Brilliant! Congratulations! Wonderful changes are happening and I am so happy for you 
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Day 10082
Well, I woke up this morning to find all my poor angelfish deceased except one and she isnāt likely to make it either. Iām really sad about it. They gave me serenity during hard times. Iām going to miss my babies.
I decided to get really real with you today. As I told you before Iām in process of finding out if I have lung cancer. Iām going through pretty violent swings of emotions and such. But here is my biggest issue. Iām still a smoker. I gave up booze, meth and weed. That was a cakewalk compared to nicotine. Talk about an emotional crutch. Iād like to quit but I run from why bother now all the way to well itās your fault, what did you expect. Honestly, I never relapsed on quitting my drug addiction but have relapsed so many times on cigs that I completely understand how folk feel when they reset here. Itās so hard. But Iām thinking of NOT going to the store today and buying a new pack and starting an accountability timer on here. Perhaps using that and having you all at my back I can do it this time.
Sitting out back in the Florida room watching nature. I saw two squirrels arguing with a woodpecker a bit ago. The squirrels won 
Got my one eyed cat curled up in my lap and the chihuahuas are chasing each other around our 3/4 acre backyard. Grandsonās dog is at my feet with his head on them. Itās funny how animals are so in tune with us. They are giving me so much love lately and following me from room to room.
I found this app a few months ago and the miracle of recovery has given me so many people here that I cherish and memories to hold tight to. I find strength here when I have none. Thank you for being here for me. 
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Oh no. I am so sorry to hear about your babies. I always loved how angelfish looked, they were one of my favorites growing up. Be kind to yourself as you grieve. And sending strength to you in kicking the cigs! I know thereās a thread on here for people quitting nicotine, if that is something that might help support you in that effort.
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Congratulations on you ten ODAATs Claire.
Iām glad youāre here.
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Thank you!! I didnāt know about that one
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Love u girl!!! Thank u for the post!! Iām so grateful that u have always been so supportive to me. The times ud talk to me when I was soo down or feeling just awful. I remember those times well and Iām really thankful for uā¦ I truly am 
I always learn soo much from u and ur posts and I appreciate that and am sooo proud of u also!
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Thank you Eric!!! I really appreciate the post and gif!!! That means alot 
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Thank you so much Jenny!!! I really appreciate the support and congratulations 
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Happy 6 sober months Dana! Youāre a true inspiration on here. Iām always so glad I get to read your posts.
Lots of love! 
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42 days free of gambling, my brain chemistry has started to reset and repair and urges are almost gone. When I get one I am strong enough to resist.
Feel fantastic and absolutely flying!
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Congratulations to your 2nd anniversary! 
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Starting day 7ā¦ yesterday was the worst so far and it started off so good. ;(
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Day 107 here.
A lot of mulling things over going on here. An alcoholic former friend keeps emailing (I blocked him on every other channel) to ask if Iād like to meet for coffee and a chat. I made it clear that I want nothing to do with him unless heās in recovery, but still he asks.
Iām also feeling frustrated about my parentsā drinking and again ruminating a lot.
I got the Insight Timer app after it was mentioned here several times. So far I really like it.
The kids are back at school on Wednesday so the next couple of days are just about getting ready for that. Iāll give my son a haircut and my daughter has been parading about in her new uniform. Lovely to see!
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Hi everyone,
3 weeks today. I had some busy week and didnāt have time to be here as much as I like to.
Now today I have some rest and the urge to get some drink is immense. Oh man a hard one today but we must stay strong.
Everyone have a great day
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Hello and thank you all for your good wishes.
@Piglet86 well done on 51. 
@Sunny11 2 years is great mate 
@KatoBaggels 27 days 
@Juli1 well done on day 24 your food diary looks brilliant.
@Nordique 792
@Claire_Quit congratulations on double figures
@SassyBoomer sorry to hear about your fish. Nobody ever suffered worse health because of quitting smoking. Dont give up giving up. You can and will find a way. You are always here to offer good advice and listen to others problems.
@Deelzebub well into your fourth month great going
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Day 6 
Have a wonderful day 
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I will send some pictures, no worries 
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Day 794 clean and sober. Best part of the show last night was a band called Static X. Wowā¦ super tight band, they were my favorite by far. I hope everyone has an amazing day today, I love you guys so much!!! 
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Morning check in . Not to much as far as obligations today . Going to stay busy but also take time to relax with positive escape. One thing I been doing lately when I get stuck in my head or if the negative self talk starts ā¦ I immediately get up and do push-ups And squats . It seems to help . My excuse for not working out was that I might get hurt and that is hilarious considering what I used to do to my body with alcohol and drugs . I think joining a gym and going a couple days a week is my next step . Another way to help deal with the anxiety and ups and downs of recovering. For now the home workouts will do and i always feel better afterwards and feels like a new day when Iām done .
Going to make sure to hydrate and eat real food today . Call some alcoholics. Try to get through another day with action. Another day staying on this path . Thereās no other way
Ps: a lot of the ideas for bettering my recovery come from this communityā¦ Be that exercise, organized workout or sports , meditation, eating better ā¦ I learn from you guys . Grateful for the motivation
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