Nice!! 
Well done!! 
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Day 319 checking in 
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#Day 1417 
Dreamed about stealing a bottle of wine somewhere. But when I had it in my hands it was like: do I really need that?
No.
And I put it back where I found it.
Not a complete relapse drink, but definitely a dream wich suits my physical state right now: very tired! šµāš«
But I have 3 days off now, time to balance out 
Itās good to have learned trough the years that I do have influence on my state of mind and body.
Ofcourse not all, but a bit at least!
Have a good day people from all over this globe
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What has helped me in recovery is to realise and accept that phases where Iām not doing my best are part of it. Thatās why itās called Best. Itās not the biggest part, itās the pinnacle of what we can do. I have realised that when I do a bit less for a while, I can get by. The Best is carrying me. I donāt immediately fall into a hole. I have some reserves. Like with the weightlifting. I lift almost every day. Then when Iām deep in the depression I might not be able for two weeks or three or a month. I hate that. And thatās ok. I have reserves. I come back to it. This kinda thinking has helped me take the pressure of. I have integrated the phases where I can live in the Less that I do because Iām running on the Best I did before, until Iām able to do more again. Thatās how it works for me. I like doing more, I feel better when I do. But when I canāt, thatās ok. Iām still safe. Iām just living off my reserves a bit more.
You are still sober, you are still working on yourself. you are also living off the reserves of goodness you built up in your more energetic times. Thatās how I see it, an ebb and flow.
Iāll be glad when you are able to do more again. 
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Day 10 
PlayStation day today me finks to pass the time so bored when not drinking waiting for another contrast ct on pancreas to see if any more damage done the pain is unbearable 
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This is awesome!!! Well done, keep it up, it keeps getting better 
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Good morning everyone from a sunny north east of england. Day 12 and feeling bloody marvelous. I have a party to attend this afternoon which Iām looking forward to because I know that come 7pm I will be on Day 13 alcohol free. I hope you all have the best weekend you can. 
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In case anyone is curious, hereās my house for sale in Northern Italyā¦
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Day 725
Did a bit of work today, and then got dragged into a waterfight with the kids. Kept trying to walk the line of not squashing their fun, but not causing trouble to the neighbours with noise and splashing, and Japanese gardens are TINY so that was pretty tricky. Actually our garden is pretty decent for being in a town, a whole two or three metres L shape around the house. Most houses only have a place to park and no grass.
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Hey all, checking in on day 783. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 785 clean and sober. Worked late last night and am up early for work this morning. Iām freaking exhaustedā¦ I hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys!!! 
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Checking in clean and sober on day 421. Up early this morning as my partner has to be at work at 5:30 am and makes a bit of a commotion on her way out. Thatās fine; now I can also get some work done on the sofa with fresh coffee before the kiddos are up terrorizing the house. Wishing everyone a peaceful weekend!
@Misokatsu haha my kids are waterfight fanatics too. BTW I keep not recognizing you with your new avatar! 
@Daishippai well that is a lovely house! I would imagine you should not have much trouble selling itā¦ in fact, if I only had 180k Euros lying aroundā¦ 
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Hey all checking in day 12 Have a good day and be safe.
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Morning Check In
Day 173
Feeling positive this morning but very reflective. Woke up feeling more refreshed than I have been lately. On my way to work now at a different house with 2 other clients (will be there for the next couple of months so I am happy). Iām feeling very empowered today. I truly canāt believe Iām where I am today. Even though I struggle with certain aspects of my life (weight loss, food, financial stuff), I am so fucking grateful that I DONT have the problems I used to have. I am safe today. I am not risk of overdose or being killed or going missing. Iām not around violence. Iām not hungry. I have a safe place to live. Iām not stealing. Iām not having to survive each day by turning tricks. Like why do I complain about the things in my life today? In the grand scheme of things, I am okay today. Everything is in my mindset. I get down sometimes for sure but I love that I never stay down long. Being clean and sober is amazing. And I WILL get to where I want to be. Iām only as strong as my excuses in my opinion. Iām done having them. Love to all! Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
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Day 721 
Have a nice weekend everybody 
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I like ur approach to this and I really appreciate that u mentioned it. It just seems like a much more gentler approach than me beating myself up over not doing something. I am human and not a robot on a timer haha like me being rigid and set to a schedule causes just as much problems as it does help me. I think itās my way of having control in my life. My schedule is very predictable and I know what to expect. But life isnāt set in stone and when I donāt meet my expectations, I of course get disappointed. Thank u for ur comment 
I think it will help!
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Give it some thought !!!
It comes with fridge / stove / dishwasher / washing machine / dryer, and any other furniture / stuff is negotiableā¦
But then, I recognise that moving to Italy might not be convenientā¦
Still, thanks for the positive wishes !
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