Don’t hate yourself. You need to get well before you can work. I know getting well us hard at your house. I wish I could do something practical to help you.
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@Leveller congrats on 3 weeks!
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Glad you quit if it was killing your soul. Its hard but its much better to leave before things inevitably get worse. The decision shows bravery and discipline and self respect.
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Congrats on half a year of recovery!!!
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Amazing Dana so happy for you all.
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Awe u are sooo sweet praying for him for today. I really appreciate that. I feel like ur prayer was answered 
hugs my friend! Thank u for ur support
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Thanks girl! 
I’m so relieved and now he’s looking forward to go back tmrw!
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Awe thank you lady!!! That means alot to me
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Checking in here on day 291…chugging along well thanks to so much support in this setting and in my life.
I’m coming up on a hard date in my family history and my brother is really struggling. He has mental illness and addiction issues and he’s in a bad way right now. He lives far away so I can only support him on the phone these days.
I have some survivors guilt that he is suffering and I’m doing so much better. And I’m angry about the childhood abuses that made him so unhealthy. We are both in our fifties and we are both so tired of trying to figure out how to be ok.
I am glad that even though our conversation was hard today and activated a ton of horrible trauma for me, I did not have the urge to drink. I know I have to be in these feelings and work through them without that crutch. And I’m doing ok about that. I talked to my husband and to my sister and we are all in agreement that we need to support our brother, but we can’t solve his problems for him.
Onward, one day at a time for all of the things in life. I wish you all peace.
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Mt Bondcliff, in the White Mountains of New Hampshire
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It looks beautiful, I lived in Canaan for a couple years. Pretty in the fall!
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I love that idea of doing a timer for cleaning. I’ve done that before when I feel overwhelmed. It always makes me feels better to get something done, and sometimes I keep going after the timer because I get really into it.
I love how you are going to reserve judgment for now. Sometimes all we need is time
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Day 6 Evening check in
My anxiety past this morning after a calm walk and a bit more of a workout.
I really thought about a drink earlier but made it past the craving. My daughter is out for the the evening and I don’t work early so I could have… But I didn’t. I’m so proud.
Thanks everyone♥️
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Thanks Eric! Hug that cute new little grand baby for me. I appreciate you.
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Day 7
@TrustyBird Congratulations on 6 months!
@SadMemeQueen Don’t hate yourself; you have every right to guard your mental health. The right job will come at the right time.
@Butterflymoonwoman I’m so glad things went well. Normally nobody likes the first day of school. But he can’t wait to go back? That truly is a blessing!
Wow there was a lot of traffic accumulated while I took a brief nap. It’s almost like the world somehow goes on without me. 
Well, it looks like we’re gonna get a little break from the heat; daytime high tomorrow of 78 degrees (25 Celsius for non-Americans). That’s the coolest it’s been in at least 5 months. Gotta find a place to hike tomorrow and get outta here for a little bit. Need the exercise; although I got a mostly clean bill of health this morning, I’m still significantly overweight.
You know how fitness experts always say “pay attention to what your body is telling you”? Well, I’ve had 5 quarts of ice cream in the last week and I haven’t lost an ounce. Anyway, I’m gonna find something on Netflix. Been a boring day, but I was sober. Peace out! 
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Day 22 today. Been tempted a few times the last few days. Glad I’m still sober. The pangs do fade away but if I drink I’d have to start all over.
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I’m trying to get back up to day 22 too! I’m excited for 1 week tomorrow! Your so right-the cravings pass and I’m getting stronger everyday. My alcoholic voice was not as loud today, although she did whisper to me a few times. Glad to be sober with you♥️
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I’m thinking of you and your brother… And your sister too. Family stuff is hard. It’s hard to see loved ones struggle and hard to not let it affect our own health. My three sisters have all had mental health and addiction issues too. There was also abuse in my family, but I was the youngest and my mom got me out of there sooner, so I have held heavy guilty at times that I had more of chance then they did. I think they also resented me at times… But that was also brainwashing from my biological father. So messed up! I’ve had to step away. It makes me sad, but I always got hurt. I’m glad you can support your brother, but your right-you can’t solve his problems and you deserve to be where your are right now. You deserved to be happy and healthy.
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Thanks Mark! Stay cool and enjoy your walk. I appreciate you.
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Congrats Trustybird, great milestone 
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