard just to distract myself. Iām either exercising or behind my computer. Not really living(addictionfree). Im putting way too high standards continuously striving to be better than others. Just because I internalized the thought Iām less than them.
Hope I can work on some of these points. Now I got the negatives out, Iām still glad I stopped drinking. Iād be way worse if I didnāt.
The company I work at is moving and really wants me to move with them. I had a job interview today aswel. I havenāt thought about anything else the last couple days. I just donāt know what job to go for. Guess Iāll just need to sleep on it. Good night everyone 
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120 days 
Grateful to be sober. Struggling with a lot of things, but Iām proud of my sobriety so thatās one thing I guess.
Have a wonderful day everyone x
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Hello strangers. I am back on Day 1 from a pretty significant relapse. Life is pretty bad right now, overall. Financially, things are devastating and I crawled into a dark hole to hide. I have a new position coming up, so somehow I have to hang on for one more month until those paychecks start coming in.
I woke up this morning knowing that I canāt make it while drinking and poured out the beer.
I have thrown away A LOT of beer over the years. Here I am, not really wanting to quit but knowing that I canāt dig out of the mess I am in if I keep numbing it away.
I never stopped going to meetings. If it doesnāt stick this time, I am going to rehab. Though, I have so many 30-60 periods and thousands of meetings, so I am not certain thatās the answer. The fear of following through on that commitment will have to be enough. I donāt want to know what rock bottom looks like if I keep digging. It probably means death.
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Hey @EarnIt sounds like you are sick and tired. What can you do differently this time and hopefully make it stick?
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For me, itās all about complacency. I have a long way to go before I can miss one meeting, one day of checking in, one day of journaling. When one thing falls away, the others shortly follow and before you know it: Beer in hand. I have done all the things but this time, my mental state is far lower than ever before. I know I will die or become homeless and destitute if I give an inch. I had no intention of quitting today until I woke up this morning.
I have been messing around with this for a long, long, time. I gain nothing from drinking and gain so much from not.
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Sounds like you have the willingness. Remember how shitty you feel now because in a few days your alcoholic mind will try tricking you! Keep checking in!
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Currently feeling manic. Its all fun and games until the racing thoughts inspire anxiety. Im bipolar type 2 ā the depressive kind. I cycle into hypomania every few months. This is the first time ive been manic since getting sober. New learning experience. I hope i can sleep tonight 
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Day 3. Went to a meeting yesterday for the first time in a v long time. I was called on to speak. I briefly did but could barely get through it b/c of the tears.
Left the meeting in tears but do feel better.
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@SadMemeQueen Definitely try to work on it. A therapist is only effective if you follow their suggestions.
@Eke Congratulations 
What a massive achievement.
@Lovelyoutlook That is hard. Your grandmother sounds wonderful. I know you will be sober to support her.
@Mindymoo I found out a few weeks ago a classmate was murdered. Like you, I didnāt keep in great touch, FB birthday wishes, etc, but so shocking and makes you think about your own life.
@Twizzlers Congratulations You should be proud.
@anon3131847 Sounds like you are learning and growing lots! And so close to quadruple digits for gaming!
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Nice!!!
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So good to hear from you Cam.
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Thanks I will
Had a great day. Went to a river with a friend and opened up to her about not drinking more than before. Turns out she too struggles a bit and tries to find more sober activities to do. Weāve been friends for a while and itās come up a bit before but I feel like I shared more today, so its really helping me stay focused. Came home to my husband having already had a coupleā¦ Makes it harder but Iāll be ok. Her husband also still drinks. I think her and I should hang out more!
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Day 148 of no self harm
Doing okish today. I was supposed to get an email from work to start my training but I havenāt received anything. I text both my managers but they are known for ignoring people and have even admitted to ignoring me before. I donāt think itās me missing the email though because Iāve gotten emails the first 2 days just fine. The first 2 days are equipment setup so Iām wondering if they just needed an extra day to setup. If I havenāt heard back after lunch tomorrow Iām just gonna start calling them.
I only ate some tator tots today. I need to dedicate myself to forcing myself to eat whether Iām hungry or not
Something positive: Currently playing Xbox with my friend, having a good time.
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@EarnIt It only has to stick one time. This time could be it. Make this time be it. 
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