Dang. Holy sh**. Stay safe out there!
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Day 153 of no self harm
I donāt have much to say I just wanted to let you all know Iām doing okay right now. I didnāt sleep much last night so Iām heading to bed now but I didnāt want to skip a check in after everything I mentioned yesterday. Thank you all so much for the support, Iāll update tomorrow
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Donāt think Iāve ever seen something like that. Hope you are doing okay.
Here you go Brian!! 
Triple digits!
100 days!! 
Congratulations!!
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That looks scary! 
Hope you granddaughter is home safe and soon!
The climate these days is worrying me. Overhere itās hot and dry. No rain at all, nature is drying out 
#Day 1413 
Have to begin early at work. Have to count our store stock today. We do so 2 times a year, not my favorite task 
Planned a walk and the hairdresser afterwards.
Another ordinary sober day from this ordinary sober chick 
Are you a member from the sober chick club as well? 
Itās a fancy club! Proud to be in it!
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Thats some lightening! Hope the storm has passed by now and you granddaughter made it home safe and sound.
Thanks @Liljelly . Once I have put some more coping strategies in place I need to work out what those goals are. Not using Porn is one but after some reflection I need to set some tangible aims for myself as I have been feeling a bit adrift lately. If I donāt know what I am working towards how can I determine if I succeed or fail?
Thanks for checking in @SoberGuyUSA. The rest of the day after my lapse improved steadily. I put some of the coping strategies into place. I had forgotten how important cold showers are to my mental health so it was lovely to do that again. The webinar I watched as well was really important. Iāve woken up this morning feeling more positive.
An incredible achievement Brian, congratulations! Incredibly well deserved.
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Good morning everyone. Thank you @Dazercat @Dolse71 @maxwell for all your good wishes and everyone for their 
. Well done @BrianP 100 thatās fantastic mate @SassyBoomer hope all is ok after the storm and everyone is safe and sound. @SoberWalker Iām loving your mug.
Itās a damp and miserable morning here but im grabbing the day by its cahonies and going to see what I can do with it.
Have a great day everyone. 
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This post. Brought such a big smile to my face. Thanks Dana for sharing so candidly with us! Much love! 
@anon53116147 Mike youāre right behind Dana today on making me smile big time. You go boy! Youāre in a real good place. Tank up, fill yourself with yourself. Youāll be ok if you just put one foot in front of the other now. Much love to you too!
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Day 315 checking in another day another dollar 
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Great to hear that it is going so well. 
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8 days checking in. The clinic just called me to inform me that I can come in at 17 oktober for 2 times a week evening sessions. I could come immediately for 3 day sessions a week but I canāt do that because of my work.
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Coffee. One more late shift before my weekend arrives. A bit tired here but feeling OK. Considering if Iāll commute on my bike again. It might be a bit too warm for that. It is such a nice thing to do though, especially after work, to have this body work out and 90 minutes to be with myself and process the (work) day. One pedal stroke at a time.
Seeing things more positive today. Luna ate all her food. The sun is shining. Iām alive, Iām making progress, Iām sober and clean. One day at a time and together with all of you. Letās make the best we can of today friends. Love from yesterdayās commute.
@DB_5197 Hope youāre OK Daniel. Emotions arenāt bad. Crying isnāt bad. Stuff needs to be processed. It takes time, it takes effort and it might hurt. It will hurt at times. We need to heal. We need to recover. Glad youāre here. Together we can do this. Virtual hugs.
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Day 94.
First night last night back in my own bed last night, and I slept like a log.
My parents had come down for my neighbourās funeral yesterday and had both been pretty drunk Sunday night. They had originally planned on staying a second night so that they could have a drink at the wake, but my dad decided to stick to soft drinks so that they could drive back home after. Iām so glad they changed their mind about that as I had been getting pretty annoyed with the way they were behaving.
Anyway, I have my home back, alcohol free, just me and the kids, and it feels really good. I have a gig booked for the 20th of this month which Iāve already asked if my parents will come to look after the kids, but Iām now looking to see if I can make other arrangements now as Iāve come to the realisation that having them in my home (their former home) is too much of a stress for me. They canāt or wonāt take a day without alcohol.
For my own part, Iām grateful to realise that I donāt seem to be experiencing any cravings or urges to drink myself. I occasionally get the notion, but itās very much just a habit of thinking rather than a feeling. For example, if I think I have some child free time coming up I think about what I could do with myself and having a drink pops into my mind, but then I think of something Iād rather be doing, like going to an art exhibition, and itās over just like that.
I also notice that when things donāt go smoothly I donāt panic anymore. I spilled my freshly made coffee all over myself first thing today, but I just cleaned it up, found the funny side of it and then made another cup. I wonder if the Buddhist literature Iāve been reading has been seeping into my subconscious 
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Consider it one of the super achievements in your life! I am super proud of you. Youāve done wonderful meeting your challenges and not letting them take you down. Congratulations. One day at a time I hope that your anxiety will get better, these things do take time. Iām real happy for you with how well your ankle has done. I think youāre doing great. Enjoy your 100th day, itās special. It would be nice if you commemorate it in someway that you could remember. Once upon a time when I stopped an addiction, on the 100th day I went out and flew a kite. Freedom.
It was standard operating procedure with the people that I quit with. I remember it, I have pictures of it. There was a real sense of liberation from the addiction. Flying the kite. You will probably walk six or 10 miles. Congrats on that!
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