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Coffee. One late shift to go before my weekend. Yesterday might have been the busiest work day in the last decade or so. Came home, had a two hour nap, had a meal, went back to bed, listening to a podcast and a half, and went to sleep.
Feeling good this morning though. Late shifts are less intense usually. And I can handle it. I’m sober and clean. I’m in recovery. Learning something each and every day. About myself and about the people and the world around me. One day at a time.
Have a good day all, or at least as good as you can. Make it clean and sober because without that nothing will come of it and of us. Love from Amsterdam.
I will be so glad when this breathing mask can be removed and the oxygen doesn’t have to be carried around like a backpack.
The looks you get when people don’t know are quite extraordinary. Someone told me I look like Hannibal Lechter from Silence of the Lambs with it all on. But it stops my airway from collapsing so I honestly don’t care if I look like Hannibal Lechter or the creature from the blue lagoon.
The only thing I wish I could change is the impact it has on my younger children when they see people staring and passing comment. It upsets them and they shouldn’t feel that they have to protect or defend me.
Anyway, people will talk, the mask is temporary until they know if I need another lot of surgery or if this one has worked.
I’m here, I’m sober and I’m going to make a difference today.
Will keep bobbing on, I’m here if you need anything.
I’m doing fine now. Basically my airway collapsed, my nasal passages and windpipe constricted to a point where they were almost fully closed and I couldn’t breathe so needed emergency surgery to reconstruct it all.
Ok everyone i decided to go for a walk to the shops… im not better.
I actually feel worse and worn out. And when im usually ill i jusg get in with it. Covid test are still saying negative so on hold to the dr surgery for a dr to call me back today.
I had a plan to cook some breakfast but i cant do it, i feel so poorly and have worn myself out.
I think i woke up hopefull and pretending to myself today i was gojng to be better and it woukd be a good day.
Well im going to still try to cook in a little bit because i am hungry and later then there is stuff prepared because my energy is low from not being able to eat properly.
Anyway hopefully this doesnt turn into covid, im also anxious that it is and i am not testing myself properly.
Anyway enough moaning about it.
Il get to speak to a dr today.
Going to be reading around here and just snuggked up in bed trying to get well.
Have been a little down with poor eating and relationship irritations. But the kids are home all day, so I need to be doing stuff with them, so not much time to dwell on it. Today an Indian friend came and cooked curry with the kids as my son’s home economics homework was to cook a meal. The kids were really excited and my friend was very patient with them. It was very delicious even though the friend said it didn’t taste exactly authentic.
Day 70, good morning sober fam. Today I’m feeling uplifting and happy, grateful. Also a little sad, I’m missing Addie’s first day on the bus for school orientation where she goes and gets to see her class room, I’m gonna miss both there first days of school and it’s kind of taring me up ATM, I feel a father shouldn’t be missing that stuff it’s times like these that make me really sad and wish I was home. Just a day ago I was glad to be back here but not today. Idk anyways much love off to do my chore and off to meditation and group
Hey all checking in. Not much going on today besides work today. Our oldest kid came home for a few days which was nice cause I haven’t seen him in a few months. He was working up in Pittsburgh and now he’s heading out to the Carolinas till around January. Anyways we hit the gym together and just hung out a while before he heads back out. Have a great day you all
Get with the program friend. Your program today is too be ill unfortunately. Hope you feel better soon. Thinking good thoughts and sending healing vibes your way. Take care of yourself lady. Hugs.
Thank you. Yes I have to just taking it easy, this is the 5th day in a row.
I just want to be able to make a meal and il be pleased.
Luckily I dont have anything to do so can time to recover. With naps in between.
Twizz I hope everything gets better for you !! Some time scan be anxious and irritating but you got this I believe in you !! Get well soon and another day on the path of success!
