I remember when you first arrived here, then you disappeared for a long time. You’d pop back on once in a while but you never stayed too long. Then you stayed, you decided to buckle down, to fight and its been on like Donkey Kong since then. Keep it up, you are doing it… I’m so proud of you.
Love you lots.
Day 5 evening check in
Feeling better and better. Had some breif cravings. Ordered a club soda and lime at dinner. Had a great time and laughed out loud a lot- truly feeling happiness which I don’t feel when I’m not living sober.
Came home to my husband who had a few and I feel the negativity pulling me down. Now this is going to sound harsh… You know those thoughts that are only the dark, but I feel like I either hate myself for drinking or hate my husband if I’m not. I just hope I can get over the anger and I truly believe part of that comes from my alcoholic self partially wishing I could get that buzz on too. I think it’s more the inner struggle that I hate, rather than actually disliking my husband. I mean, we were together almost 20 years ago and I never drank and he did and it never bothered me…so I hope I can get past this.
Anyways, it’s just about today, right now, and in this moment I’m ok. I’m letting go of my anger.
Thanks for listening.
Always good to be honest. Sometimes at least a part of you hates your partner for some reason. I have been there. As for your partner drinking, when you have truly accepted that drinking is just pointless and you don’t WANT to drink, then your partner drinking won’t bother you. That time will come.
Thank you so much. I needed to hear that. It made me feel more peaceful. I really appreciate your response💖
@Miranda I second what Fleur has said. It will become a feeling of freedom from being affected by your partner’s drinking - if it doesn’t directly cause you pain you don’t have to let it cause you suffering. It took me some time, most definitely! I can get mildly annoyed at times if he acts a fool but that’s rare in my situation. I think it’s different for people whose partners have a problem with alcohol use, but for those who do not, we are the ones who let ourselves be bothered. Hang in there! Glad things are getting better and better!
#Day 1426 
One day before holiday to Turkey.
Busy with house chorus and getting to much stuff in a to small bag 
Because of a lack of personal at the airport Schiphol a lot of luggage is getting lost. So we decided to go without it and only use handluggage.
Within 1 houre my neighbor is here to talk about how to take care of our cat and plants. I think she will be flabbergasted to see how many plants I have 
Still in my “thinking modus” because of the bad craving I had last saturday. But overall feeling ok.
I missed this! congrats my friend! you’re walking the walk!
I was having a pretty rough weekend. My husband and I got into a nasty fight and I was all set to hate my one day off (Sunday) this week.
Apologies were given and I think that was one of our moments where we really just needed to get things off our chests to re-connect.
Today we rode bikes to our state fair, 5 miles each way, and ate delicious fried foods and walked 13,000 happy steps. We saw livestock and arts and crafts and enjoyed each others company. After our ride home we cooked a healthy meal and watched Thirteen Lives which was tense and awesome.
Tomorrow I am 6 months alcohol free. I think the upcoming milestone messed with my head a bit but this weekend was a great reminder that when things are tough you just keep going. Today was a wonderful day and many times I was able to remind myself how easily I could spoil it by adding alcohol.
I still have a lot of work to do, mostly on letting loved ones see the real me without my screen of alcohol that was always up but I’m getting better each day. Happy sober day friends. Keep going.
1164
Coffee. One day off. Still very warm and hoping a storm shows up and brings us some 
later. In the meanwhile I’m not going to do too much. I’ll try to think up something nice to cook. Read some in my new recovery-from-trauma book. Pet Luna. I’m on for a day free from whatever. Sober and clean.
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Make it sober and clean. It’s the first condition to a healthier happier better life for all of us. One day at a time. Love from Amstel train station last night.
Congratulations on your 6 months Dana!! Feeling happy for you, after all your struggles, you’re doing so great! 
Congratulations to your 20 sober days! 
Day 19 
messed up dreams last night 
did run out of sleepers so could be down to that still hot 
as hell hurry up tomorrow
binge watching 911 on Disney + happy Monday sober people 
Day 6 ½
@Axsis Serious numbers, bro. Keep it up!
@SoberWalker Have fun in Turkey, send us a postcard!
@TrustyBird I’m glad your day worked out well in the end. Congratulations on 6 months!
@Mno I’m seriously going to start posting pictures of Topeka. 
Something weird happened last night when I was meditating. I was almost asleep then “Bang!” my right ear felt like someone jammed a red hot nail into my eardrum. Even after coming to full consciousness it hurt for a second or two. Has this happened to anyone else?
Went back to sleep and rested well. Too well. I woke up at 4:30 wide awake. Don’t have to be at my appointment until 9:30 so I just tossed and turned and gave up. Figured I’d start with breakfast, so I mixed up some pancake. One great big 7" pancake, because in 'Murica nothing’s done until it’s overdone. 
Nothing left to do now except the dishes I should’ve done last night and wait. I’ll get back if anything interesting happens. Peace, fam! 
DAY 730 
Yes, today is the 2nd anniversary of my sobriety. Its an incredible journey … 
I am blessed and grateful to be here at 730 days… 
I joined this community in December 2019, relapsed many times until August 2020. I’ve never stopped trying. Every day I read and listened to the journeys of different people. I did #dailycheckin here.
Most importantly, I accepted my own reality, accepted that it was a disease and that alcohol was not good for me and I couldn’t drink like normal people. I used all the Sober toolbox that felt good to me to heal.
This is now my way of life 
Never give up trying. Do what works for you, believe it’s worth it…
Proud instead of feel embarrassment,
calm breathing instead of heart 
palpitations,
beautiful moments that I remember every moment of instead of unforgettable moments.
Love you TS fam , thanks for all your support 
Huge congrats Sunny!!! Celebrate!!!
Day 27
We’ll day 27 had some urges yesterday with all the stress of the baby mama wanting to move 200 miles away while 4 months pregnant with my baby… says she needs space and wants to re evaluate when it gets closer to the baby being born. But we all know how that’s gonna go… we’ll here’s to day 27
80 days AF
8061 days Mefh free
Good morning. Checking in on my day off. I have a few appointments to run my daughter to and being at the tail end of a cold I still have the ( I dont wannas) lol I will but I’d rather stay in bed lol
Hope everyone has a wonderful AF day out there
Day 24 
I need a lot of food and resting today 
Had a shake with banana, blueberries, oats, riceprotein and linseed oil for breakfast.
For lunch a huuuge salad with tomatoes, cucumber, avocado, mango, chick peas, roasted chicken beast, olive oil, lemon juice and chili.
For dessert a Alpro Skyr Joghurt natural with Stevia and chopped dark chocolate (straciatella style, very delicious! 
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And believe it or not… It is 2 pm and I am like "Okay… WHAT’S NEXT?"
I will stay sober and maybe go to swimming in the outdoor pool in the later evening.
Sending love
Take care 
Hey all, checking in on day 792. I hope everybody has a good one!
