Something turned. Don’t know what exactly. Perhaps it was finally opening up about being in a dark place for over a week. I’m not 100% yet but I feel so much better. I think I was riding a health related pink cloud and it burst into thunderstorms. Someone I highly respect reminded me to live in the moment. That’s all we really have and letting fear focused thoughts of the future ruins this moment we dwell in. So although it’s difficult to live with uncertainty I am going to do my best to put one foot in front of the other and focus on today.
@Butterflymoonwoman oh honey congrats on six months! You have come so far and I love watching your journey
Borrowed my daughter’s car to run to the store last night. Was only gone ten minutes. Thank god! A trip to Walmart would have been a bigger disaster. I walked into my room and my 50 gallon tank sprang a leak. The pressure had it spraying three feet across the room. I flew around grabbing buckets, pans and towels. My oldest grandson dumped the buckets as I filled more until I got the water level below the leak. Then we cleaned up the mess. Sealed the tank and had to leave it to cure overnight. Poor babies are midsize angelfish who love deep water. I worried they wouldn’t make it overnight but they are still alive. Crazy ending to my night lol.
I had to make a decision to drop out of the fitness thread. I can’t fulfill my promise to walk every day because I don’t know from day to day what my strength level is going to be. I’m okay with that. It is what it is and no sense throwing extra stress my way.
My deepest condolences on the passing of ur family member. U did everything u could and I truly feel like she knows this. Most people I feel are not even trained in CPR so the fact that u knew this and was able to provide her with this as soon as u could, is remarkable. And she was very lucky to have both of u there with her
I am so happy to hear that ur feeling better! This is such wonderful news! I’m also grateful that ur beautiful fish are alive after the tank leaking. Omg I couldn’t even imagine the panic u must’ve felt trying to fix this! Hope u have a fantastic day lady! Hugs!
Oh hun, I’m so sorry about your loss. That had to have been so hard. I’m grateful it hasn’t affected your recovery and that you are there to provide that much needed support for your loved ones.
Day 26
Well… days 26 shitty day S/O says she’s moving back home which is 200 miles away … looks like I won’t get to see my child very much when it’s born … life sucks
Day 5
Good Evening
It was a quiet and happy day thanks to Allah
I am really trying to do my best every day though life comes up with ups and downs
However I can’t be more grateful for all the blessings and happy details that happen every day
Happy for being sober today
Grateful
Have a nice day or night
Very happy I’ve gotten to this place.
Our trip was very nice. Did many activities with the kids SOBER. This was my first trip completely sober and I can truly say it was the best time I’ve been had on a vacation. No hangover or dreading a day full of activities while feeling shitty. So glad I am where I am in my sobriety. I don’t think much about alcohol other than when I’m around people who are drinking. I have a 15cenera coming up next Saturday and as much as I’m looking forward to it i also hope I can enjoy myself without having much anxiety with temptation.
Hi everyone.
Not posted for a while!
56 days sober from alcohol today and 100 odd from quitting vaping (i have the number on here but didnt want to go back to check to have to come back to post )
Hope everyone is well
Really pleased with these 20 days. 3 weeks tomorrow. Looking forward to some slightly cooler temperatures to work in.
Congrats everyone on another day.
Day 5
Good morning. Things are feeling good today. Have plans for the evening to go out for dinner with my daughter so I know I won’t be drinking. Day 5 is often hard for me so I planned ahead (honestly, I think since the beginning of Summer I haven’t made it past day 5) An early dinner will definitely help with cravings for me plus I’ll be in a restaurant with my daughter so I definitely won’t order alcohol👏
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