Day 1477.
As a corollary to this yesterday… Clothes are just bed sheets we wear right-side in while awake? 
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Checking in day 5. Or 6 depending how you count it. Friday night sober I’m so happy I’ll be waking up sober tomorrow. Went to the pub and had a 0% beer and loved it.
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You should look it up on google and on here, its really good to understand this part of recovery and how it can affect us. It will be a good read for you, and when i learnt about it lots of stuff made alot of sense.
Im reading the check in from the bottom up, so not sure what orignal post was about.
But even watch some stuff on you tube about it 
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Duh lol i was being lazy…used the search tool and found a link to Betty Ford Hazelton. Sharing here for others 
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Im 37 and im not born into the generation where computers and phones and google existed 
My generation all know how to play the recorder (instrument) and hop scotch
Its not just you, my brain doesnt automatically think oh i can Google it, its second nature to me not first.
Glad you found it, its interesting but also so helpfull to know a few months in you can get PAWS and its suppose to be a main reason for relapse. So knowing about it really helps get through it and prevent relapse.i
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If you search using the magnifying glass at the top you will find lots of threads on it too. Great information to have.
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Woooohooo congrats on 300!!!
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Hi. I was advised to come to this thread. I am on Day 32. Tonight will be Day 33. Just wanted to say hi to you all. Thank you.
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Great to see you here 
Your doing great 
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Evening Check in
Day 179
Definitly some ups n downs today. Overall tho it was a good day. Made some phone calls. One of them was to my sons new bus nurse for school on Monday. Got major red flags from her. Even tho she is an LPN, she flat out told me that she was assigned to my son without any tracheostomy experience whatsoever. She told me “I’m currently reading on what to do for Monday”. I was very polite but told her that I would need to address this and possibly find someone new as it’s one thing to learn something on paper, and a whole other thing to actually do it. And performing medical tasks, especially if the child is upset, requires confidence in their skills and abilites. More training needs to be provided instead of nurses being thrown into situations that they are not familiar with. Its not beneficial for the child or the nurse. My hubby and I spent 6 months straight in hospital with our son before we could even go home. I loterally lived there. We needed to be trained and feel comfortable taking care of his medical needs. It’s definitly not a weekend textbook read kind of thing lol
So anyway… my anxiety was sky high. I made some calls and prayed about it bcuz God is in control. Within 20 min I got a call back from a diff nurse who has 35 years experience as a nurse, trach certified, hands on experience with trachs, and showed alot of interest in my son. I am at ease now and feel good about Monday. Grateful to God and for me being as proactive as I am bcuz I often have to advocate for my son.
My energy levels are increasing but I’m still tired. The heat doesn’t help haha I ate Chinese food for supper thanks to hubby. It was soo good. Now to relax before bed.
Hope everyone is having an addiction free day
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@GOKU2019 Huge congratulations on your 300 days
@Freckles2 6 days is amazing congratulations
@NashNathan congratulations on your 33 days, its nice to have you with us
@Cjp congratulations on your sober time… i seen you mention it somewhere but i cant find it and im a day late but i seen it was a big miles stone.
@Bluekoolaid congratulations on your 284 days, you have come so far, been through so much and im happy to read you are doing well.
@Jesile congratulations on your 13 days
@Butterflymoonwoman 179 days im so proud of you 
thinking of you and your family over next couple of days also hope your feeling better.
@Hayleylujah congrats on your 63 days.
Also yesterday there were some other big mile stones i missed so congratulations to every one 
@Misokatsu huge congratulations
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Tonight will be day 164 of no self harm.
Just not doing well because of everything that’s been going on. No urge to self harm but a huge urge to self destruct in any way possible. I’m not going to my grandpa’s tomorrow I can’t handle it. Tempted to not sleep to just punish myself for no reason. I dunno. Just feel like a gross and bad person
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Im so pleased to hear that you managed to get the new nurse!!!
I wish i could have cup of tea with you and give you a real squeezy hug right now.
I feel your worry x x x
Although an exciting time, its also a very new unknown territory. You are doing really well making sure everything is set up, its not easy. But your doing great.
im here if you need me xx
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Awe thank u so much! We are all excited for Monday 
how r u doing?
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Im doing ok, thank you
Its almost 2am here 
but its peacefull and its friday so its okay. Just taking a read around here.
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I absolutely know u understand hugs I remember u telling me about ur child and the worries that came up for u too. The supervisor understood completely and they managed to find someone right away for Monday. She’s coming at 8am Monday to meet all of us (45 min earlier than the bus). I appreciated that!
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I’m glad ur night has been calm and peaceful. Have those people in ur building been partying lately and making alot of noise?
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Thats brilliant she is coming earlier, that tells me she knows her job well, that will help put your mind at ease as you get time together which is how it should work.
I cant wait to hear how his first day goes, the amount of opportunity and fun he will have will be amazing, and for you to see him come home after a good day is a great feeling.
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Hey lady, whats going on? I’m glad u have no urge to self harm… but what’s causing the need to “self destruct”? I also am very proud of u for making the decision to avoid the family gathering tmrw. I knoew that’s not easy for u bcuz u care so much for ur grandpa. But those family gatherings always seem so upsetting for u and toxic 
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Just still processing a lot since my groomer got in touch with me last week. In a few weeks I won’t get to seey grandpa on Saturdays anymore because of my work schedule and I don’t really have a way of getting there tobsee him on my days off. Everything just feels like it’s falling apart so I tend to self destruct when everything else is destructing. And I feel like everything that’s happened in my past is my fault and has made me gross
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