Soooo sorry you’re not feeling well I hope you get better soon!!! 
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Day 788 clean and sober. Depression kicked in for a short period last night but I just went to bed and slept through it. Honestly for me it’s one of the best tools I’ve discovered along my journey. When the waves of depression come, instead of trying to work things out in my head I just go to sleep knowing that it will pass and 99% of the time I wake up ok. I used to ponder all of the reasons why and think about all of these different things however I’ve realized in my case it’s mostly chemical and will pass. Up early and heading out for a sunrise hike. I hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys!!!
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Day 21
Well today is day 21 on the path to a better me. Been consistent with making gainz in the gym and the S/O is really trying to make it work and has been showing me affection and doing things for me, and dosent even get on her phone. It’s weird how she can go from wanting to see other people to back to “loving” me like nothing ever happened… dosent sit right with me. Well one day at a time and another day closer to bringing my first born into the world
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In glad you woke up feeling alot better.
I also find this technique of sleeping it off can help too. Have a nice hike and enjoy the outdoors 
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Sorry you’re still I’ll Twizzle. Thinking about you and praying for you.
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Thank you, just laying here I know I still have so much to be gratefull for and that this time shall pass- soon I hope.
Have a great day 
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Checking in on day 424 this morning. It’s a lovely summer morning to be sober, and I am glad to still be on the path. Today we will take a friend’s daughter who is visiting from Europe sightseeing. Perfect day for it. Have a good day./night wherever you are, friends.
Get well soon @Twizzlers and @AuraXP.
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Awww no,
So sorry to hear you’re not feeling well. Don’t let the thought of it potentially being covid get to you.
Easier said than done I know but there were many other illnesses around before the whole pandemic started that haven’t gone away.
Give yourself time to recover, plenty of vitamin c to boost your immune system and take it easy. You’re no good to yourself if you overdo things and make yourself feel worse.
Sending hugs!
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Thank you @BrOKenWolf and @icebear Il make it through. Sightseeing sounds like a great thing to do on a summery day, have a good time
@AuraXP I wish you well too
And everyone who is not doing great get well soon
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I just had to laugh to myself, yes I’m feeling rubbish and crap, and Ill and horrid but I tell you what guys… this is easier than living life drinking I used to poison my body daily and felt like this all the time making myself Ill with alcohol, it was normal … if come so far, we all have and that just made me smile to think I’m moaning about this illness that is temporary after all the damage I used to do to myself I am very lucky.
I lucky and gratefull. I will pray today for those who arent.
Thank you everyone for the well wishes means alot
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Congratlations on your 32 days, have a safe journey and a lovely day
Iv ran out of likes everyone but I’m reading.
Just pulled myself up while I have a burst of grate fullness and I’m making dinner now for later. Il be back.
@maxwell how are you doing ?
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Thank u from the bottom of my heart for ur response. I can tell u understand completely. I have met with the nursing supervisors and they did ask questions about the medical side of things for him like feeding times, suctioning, things like that. It definitly wouldn’t hurt tho if I made something also like u suggested for his bag that goes with him 
we were able to tour the school and it does look amazing honestly. They have so many accessible items and they even do laps with their walkers around the school (he will get alot more physio there as where we live is so small). Lots of good things. I am hoping that I can just pop in every now and then. They used to have very strict rules around that due to covid. So I will have to ask about that. Definitely a great idea tho! I do have to stop using past bad experiences with nurses, and placing that same “label” onto other newer nurses. Until I have a reason to be concerned about their abilities, I really shouldn’t do that. We’ve had some amazing nurses overnight and alot of not so good ones that weren’t a fit for our family. But that’s like any job I guess the school is just a half day. So pick up at 830, school until 2 or 3pm, and then dropped off afterwards. So that’s okay. I’m excited but it’s change. And a whole new routine for everyone. It will take time to adjust. But thank u again for your thoughts and suggestions and support 
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Day 18
I am absolutely NOT okay.
Totally overwhelming feelings.
Feelings like being the last idiot…
What is not justified by anything.
I can only think of solution with two bottles of wine on ice!!! It is strongly in my head atm.
Shit! Sry for being that honest. 
But that’s what we are here for.
Advises welcome.
July
By the way, I am in contact again with this borderline guy, I had this friendship plus thing with, since Friday. Didn’t met, just writing, but it is already toxic… Why am I doing this? It is also addictive behavior. Addictive of being treated badly. 
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Oh I’m so sorry you’re struggling. Alcohol will only make it worse. Can you go for a walk? Have a bath? Something to eat?
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It’s okay to vent and not be okay. Just how you respond to not being okay. Your recognizing it which is awesome, took me a while to even actually see it. And it was my wife finally pointing out I was being a prick. If I’m having one of my days i try to avoid crowds, dive into a hobby usually my guitar because I’m very new and it’s challenging. Also helps the fish along to be honest, with the moving of the fingers. And we are always hear to listen. Those two bottle won’t make make you feel anymore okay. The Mind may think so but promise it dosent help!
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Hi everyone, how are you all today ? I hope that all is well… over here in Italy, warm (obviously) but not like it was last week and prior to that. It’s just kind of “normal” warm. After all, this is Italy and it’s August!
Anyway, creaping up on “one week” again, which I’ll hit tonight, so I’m pleased about that.
This is not the best month for my house being on the market, since EVERYTHING tends to shut down in Italy in August… it’s really annoying.
In any event… I hope that you are all well.
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@Juli1 its OK not to be OK.
Recovery is a very long process, there will be times where you have these thoughts and feelings and other times where you will feel like you will never think about drinking again.
Acknowledge the difficult days but don’t give them value, they are not of value to you on your new journey but you cannot simply ignore them either.
You have taken a big step being honest about them, now all you have to do is move past them.
Would alcohol make it better. We both know the answer to that is no. Do something for you and keep your chin up.
The answer about contacting the guy is in your question, you are seeking something to take your mind off of the drink but are looking where you used to find comfort. Look in a different place and you will find different fulfilment.
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I guess this is where we learn the stuff that bothers us, that we worry others wont know or will not do properly so your right to use your experience to tell others how it should be done.
You know best your mum, and you know how things need to be done yes there is text book ways they get taught but every individual is different and although you have had some bad experiences, this helps you in a way - your aware of what can be missed, or not done how your son specifically needs it done and you mentioning these things can only help
Thay are very nice times so he gets to come home too.
It’s a massive change for all of you and in time it will become normal.
Yes the schools are so set up for the children and their needs, they are adapted so the environment is accessible which is great.
It’s such an exciting time but also brings anxiety as you know how to do everything and natural to worry they dont, but I’m sure if anything pops up they are unsure of they will call you.
I think it’s going to be a great experience once he settles in.
It’s fantastic the school.does physio too !! It really does make a difference to have all the care on site.
I’m so happy for you 
I cried when my daughter first went as it was like wow she’s all grown up, once you son and his team there all get to know eachother it will be something he look forward too.
But yes I totally get you worrying.
I’m not sure over there but over here the school buses have like a warden on board that is for the children to help them on and off and help them on the journey.
Dont ever feel bad for voicing your concerns or telling them your not happy with something, that’s a great thing to be able to do I struggled with that at the beginning speaking up so it’s great you can do that.
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