Hi. Working on Day 37 today. Can’t believe I have went this long.
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Day 165
It was a day. I was outside. I never remember sunscreen.
Fatigue. Writers block.
One more day and then i am done for 3 days. Thank god.
Should do the tidying.
Dont want to. Life feels pointless.
Wish I wasnt sober a bit. Not going to have anything. Its just going to be a shitty year.
Edit: set timer and cleaned for 15 minutes. Slightly more comfortable.
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I got a DVD from the library, “How the Titanic Really Sank”. That was way cool!
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Welcome, and good evening! 
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@SadMemeQueen congrats on the new keys. What did you get I been looking myself and two things you stated where important weighted keys and 88 keys I wanna dig into keyboards more but I also want it to transfer to playing piano so I can do both. Just need a midi output so I can run it through my processor.
As far as guitar and piano we reach plateaus all the time, you learn chords scales patterns and get comfortable playing our favorite songs and it seems like going above and beyond that is sometimes a struggle most courses and books are designed for the beginner to intermediate player, and finding more material to grow with can be difficult my personal lesson learned practice routine, you can play 8 hours a day and gain nothing, I know I did it, I started do doing a practice routine that was like building blocks it made me a better player and built on skills I know, as well as skills I was building and that’s only a 1 hour practice routine broke up into 10 minute segments, if I spend another hour doing stuff it’s just my time personal enjoyment
@BrOKenWolf im sorry to hear of the sudden passing of your mom in law, it’s terrible to lose a parent, but also remember it isn’t your fault, I was a paramedic for years, and I think I have 5 successful resuscitations, out of like 10k, more often than not unless cardiac arrest is from an reversible outlying cause, aka Hs & Ts we call them, it is often already too late. So you tried your best, that’s all that matters
Myself not a great day, I found out a lifelong friend, we knew each other since Age 5 passed away, I got the call from my kids mom. Apparently she overdosed at a friends house and the dude instead of getting help while there was a chance, left to go fishing and called for help when he got back, and left again. Obviously way too late. She just turned 40, when I say lifelong friend, she married one of my classmates they both were into the party scene, we formed a Pearl Jam tribute band in her living room, which led to me meeting another much more successful tribute band that I played a few fill in shows with cause well I already knew the material, when I moved back to that area we all picked up right where we left off, she became friends with my kids mom cause they worked together and forged that bond. A few years back she posted a picture of us on Facebook from first day of school like 2nd grade and a picture of us at my house,
It really saddens me, her husband now estranged got sober a few years back, so it put a divide in their relationship, and I guess the plan was for her to get sober and she didn’t make it. It’s these humble reminders of why I’m grateful I left that scene behind, but also reminds me fuck that fentanyl shit
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Just find something your passionate about and type it in, I am a graduate of YouTube U.
I watch a lot of rock n roll true stories. & I actually applied for a voice over spot on their channel, I didn’t get it, mostly cause even Though I felt my audition tape went well, I don’t have a lot of voice over experience which is fine, I also look at the facts that most YouTube channels have a life cycle of about 5-7 years, so I could be doing it for 3 weeks or 3 years it’s a roll of the dice
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No, it’s not that. When we get together the whole weekend revolves around drinking. We always do the same things, light the fire in the garden and put on some music and drink til early am. Or they’ll want to go to the pub. I’ve cancelled to avoid being in these situations.
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I’m so sorry to hear about your friend♥️
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I’m sorry to hear about your friend
Since I hit 35 (37now) there seems to be more of this kind of thing happening to people I were very close to, or others I just has crossed paths with in life.
It scares me to hear these things knowing I have an addiction.
I worry that one day no matter how strong in sobriety I am (longest streak for me was 8years)
that i know there are days ahead of me when for some reason all the circumstances to have that drink will pop up for example , my brain has been trying to trick me for days, then something sad happens, then start losing confidence in myself then something else and something else until for my alcohol addiction ever circumstance is perfect excuse to have one. And we all are so lucky we have this chance now to get sober, because people unfortunately and sadly pass because of addiction. And we have to prepare our selves to survive this.
I hope your okay, I am thinking of you during this difficult time. 
I’m here if you ever need a chat or cheering up.
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@Bluekoolaid You have the right idea about just having to learn to be confident and find comfort when thse days happen.
Also dont put too much pressure on yourself, it’s okay to not be okay.
I also when having a day like this keep busy with small tasks, and watch documentarys or stuff that interests me on you tube as a kind of escapism from getting into my own thoughts and stuck there.
You have really come along way, really you have I’m so happy to hear although it is tough you are confident and have a plan that works for you to get through it.
Hope your feel refreshed when you wake up and it’s great your able to start getting a routine together, your living instead of just surviving.
I’m so proud of you, reading your experience ober the past months and seeing you get over all the hurdles- which a few months back felt like there were so many for you. You have overcome so much, been really tested to your limits and I’m so glad you are at a place in your life and sobriety where your able to put the tools you have learnt and your mind into action when these days pop up because you worked so hard to get your life back together and you did it !! You really did it !!
@Leveller I’m also sorry to hear your going through this, and about your friend passing too.
The main thing is to not let those low feelings because you had a drink keep you in that dark place. You have to reset and concentrate on today not yesterday, this will help not fall back into that viscous cycle. Glad your here today with us still.
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Day 22 
been up since 4am so tired 
but sober at lest 
Netflix why not
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Four days off. Yay! I really like my job but I’ve got other stuff to do too. My experiential expertise course resumes today. Tonight one of my oldest mates is coming over for dinner. Tomorrow I have to do an intake for a new group therapy dealing with trauma and abuse. Also tomorrow the Tour of Spain 
starts in Utrecht (which isn’t Spain I know) and I like to go over and watch that. Two other friends I’d like to meet. Enough chores to do. And some time relaxing too maybe. Busybusy. Sober and clean.
Recovery -which I personally prefer to call discovery- is work but it’s so worth it. Have a good day all. Make it clean and sober or nothing will come of it. Love from my little square where yesterday some rain finally fell. Not enough to finish the drought but me and the trees will take it.
@Leveller You’re here and you’re right back at it Col. Let this be a bump in the road. On we go.
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Checking in, day 650. It’s been a while since I checked in, life got pretty busy and I had some rough patches too. I isolated myself, smoked a lot, even craved alcohol at times and just didn’t do any self-care whatsoever. I feel better already, but I’m going to make some changes so I don’t stuck in this rut. I plan to give up smoking (this will be the biggest challenge), socialize more, I applied to a woodcarving class starting from September, will return to the woods and will do some sports, probably running. I know that it will be good for me, yet it’s hard to make these steps. Bad thoughts and bad times can be comforting with their passiveness. But I’m grateful for my current problems, because I do have a chance to make changes and make choices.
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Thank you for your kind words, I know the odds were stacked and it was always likely to end one way.
I’m sorry to read about your friend. That is truly devastating, the fact the guy left her when she needed help is horrific and then leaving her after eventually getting help too is just disgusting.
If you need anything give me a shout!
Deepest condolences to you.
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still here 13,121.everyone doing great
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Day 27 free from alcohol
1 week free from toxic guy
I am doing fine and have kind of a party feeling due to 4 weeks (and 30 days Milestone) coming soon.
The experiment to produce a antioxidant chia seed face serum failed for the first trial 
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It was just a super sticky, gooey mass and you couldn’t filter it properly. There were still seeds in the liquid. It is okay for a face mask, but not for a serum. So, I used a few scoops of the chia pudding in my morning shake with oats and vegan protein 
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I might treat myself to the expensive original product as a gift for the 4 weeks 
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And will have a self care treat with a memory of how nice sobriety is, everyday and night.
I was very sporty and eating healthy last 4 weeks… Today I have thoughts about focusing a bit more on weight loss again. I am not sure if that’s the right way… I am struggling with a bit of eating disorder. (undereating or binge eating) didn’t have any fallout during last 4 weeks 
wowie!
Priority will be staying sober!
By the way, today’s main dish will be Falafel with iceberg, coleslaw, tomatoes and tahini garlic dip! 
Sending love
Take care 
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Such a positive spin on it @Mno I like these words.
I’m over my bump, anger and self pity have left this mind and body so on we go.
Thank you all for your words on encouragement and support.
Come on Day 3 let’s have a look at you and see what I can do with you today! 
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141 days 
I’ve been more consistent with my self care this week. Exercise, good sleep, no binge eating, reading. It’s been a good week.
We’ve had sooo much rain here, even hail which almost looked like snow. Which is super weird, I haven’t seen that before living in Western Australia.
I couldn’t be more excited for summer!
I’ve been reading Jordan Petersons 12 rules for life- An antidote to chaos which has been interesting.
Well done to everyone checking in and staying sober today 
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@Twizzlers Thank you. So much better today. Still here, now its time to work at it not just add days up.
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Hey all, checking in on day 795. I hope everybody has a good one!
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