Checking in Day 1158 sober
Haven’t been checking in lately but have been reading and active on the forum still. Busy with my kiddos and packing for our move (a massive 752 metres down the road 
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Day 19. I commit to my promise to myself and my family to not drink today. I’m greatful for all that I have.
Low energy but I’ll get through it. ODAAT.
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Thank you everyone for the congratulations, means so much to me.
@BrianP Thank you too, how have things been for you? Hows your ankle healing,?
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Hello friends. Today is day 411 (edit: 412 ). Having coffee and watching the sunrise. I’ve said it before, but quiet, hangover free mornings are absolutely jewels of sobriety for me.
I have a doctor’s appointment later this morning, then off to work. Hope to stay dry on the bike, as rain is forecast today.
Congratulations @Twizzlers on 300 days and @Eke on four years! Amazing! Have a lovely day, friends.
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Day 9
Day 9 of being better. No urges to drink or anything like that, loosing quite a bit of weight due to all this relationship stuff and been hitting the gym pretty hard, she went on another date last night while I was on the couch, came back and acted like she did nothing wrong, all this shits crazy to me I just gotta focus on that she’s carrying my child and I’m one more day sober and one more day closer to seeing my baby. Anyways Here’s to day 9 of a better me.
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Hell yeah good job on keeping with it
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Thank you, you too your staying strong, have you tried any online meetings? If things get tough it can be really powerful to just sit and listen to others experiences.
Hey all, checking in on day 774. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Hi, I’m sorry I disappeared. I relapsed for 3 days and back on Day 1. I had a revelation of what I was confusing with being sober. Anyway, I wanted to reach out to you 1st because of those 6 bottles in your basement. Do you have someone to give them to? I understand not wanting to dump them, that’s why I went 3 days, I hate wasting anything even if it is bad for me. I wanted to let you know I’m thinking of you. Even though we’re no longer sober twins, we’re sober friends. 
You’re going back to Switzerland Sat. Reach out here if they start talking to you, and tell them to shut the F up. They’re no good. 
I’m off to work. 
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Day 776 clean and sober. I hope everyone has a beautiful day today, love you guys!!! 
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Hi Everyone, I missed you! I will write more later after my work day. Love to all. 
@Lovelyoutlook I’m sorry about your Grandma’s test results, I’m sending hugs your way 
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for you and your family.
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I should be able to find someone to whom I could give those 6 bottles of wine. They have apparently been down there for a number of years, so maybe they are actually pretty good… I don’t know, and I don’t want to find out.
I would be lying if I said that I hadn’t thought about it, but I won’t be going any further than that.
Don’t be too hard on yourself about resetting… When I fell off the wagon after being on it for 9 months, I foolishly laid there and waited until both the wagon and the horse went back and forth over me two or three times! Now I’m trying to stay out of the damn thing’s way!
That being said, I’m glad that you’re back. You got well over 40 days, that’s a great achievement. Forgive me if I’m mistaken, but I seem to recall that you had said that previously, you had not managed more than a month… So now you have! A new “personal best”.
And I suspect that your next “personal best” is right around the corner.
Have a nice day at work… I’m working away on one of my tasks as well. Very exciting stuff.
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Maxine, I’m so happy you are back. You now have the opportunity to turn those three days into the most powerful days of your life. As you reflect on them try to figure out what triggered you into the relapse. Strengthen yourself against that weakness so next time you can slap it down. What did those three days do for you? Did they make life easier or better? Did they make any of your problems vanish permanently? Did they make you feel better about yourself? Journal about it. Get deep into yourself. Those three days have the ability to give you some powerful truths about recovery. Don’t bother wallowing in shame over it. Instead hold your head high and be proud that you came back. Be proud that today you can find the lesson in relapse that can make your recovery stronger than ever. I’m so grateful for your honesty and strength to come back and share with us. Welcome back home, luv.
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No I don’t really know where all the online meetings and stuff are but I go to a meeting with my buddy every Sunday
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Morning all checking in on day 3 had a little slip up. Gonna keep trying
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I am so happy to see you back and posting Maxine!! How are you doing? I’m happy that you didn’t take long to come back 
hugs lady
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Back on track. Checking in day 4
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Day 145
I got the lease. My roommates are welcoming. I am paying less rent than I was. I have therapy again this week. Things might be…ok.
please, dont let me fuck this up. Life could be peaceful in this new room. I could have a car and do better art. Paper, not canvas now. Going to get rid of a lot of things. Only bringing things I use to this room.
So grateful for my mom. Grateful for this turn of luck. My cats. I need to look at my internet addiction head on if I am to survive this. But it feels possible now that i have a Place. Quiet, with my own bathroom and a big desk.
I will have a busy weekend. My car and current room smell bad and I need to clean them. I need to donate to thrift store, and pick up things to make this new room feel like home. Im going to get a nice soap dispenser and a new loofah. Maybe a rug if I can find one.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Thanks for reading. One foot in front of the other. One day at a time.
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Hands Charlie a raincoat so all those annoying moments can slip right off. . Hope your day gets better.
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Day 10064
Spent my usual time sitting outside watching the world around me wake up. A cute baby gecko kept trying to steal my coffee cup lol. Five years in Florida and I still feel blessed to see the variety of wildlife and bright blue skies. I moved from Central California where it was a dust bowl with yellow skies.
Today is my cat scan of my lungs. Somehow I have managed to stay serene about it. I’m pretty old and tired so that might be part of it along with the feeling of it is what it is. No sense in working myself up over something I have no control over. I have a letter from the VA arriving today. Perhaps it’s the results of my brain scan last week. Not concerned over it at all. I know I’m okay there.
I will admit that I have had thoughts of suing the VA if I do have cancer and it turns out to be terminal. Months and months ago I showed my doctor swelling in my armpit on the side where my nodule is. He gave me antibiotics and said it was an infection from a bronchitis attack. The swelling didn’t go down so he decided it was scar tissue in my lymph nodes. Never even suggested anything else. I still have the swelling. Ah well, just need to get through today and get the results. Need to stop with the “what ifs” lol.
Daughter always fixes birthday people what they want for birthday dinners. I decided on BLTs. Something easy so she doesn’t slave over the stove all day and I absolutely love them. And chocolate cake! Six days away and I’m drooling lmao.
I’m feeling so peaceful right now. I’m blessed. I hope all of you can find that moment of inner peace today.
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