Love the tattoo!!! Great choice 
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Thank you!
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Thank you Dana!! Definitely gonna listen to myself and what I need which is to relax and chill and take my time doing the step. It isnāt a raceā¦ so
Yeah . I am just gonna keep working my program. Good insight though !!!
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Evening Check in
Day 173
My night has been a bit better. I did some self reflecting about what happened earlier and just refocused on where I am today. I figure that the past is in the past and I canāt change it nor would I truly want to. It has made me the person I love today. And u knowā¦ if I have 1 foot in the past and 1 foot in the future, Iām basically pissing all over today haha so itās important for me to stay present and to ground and re-centre and be mindful during moments like these. I thought about having the support group @DLS and checked out that website (it looked good) to address this issue but Iām not feeling good about me doing online mtgs right now. I feel like it might be super triggering honestly and I have to remember that not everyone who attends is āhealthyā. Just like recovery, thereās people of all stages of healing. And we are all at diff degress of āhealthyā. It may be a bit much to hear others stories and trauma. Idk. Iām not closing the door on it but idk if Iām ready for it. I did think tho of writing a letter to myself about my past and then doing a Letting Go Ceremony with sage, prayer, and fire. I want to let that part of me go but Iām scared to at the same time. And Idk if itās bcuz I held onto a ālabelā for soo long. Idk. I obviously donāt associate with the label of a sex trade worker anymore but at one point in my life I literally thot that was all I was put here on earth for. But I have to try and write this letter out and then burn it and see what happens. If it wasnāt bothering me, I wouldnt be talking about it lol so this week I will journal. Just about to relax and do some self care. Have work again tmrw. Hugs to everyone on here!
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That sounds like a great idea. I think once you send it on itās way you can move forward and let it go. 
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Had the night shift tonight at the pet Paradise and things went pretty good . My favorite dog Annie was not there . She must have went home to her family . But I know she will be back probably monday . Been struggling with holding a job in sobriety and dealing with anxiety at work and learning tools to help me get through my shifts . Learning to communicate to the people around me at work and being honest about my recovery being number 1. Iām trying to not worry about the future and trust God will show me the way . Off the next 2 days and Iām going to try to stay busy . Grateful to be feeling again even when it hurts . And often reminding myself to give this thing some time. Slowly but surely Iām seeing small progress. And I feel Iām recovering. Iām not as scared to look back and the future seems possible if I stay in today . Iām going to read around here and listen to music the rest of the night . Pray. Do a journal entry. Breathe and trust this process . God bless
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Ur doing all the right things. Honestly I see such an improvement in u and ur life! I often use the saying āODAATā for many aspects of my life, not just recovery. Odaat for my health or work or anything really. This is probably all very new to u, and change can be scary. But ur doing it! Before u know it, all of these positive things will feel 2nd nature to u! Keep up the great work 
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322 days for me. Looking forward to hitting my first sober year mark!
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Itās very new . It really comes down to the fact that I have never lived as a adult and have always been drinking or doing drugs . The biggest challenge has been feeling again. But Iām learning to trust the process. When I wanna run away or give up now I think about that AA saying donāt Leave before the miracle happens ā¦ cause itās true. I have to give this thing some time .
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Day 18. Checking in.
Words of strength 
please.
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Coffee. Working Sunday. Iām good. Luna seems OK ATM. Iām in a bit of a hurry. Iām sober and clean, the first requisite for a better life for all of us. It all starts with that. No recovery without it. One day at a time.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from Luna and me.
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Good morning everyone, I hope that you are all well today.
Not much on the agenda today, just driving home to Italy through the Alps a little later on this morning.
Weāve had some rain and so the heat has moderated, which is a damn good thing.
Other than thatā¦ Iāve recently found out that EVs from other makes can now use Tesla chargersā¦ Iām hoping to try it out today, it should workā¦ according to Tesla !
Anyway, have a good day, everyone.
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@Misokatsu
Hi. Have you heard anything about when they might start letting individual tourists go back to Japan ?
I really would like toā¦
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Day 5 - Morning all, I was going to do a check in last night but I was really tired. Its my weekend with my son and we drove up to see my parents. Itās been lovely but busy. Where I am living at the moment the other tenant and the owner sometimes work nights so itās not fair on them if I have me and the boy around when they are trying to sleep. Plus itās great to get to spend more time with my parents.
No addictive moments in the last 24 hours. Just very tired as my boy is a very early riser. 5am today! So it may well be a long day this weekend. Especially as we arenāt driving back until this evening.
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Congratulations on each day you are sober! ODAAT! Wishing you success and strength for each day!
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You are doing great! Almost 3 weeks down! Recovery isnāt easy but itās worth the work! 
A little step every day getās you where you wanna be!
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Good morning everyone. 2 months without a cigarette. I am so happy I do not smoke anymore.
Day 13 without drink. I went to a birthday party yesterday and feel so proud of myself for not drinking.
Itās a natural high Iām on at the moment I had tea coffee and lots of different alcohol free cocktails some delicious some not so good.
No hangover this morning. I used to say I never got hangovers I d say Iām ok just a bit tired. What an idiot I was.
Iām taking the dogs for a walk very shortly, itās another really lovely morning in north yorkshire wishing you all a truly wonderful day.
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Day 294 AF
Late night check in.
Howās it going, fam?
Woke up at 6am and went for a walk before work. Work was pretty chill. Took my kid to the park right after. Been busy all day. Ima jump on some cardio tonight. Gotta keep the body moving.
Have a great sober day! ODAAT.
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Checking in day 102. Went Dino hunting on the trails with my son to start the day. Played in the pool and went to the park. Got a nap in and then got absolutely slammed (busy with customers) at work. Just got home gonna watch some star wars series and have a pint of ice cream. Perhaps I will cut the junk food out this coming week, but at least Iām not drinking for today. Have a good one folks!
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#Day 1418 
Had a chill day yesterday. Walked with family at the blooming heather, it was beautiful 
Went eating out in the evening with my hubby. It was a late mother and fathersday present.
But is was a deception. We sat outside but it went cold and there was no table to go to inside. Nothing to choose from as vegetarian and no option at all for a vegan. We had to wait for 1 houre before we got our starter and another houre for our mainmeal. As a starter I got some bread because thatās all there was for me because I do not eat meat/fish. My mainmeal was a pasta and they fucked that up completely 
So I did not eat that. We left the restaurant to warm up at home. It was sad because our children paid for it. We shaired our critics with the restaurant when we left, but we didnāt tell all to our kids 
20 years ago we went to the theater. We saw a very bad performance but sat it out. After that we promished ourselves we would never do that again. You only live onces. If something is really bad, you can leave! Itās a choice.
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