TOTALY clear with not any questions at all to make this day sober! Cool change during the last few days, despite of fatigue.
I will go on…
Did some cleaning and now it’s just resting for nice Siesta chill out with short healing naps…
Had a smoothie that is healing for gut made of banana, avovado and rice protein. For lunch I will have some veggies with tofu and I will bake some low carb “Brötchen” with almond flour and psyllium husks to have a light dinner snack before or after swim training.
My daughter bought some plastic nails from the 100 yen shop and decorated them and put them on. She made me wear them too. I feel so incapacitated. I’m sure it is a matter of practice, but I can’t do anything! They are definitely not my bag. I hope to take them off as soon as she goes to bed.
Hey Mike,
74 days, wow !! I have been keeping up with your journey and you really are putting everything and every effort into this.
I think you need to remind yourself how strong you are, how when you drank everyday you may have felt like this. But now you are dealing with it, straight on. Your getting better properly and your chances of staying sober are so high with all the hard work your doing and that is a gift your girls will have for the rest of their lives, only you can give them that and you are doing that right now.
I know it’s easy for me to say all this especially when your feeling sad, and maybe alone but hang in there!
Your an inspiration to so many on here, I’m so proud to see you grow and really making serious changes.
Being away from your family is difficult I really get that, but what your doing is making everything better for your family, your not damaging it, you may feel low but soon when your back home and you have all these tools to take with you to keep you sober… that’s the life you want with your girls.
Just want you to know I do follow your journey and I am really proud of you. I know were all adults but I still like knowing people notice my hard work or tell me they are proud, I dont think it matters how old we are its nice to be recognised especially when we are doing something that will change the life of not just ourselves for the better but for our whole family.
Your honestly a rock staying strong, and you doing your recovery so strongly means you can be your girls rock forever. Yeh I’m well proud of you. Also its good your reaching out when you feel low, I feel when I do that here everyone really makes an effort to support and it makes the world of a difference.
I bet your daughter is loving it
I brought some gel nail polish, and the lights and fake nails etc… but havent got round to doing them yet.
Long nails yes, they really do stop us from doing certain things have a great fun day it’s so hot here I’m so lucky the back end of my house is so cool, I didnt sleep too well but I meditated for like 4 hours in and out of sleep so I feel okay.
I just need to eat I think.
Got the chamomile tea brewing already as i know when I dont get sleep the best thing for me to do is stay awake and wear myself out to prevent further nights of insomnia then the depression creeps in. And the chamomile to keep the anxiety at bay as no sleep I jump at the cat meow just thought I’d say hi and congratulations on your huge milestone.
I wasnt very well the past few weeks (luckily not covid) so was doing more reading than writing here. And think I’m still recovering slightly.
Have a good day with your daughter
@SadMemeQueen How are you doing today?
Thought I’d say hi.
It’s so hot here, I didnt get any sleep last night, spent the whole night on here.
Just wanted you to know I am thinking of you
I will definitely sleep tonight i know that!!
To be honest its helping me too, its keeping my mind off of some stuff thats happening next week thats really difficult to talk about, and is going to be emotional and sad and triggering. So im trying to keep positive and im sure thats why my sleeping is going off schedule.
I enjoy when i get to catch up properly on here, see how eveyone is doing. I am extremely tired but its 3:30pm so by the time i cook and eat and maybe read some of a book il get into bed arnd 8pm.
I do like to get up early about 4-5am.
Sometimes i wonder when i can’t sleep like this is it my brain trying to repair or mimick when i stayed up all night drinking and drugging, like its part of a pattern that slowly is going away but my brain still keeps the pattern of staying up all night - not sure if that make sense at all
Hello all, new here, 6 days 9 hours and 53 minutes sober, but who’s counting? . I just want to thank everyone for creating this community. It’s nice being able to read others experiences and knowing I’m not alone.
@Sach all I can suggest is to keep reminding urself of why u quit. That addictive voice doesn’t show up for me every often now either but it does occasionally. I remind myself daily of my powerlessness over drugs. I will never have control nor do I even want the control. Play the tape to the end bcuz addiction will try to find various ways to sneak itself back in. U got this! ODAAT @anon53116147 sending positive vibes ur way Mike. Not every day will be the best but just keep pushing thru! This too shall pass. Ur doing a wonderful thing for urself amd ur girls right now. Remember why ur doing this… and I’m sure one of those reasons is so that ur girls have a healthy father @Juli1 I wish I had the motivation and determination to eat well I always love reading about ur healthy eating! Have a great day! @bones_80 I hear u on this heatwave. I’m sooo done with it. Next year we are getting an air conditioner. These fans barely do the job lol
Morning Check in Day 180
Its 9am and the day has been okay so far. Feeling abit better than yesterday too. I’m not working today as my husband has some charity fundraiser thing to go to. So it’ll be me and my boy Today, Im going to finish everything that I need to do for his 1st day of school on Monday. I work tmrw so I won’t really have time to do all that. Just going to enjoy the day and stay clean and sober! Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
I also knew nothing about it. I have never been to rehab where I think they may teach people about it. I am not sure about that though. I learned about it in NA when I asked why they gave their clean time milestones out at the times they did. It is because of PAWS. The symptoms seem to flare up around those times, so are we having milestone malady or are we just having a flare up of our illness. Which came first?
I am always glad to see so many people learning about PAWS when it is mentioned here because it can definitely be a relapse cause if you aren’t aware of it in those first few months.
Morning Check in 
