Day 737
Bit of a lazy day today. I still have grading left for another uni. Eating was not good again, noticed some of the same ‘stinkin thinkin’ that happens with booze, ‘i have had a bit, may as well have a lot’ etc. But took some recycling, took the kids to karate, went to library, do it wasn’t a total bust.
Day 797 clean and sober. I love how @Mno uses the term discovery!!! I feel like when I first got clean and sober I was in recovery but now I’m in discovery. Discovering who I am and what I like and the things that make me feel fulfilled or even unfulfilled and getting rid of them. Plus so much more it’s crazy in a good way. I hope everyone has a beautiful day today. I’m really proud of us all, love you guys!!! 
I’m sorry for your loss brother…
Happy 6 gambling free weeks!
I’m a vegetarian and have tasted the vegan versions of some cheeses. Unfortunately, I’m not a fan of almond based food.
The palm oil and fat in the vegetarian stuff annoys me also, but I need to eat something.
Welcome to your 1st day!
Sorry to hear that you are unwell.
@Leveller I’m sorry you lost someone, but I’m glad you’re back with us!
@Fury I’m very sorry to hear of your friend; it’s truly sad someone could have called for help but chose not to. I agree with @Twizzlers, this is going to get
more common the older we get.
@mno “Discovery”… I dig it. Enjoy those 4 days!
Good to hear from you, @Tomek!
I didn’t realize we had all the same hobbies! 
@Juli1 I like reading your check-in because you apparently have some Island of Dr. Moreau stuff going on… 
@Piglet86 Good morning. I keep resetting that cig timer. 
It’s hard gaining traction on this one.
@Rockstar24777 We love you too! 
Day 9½
The word of the day is sleep. Lots of sleep. Took a nap yesterday at 3pm didn’t wake up until 9pm. Figured I’d be awake all night, but I was asleep again by 11:30. Stayed asleep until almost 7. Have no idea why I’m sleeping so much; the dreams though are interesting. Trying not to be too bummed out this morning. It just started. Looked at the calendar and realized I’d be leaving for Europe in just over 2 weeks if I hadn’t let alcohol back into my life. 
Anyway, I’m gonna have some coffee and I’ll check back in later.
Blesséd Thursday, everyone! 
Congratulations to a whole month of soberness!
@Nordique @Misokatsu @Rockstar24777 … Man look at you 3 and your numbers all posted back to back. This brings me joy to see you all killing it, winning against all odds. I’m glad to be on this journey with you all.
Hope it’s just my Chia Serum experiment that makes you think so 
Exactly! I’m not sure what it’s supposed to do, but the result will surely be an abomination against the natural order!! 
Definitely a lose-lose. Not quite sure how to resolve the situation. this is the second time I’ve brought something like this to her attention. Will be talking to my shrink about it tonight because I’m not happy where I’m at and I do not want that.
Misread the calendar yesterday. On day 363 today. Getting a little ahead of myself. The wife got home yesterday and there was not much talk about anything other than the dogs. She had an appointment with her shrink last night and I have one with mine tonight. Nothing negative or really positive said. She did thank me for doing the dishes which was appreciated. Rainy day here today so had to cancel the yard work, so will be doing some homework and studying. This is a picture of my Dhalia I put in the spring, didn’t expect it to bloom this year but got lucky! Hope everyone has a good day and stay safe.
What happens if you just listen?
Maybe you are on the money here and there’s something bigger going on. How about instead of addressing the house saying something like.
" My intuition is telling me that there is more going on here, did something happen at work… ?" Or word it however you see fit and then just listen…
I’m almost to 10 days… this is unreal. Thank you, everyone, for making this community a thing. I couldn’t have done this alone.
I was thinking about you and your wife a little bit and honestly I get like that with husband sometimes about stuff he leaves lying around the house, or not remembering to do things. I can get really naggy about things and it seems no matter if he responds or stays silent I feel even angrier. This could be a completely different situation than you and your wife and I could be completely way off base but I know for me oftentimes it’s actually because I’m feeling disconnected from him. It’s never about the clutter or the forgetfulness and it’s more about me feeling alone. I’ve talked to him about this before and I’ve told him if I get like that the best thing is probably to reach out and give me a hug. Again, this could be absolutely completely different for your wife, but I just thought I’d share my experience on the side of being the naggy bitch🤣
Day 9 morning check in
I had a great sleep last night and I can’t believe I got to sleep in until 7:30!! Even when I have the chance I can usually never sleep in!
I was feeling so sorry for myself yesterday about having to work. My husband took the day off and took my daughter to the lake so I was feeling a bit left out, but the in person class I had to teach in the afternoon ended up being one of the best. I got to meet a new participant. (I teach such a variety of classes and that one can be one of the most rewarding because I work with people who have Parkinson’s disease.) It’s a challenging class because it’s an all-level class and there was someone new who was really struggling but in the end they told me how amazing the class was and how I made them feel included even though they were extremely nervous to try it.
Last night I still had a lot of cravings for a drink but having a shower and making my iced coffee and then having my dinner really helped and I’m so excited to have made it through and be on day nine today. I wouldn’t have made it through without checking in here so thanks everyone 
**Day 30 **
Well today marks day 30, finally come to terms with the ex not wanting to try and make things work even for the kid. Now focusing on moving forward and doing what I can do To prep for the kid and to find closure and Better myself for myself, after it’s all said and done she’ll realize she should of stayed because all I did was love and support her even through all the mistreatment and uncalled for things she’s done. But here’s to new beginnings and a journey of becoming the single jacked dad 
I definitely feel a little better today and less off feeling . It really is about just staying busy and using the tools that have been taught to me . I learn so much from this community and what to do what I’m feeling lame about myself or down . I noticed the gratitude thread has helped and often use it to bring me back to reality when I feel lost . I beat myself up a lot but I know deep down I have come a long way and my outlook for my future has changed. I wanted to Initially just put the bottle down and thought everything would magically resolve but I’m learning it doesn’t work like that . I’m learning that little by little my brain is changing to make better choices and learn to be ok with my feelings and be ok with being in the moment. I’m learning how to make it through bad days and even the days I feel way to good !! Keeping things extremely basic and simple have saved me more times then I can remember and I think I will continue to keep things basic . I didn’t realize how much I was going to really learn about myself but this is part of the process . I’m grateful for your positive words and reaching out . I can very much relate to the journey that you are on . And how much you protect your mental health and sobriety . I’m glad you are part of this community. I hope you have a good day . Stay strong and keep pushing forward one day at a time 
